Thanks <3 · 12:35am Jan 15th, 2016
I accidentally logged on two days ago (laptop cookies), but it's probably good I did. I appreciate the support.
I'm on my tenth family of depression medications now (Prozac, ironically), not counting the off-brand uses of various other drug classes. If I'm extremely lucky, I might start to feel better in a month.
Whee.
Now, this isn't the first version of this message. I rewrote it maybe a dozen times.
Each time I tried to justify my social withdrawal, and each time it came out stupid. This tells me my feelings are probably stupid. But thinking and feeling are two very different worlds when you have a mood disorder.
In the interim, rather than say stuff I might regret if my brain ever gets fixed, I'll defer to others' judgment and try to be friendly, or at least as friendly as I can be from within my quiet box. 
Again, thanks everypony.
Ugh I feel you, sweetie. I take Lexipro and it isn't doing shit.
I feel like it's making it worse. My ADD zips getting so bad it's starting to affect my daily activities, I hate it.
I'm tired of having all these syndromes and disorders- really fucking tired of it.
I hope you find one that works for you.
Good luck, we'll keep our [fingers/hooves/tentacular appendages/space time distorsions] crossed and hope you'll feel better soon.
Feelings come from many causes and can be a lot of things, but stupid is never one of them. :)
You don't sound very hopeful about the new meds, and honestly I don't blame you. I know just from friends how persnickety they are, not to mention all the crap you've gone through.
But Luck owes me a couple, so I'll go pull some favors. In the meantime, don't withdrawal too far, okay? :3
I get the social withdrawal thing when my mood monster gets up to its shenanigans, so I know where you're coming from. Stupid thinking/feeling disconnect!
I hope the switch to Prozac helps! It can be a bit of an adventure, trying to find the one that works just so.
You've definitely got our support.
I'm looking forward to going off my meds again, once I'm settled into a happy career of some kind. I don't feel like 100mg of Zoloft per day really ever did me any good anyway. Fortunately the side-effects are mostly gone now, but I still have withdrawal to look forward to.
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If you decided to quit an SSRI or related drug recently, be sure to ramp down slowly. Coming off of it cold turkey can produce hellish withdrawal symptoms.
3695175 I went cold turkey off of (I think) Celexa years ago, and that was interesting. I get a sort of weird high from being depressed ever since I experienced suicidal ideation as a teen while on Accutane.
I don't want to raise my risk of other withdrawal symptoms, and I know I should to be careful about a spike in depression too, (though I don't think it will get in the way too terribly), so I'll definitely do it with a doctor's guidance this time.
I didn't see this when you posted it (the last week has vanished into furry convention stuff), but I wanted to pass along some belated good thoughts. If I could wave a magic wand and make medical problems vanish from reality, depression would be abnormally high on the list. Seriously, fuck depression, and the weird brain-chemistry loops that lead to it.
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Imma assume you probably mean FC, since it's around that time. (I haven't been to a West Coast con in over a decade, sadly.)
Thanks for your thoughts.
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That was the one! FC's my hometown con. Or, well, the closest that a furry con gets to my rural town. Except that Biggest Little Furcon in Reno is actually closer, so I've been attending that too, except it wasn't last weekend and FC was, which is why this came up in the first place.