They were supposed to feel sublime.
It was not supposed to be like this.
It had started right. Warm breath against fur, lips touching, dinners, the garden, moonlit nights. Perfection. That warm feeling in your chest she cherished so much.
Celestia's thoughts drifted backwards, to dinners and walks past. Conversations about magic and life. Her beautiful face caressed by candle light, tiny photon fingers making her seem like the star Celestia controlled. So wonderful, and perfect, and-
It had all been a lie, hadn't it?
Just - Just a product of lust and fear and stupidity.
Her thoughts came closer to the present now, to a few weeks ago. First cracks. A slight pause in her speech where it shouldn't have been, annoyance in her mind that lingered for longer than it usual. It had all felt magical at first, even with the uncertainty, but that feeling started to go away, and...
Neither of them had known what to do. They hadn't even talked about it, although they both knew the other was feeling the same way. Maybe that was the issue. Maybe.
But now, staring at the empty space, Celestia felt cold.
It was a strange fight. Twilight's voice had risen in volume, but only slightly. She never screamed. Celestia, for her part, maintained a lower volume, trying to get herself in a mood she normally reserved for dealing with moronic diplomats. While she had maintained her volume, she could not prevent her voice from faltering.
Twilight had started it. In Celestia's mind, anyway. "So... Are we ever going to tell anybody about this? About us?"
"Of course, Twi," Celestia responded, trying to put off the subject. It wasn't something she liked to think about. She enjoyed her time with Twilight - More than any other time she had ever experienced - But she couldn't imagine the people would take kindly to their goddess taking her student as an intimate partner.
"When, though?" Twilight replied, pushing the issue. "I mean- I'm a bit frightened about the whole thing, but we've been dating for a few months, and... We have to tell somebody eventually, right?"
Although Celestia had no way of knowing, Twilight had been working up the courage to ask this for a long time. Her friends had always gone to her with their personal lives. Spike, Applejack, Rarity - They didn't keep many secrets, and when they did, it almost always lead to ruin. Even though she was terrified of what their reaction might be, she had to tell them. It felt wrong not to.
"Just- Not now, okay?"
"Why not now?"
"It's not time."
"I- I mean, when will it be time?"
"Eventually, Twilight. These things are complicated. Politics, and such."
"Oh."
The candles on the table in front of them flickered slightly. The room was filled with suffocating silence for a few moments, before Twilight spoke again.
"Guess I wouldn't know about that, then."
"Well," Celestia replied, "I guess you wouldn't. You aren't really that involved in political matters."
The corners of Twilight's mouth twitched slightly.
"Yeah, just into books and studying. Unimportant librarian, somehow dating a sun goddess."
"Hey, you're not unimportant!" Celestia exclaimed, trying to backtrack. She was annoyed, but Twilight's words still gave her pings of dull pain. "You're the only person in the whole world I really feel connected to!"
"So why can't we tell anybody? Why can't we share that?"
Celestia's response seemed strained.
"It's- It would cause disaster!"
The words seemed to smack the very air around them.
"I- People would panic, and-"
"Oh, disaster," Twilight said, her voice growing in maliciousness but not volume, "Yeah, great way to describe us."
"No, we're- We're not-"
"Student dating a teacher who happens to be, quite literally, thousands of years older than her?" Twilight cocked her head slightly, her brown descending upon her eyes, "Yeah, I'm sure we're not a disaster. My parents won't think we're a disaster at all."
"Then why do you want to tell them?"
"Because we need to be honest! We can't keep hiding! Who knows what could happen if we-"
"Twilight, you really must understand," Celestia interrupted, trying to regain control of the situation, "We need to think of a way to break it to them. If it's too jarring, we could make them overly hostile, and that would just hurt our case."
"Oh. Right. So how about we discuss it? We haven't even-"
"I'm sure we can get to that some other time, when we're more calm. In fact, me and my sister have been talking about it, and I think we have a few ideas. For now, can we please just finish dinner?"
Twilight stared at her for a few seconds, before speaking in a blank voice.
"You've... Discussed it with your sister."
"Yes. She often helps me in times like this."
Twilight shook her head slightly as she spoke.
"But... Not... Me."
Celestia only nodded as Twilight slowly stood up from her chair.
"I'm sorry, I- I have to be going. I forgot something very important."
"Twilight, don't-"
But, a flash of her horn later, she was gone.
With her, it seemed, went Celestia's chest. Still staring at the spot that had once been Twilight a half an hour later, she struggled to describe the feeling.
