I'm a Failure · 9:46pm Feb 3rd, 2016
So, my report card for last semester showed up. I did really bad. Let's just say, I got F on practically everything. My dad was anything but pleased.
Sure, I could do better. But, it's hard to do better when you have two parents who are divorced and hate each other. A family, which can't even be considered one, constantly against each other and never getting along. How am I supposed to do really good in school with problems like that?
I'm depressed, and I have extremely low self esteem. Thanks to my mom. She says stuff like, "Youre gonna get diabetes some day if you keep eating like that. "You might wanna consider breast reduction surgery because your chest is so big." "You're never gonna have a boyfriend because you're irresponsible." Thanks. I'm only 15, and that's what I have to put up with whenever I go see her.
And my dad's not much better. Granted, he's not degrading, but he is bi polar. The main reason the divorce happened, was because he'd start throwing massive anger fits. He'd throws things, screams curse, etc. My mom, me, and my older brother would have to stay with people because he was too volatile. The police had to be called once.
But yeah. When he saw my report card, he was like, "You should be doing way better. If you don't have better grade this semester, I'm sending you to public school. I can't help you do school because I'm too busy. And it's looking like you can't handle it on your own. You clearly need a teacher standing over you constantly to get anywhere. You're also not distracted there. If you chat get a good grade on History and Reading, that's pitiful. They have to test you before hand at public school. And God knows what kind of grade you'll get."
I'm already depressed and have zero confidence in myself. This is exactly what I needed. Nothing I ever do is right. I can't make either of my parents happy. Every time I mess up, they see me as a failure. I make the smallest mistake, and I suffer greatly.
Now, as i sit here, writing this, and crying, I realise I'll never make anyone happy. I'll never do anything right. I wish my parents weren't right.
I wish I wasn't a failure.
I don't think you're a failure. This is all just a minor thing in life. The best course of action is to really focus on what's ahead in the long run and look positively at the future.
Now, what's the main cause of your report card; as in, what caused your bad grade, do you think?
3731320 It think there were a few reasons. I missed some stuff, and my teachers didn't say anything. Then I got bad grades on some but couldn't retake them. So, I'd say it was mainly those two things. My dad doesn't care though. He just thinks in slacking off or not paying attention. Sorry, didn't know I had to be perfect when I when have a ton of shit going on around me. I just wish everyone wouldn't except so much out of me, then be so shocked when I fail.
Everything will be ok eventually... Things always get better. Just try and focus harder and bring your grades up.
Uhm..Hey. I know your problems. My parents are divorced and my dad talks crap about everybody in my family and often calls me...something. My gardes weren't that great too, so I had to make a deal with my mother so I can stay on the computer. And don't worry about the choclate I eat so much of it I am suprised I don't have diabetes (and you can get it most of them time by genetics and usually old age it rarely effects people under the age of 30 as far as I know)
3731330 Hmm... The best course of action is to really focus on homework and studying. If you're starting to lag behind, confront your teachers and ask what you can do to bring your grade back up. If it's to pass a test, study long and hard. Make sure you have everything accounted for. Basically, go Twilight Sparkle on your academics. Maybe even remove a few things that are causing you to lag. If that includes Fimfiction, so be it. Believe me, education is everything.
If you're a Christian, pray for God's help. He'll always answer. Just have faith.
3731335 My grades are better. But. My dad doesn't care. If I get bad grades once, he pretty much expects them to be the same again.
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You should never call yourself a failure. Even if you don't do well in school, you're still good at other things.
If you can, maybe you should find a friend to help you study. Maybe find some weird form of motivation, like a fictional character or something. Anything that might help you. Just know that, even if you don't truly know them, a couple of random strangers on the internet are supporting you.
3731342 Like I said, my grades are much better this time around. Way better. But, I still get punished for it. As long as it happened, I'm guilty. Doesn't matter how long ago it was. I'm still in trouble.
3731353 Thanks. I don't really have anybody that can help. And those who can, are all too busy. They have busy lives, and can't be bothered with helping me.
3731350 I know. They all pretty much did that to me last semester. Now, the new teachers I have, let me know right away if I missed something. The other ones didn't. Not only did I miss stuff, but some teachers wouldn't let me retake stuff. They said I'd just have to do better this semester. Because they didn't want me digging myself into a deeper grave.
3731360 I always check Fimfiction every day. You have 22 people right now directly willing to help you, and there are more than a thousand willing to play their part in helping out, too.
3731341 Welcome to my world, honey.
3731359 Just because I suffer daily doesn't mean I want others to suffer with me. I'll do whatever is within my power to help Chocolate Pony and any friend of mine.
3731371 Thanks. I have a lot of supports on my other fanficiton site, wattpad. They try to encourage me and help me feel better. Thanks for adding to that group.
3731380 You always have my full support.
3731360 If I can in any way, I'll do my best to help you!
3731383 Thank you, darling. You're very kind.
I hope it gets better. Really, I can't help. I wish I could, I wish. But I can't. Sorry
3731385 Thank you very much.
3731388 It's ok. It's not your fault
You're not a failure. You're loved. The fact that people are taking time out to pray for you and comment here is proof of that. I've gone through troubling times, though perhaps not as severe. Darkness loves company, and the only true way we can know freedom is to banish that darkness by rejecting it as our identity and putting on the new robe provided from Above.
3731413 Aww, thank you. I didn't think I'd get this much support so quickly.
3731418 It is a pleasure to uphold others. You're loved more than you - or I, for that matter - can possibly know. Don't give up. You have friends, here and elsewhere, who are rooting for you
3731426
Thanks.
Sometimes parents can be jerks. Pretty soon you'll be 18- move out and be free. And you're not a failure!
3731437 I feel like one....
3731428 You're welcome. Things won't remain bad forever, I promise.
3731449 I hope so.
3731460 I know. I'm glad.
3731464 I'm entering music and YouTube when I'm older to put smiles on people's faces, help them out, and give them a good laugh. All by doing what I love doing.
3731447 your parents are NOT ALWAYS right.
It's wrong to put you down like they do- I couldn't imagine doing that to my son.
Write them a letter and tell them how much it hurts and how you feel
3731470 Wonderful
3731475 True
3731487 I've told my mom, but she doesn't care. She thinks I'm the one doing everything wrong. And my dad doesn't really think he's done anything wrong either.
Beyond being related, to your parents mean anything to you? Do you really care for them?
3731495 Of course I care about them. I just wish they'd show me more respect. Instead of putting me down so. Also...I'm adopted. So...yeah. We're not fleshy and bloody related.
3731498 What units are you working on in each of your subjects?
3731492 ugh!!!
Sweetie, the only suggestion I have to offer if this.
If your parents can't see the beautiful gift they've been given , which is you, and stop with the mental abuse .. You are going to have to accept the fact that the problem isn't you.
You go to school and do the best you can. That's really the only thing you need to do. Do the best you can.
Realize you can't control what other people do or say. U can only control what you do, and how you react.
Save your money and move out when you're 18. Don't let anyone tell you you're a failure
3731513 Well, we're in Unit 2 so far. I'm doing better now. That was just earlier grades that were bad.
3731517 I know. I try doing my best, but everyone thinks I'm not doing my best. I am. I truly am. But, everyone treats me like I'm not. And I always have to do better, or I'm never gonna be able to do anything in life. My parent love me, they just have a hard time showing it. Or acting like it.
3731526 I'm 47 years old and STIL can't get it right!! Lol eventually you just get used to it and laugh it off.
Just down best yourself up so bad. Nobody's perfect. Either are parents. You are s good person. Love yourself.
3731531 Wow, I didn't think someone of your age and wisdom would take the time to listen to me. I'd think you'd think I was just some whiny kid looking for attention.
3731526 Think of it this way, if you're doing good, yet they still think you're not doing your best, that just means that they think you can do great.
3731521 You say Unit 2, but that doesn't really mean anything to someone that doesn't have your textbook. Depending on what you're doing in your units, I might be able to help you.
I've got your back, girl. *hugs*
You're definitely not a failure. I can relate to that, though...
I cried myself to sleep constantly about three weeks before my report card, and although my grades weren't good either, we can still hold on. I mean, it'll have to get better eventually. Even if it doesn't seem like it will.
I mean, nothing can ever change my parent's mind (namely my grandfather), and possibly neither your parents' either.
And the diabetes thing? That's normally genetics, not eating too much. Yes, it can happen that way, but I'm a be truthful and say it's just flat out rude and false to say something like your mother did about getting diabetes. I doubt you will anyways, as I said it's mostly a genetic thing ;3 (as I've heard/read)
I read that your grades are better and things are still.... Downhill, but hey, when you get older, things'll get better. I mean, you can't live there forever, can you?
which I hope never becomes the case.
All we can do is wait. Or run away, but I really wouldn't suggest that unless you come to the verge of suicide
I'm not really good at helping people out with these things, but it's worth a try!
3731551 That's awfully nice. But, no thank you. I don't want to burden you. Besides, my teachers are helping more now. They just, weren't really last semester. They told me about stuf that was late at the last minute, and the only teacher that helped was with math. No other teachers helped with anything else.
You know this was the same mentality that drove me to put a gun to my head. That was the WORST mistake I ever made in my life. I was right around your age when I did that. Even when you think everything is lost, it truly isn't. There is always someone that is proud of you. If I can tell you anything its this, Don't do what I did, and if anything else, its your life you do what you wish with it. Others are there to either help or criticize, its like what they say about advice, "you get what you pay for it" there are multiple times where I have listened to people and other times I ignored them. You make your own decisions, other people don't make them for you. Take my advice, (even though I just said something about advice
) don't do what I did... its a bad idea.
3731585 Thanks. And yeah. I've consider suicide before. I've even cut myself. I have scars on my arms from it.
3731605 I'm glad you didn't pull the trigger. Though, I've considered killing myself before. Sometimes, it seemed like the only way out of a bad situation.