Dim. Unlit. The sun goddess thought. That's it.
Oh Celestia...... dl.dropbox.com/u/31471793/FiMFiction/emoticons/sillyfilly_Twilight_Sparkle.png
Great chapter, as always! This story just keeps getting better and better with each new chapter. I only have this to say:
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Celestia...
Here come the "sad" tag.
This relationship have issues to begin with. Celestia is somewhat selfish because she only think about her own problems regarding the public and not enouth about Twillight feelings.
Twillight herself is irrationnal in this chapter because she doesn't think about the consequences and about what she is saying. (She is quitte bitchy , Fluttershy should slap her. )
I guess the major problem is the lack of communication in itself.
Celestia the unwise thousand years old ruler strike again. ( I have yet to see a story where Celestia is wise or competant. )
Oh , can I hope for a good end ?
MOAR PLSSSS
Only the people you love have the power to cause you this much pain ...
*GASP*
YOU DONE BORKED, CELLY!
Just because you're several thousand years old, it doesn't mean that you're any good at interpersonal relationships. This is especially the case for Celestia who has been the role of the Diarch of the Day for so long that I think she's forgotten how to be Celestia.
Celestia trying to reason with her like how she rules, not as a lover. I just wish it wasnt so short, maybe next one longer please, had to wait a while for it Want moar twilestia :3.
Yes! Juicy Twilestia drama just started. Their differences in characters and social statuses can be a great source of all sorts of conflicts. This can go well I hope we'll get a ride on great emotional rollercoaster.
Not entirely sure how one becomes an immortal sun goddess while still being awkward and uncomfortable about this kind of thing. I mean...if she simply blithely announces it, what exactly are people going to do? Complain? That the goddess who brings light to their world has a girlfriend? There's a certain amount of power one can have after which one can at which point one gets to make the rules. The goddess who sustains all life on the planet is clearly well past that point.
2497025 really? You haven't been looking hard enough, I think. But to be fair no writer is also a politician on a global scale in their spare time; it's the other way around usually. So how can we possibly write believably for that role all the time?
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True. Most authors write these roles believably enouth , my point was not to critisize them on it , sorry if it was perceived as such. My point was more that I tend to see Luna or Twillight written as competent more often than Celestia , which is kind of strange when you think about it. I wonder sometime if people dislike her or something.
Well , it add some drama and some good drama is always welcome.
2599114 I think it's more because people have trouble getting into her head. They can see her emotional side but not how she hides it and why. Furthermore, it's very, very difficult to write a character both emotionally withdrawn and sympathetic without giving them a POV constantly.
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Writing Celestia is basically impossible, because she is a benevolent god-mother-empress who has a chess master streak but isn't too manipulative. Real people don't work the way she does.
As such, most people just decide that she must be internally struggling, and write stories off of that.
(Sorry for the lack of updates, BTW, I've been incredibly busy.)
2611183 oh people like her exist. But they're extremely rare and us normal people have trouble getting into their mind sets. Also, she's written well for a thousand year old monarch who's held a throne for a thousand years. That said it's hard to write her believably and still make her sympathetic. The writers of the show go for believable. The fan base goes for sympathetic. Her mindset is just too alien for us regular folks otherwise.
Waiting for update :/. After happened bwetween twilight and celly i'd like to see you explain what shes gona do about it, or if twi is feeling down, what her friends think is wrong. =x update from saddness plz?
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Sorry, still very busy.
Next weekend, I promise.
Loosely.
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I apparently lied.
Ah well. Sometime soon, I promise.
Ouch. That could have gone better. Still, it could've been worse too, and every relationship has its rocky moments.
Upvoted and put on the Update Alert list.
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It's mostly done, actually.
I just don't like it yet.
2873551 you should run it by some prereaders and see what they think the problem is and what they think is the solution. If they don't see a problem then it's probably just a disconnect between writer and story.
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I just sent it off to my single proofreader. We'll see what he thinks.
On a semi-related note, his job would be much easier if I had more than one. Anybody want to volunteer?
2875071 how fortunate I happen to be an editor. *Raises hoof*
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Sending these over messages instead of comments would be a good idea, so they're not open to the public...
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You have yet to see a story where Celestia is wise and competent because you can't handle the quality of fanfiction where she is represented properly. Also, most people are Lunafags and think the heavens shine out of her ass just because she's the anti-hero. Surely they're all Uchiha fans, too.
Point being, if you actually understood what you were reading, or if you'd ever actually been in a relationship, Celestia's not ACTUALLY worried about the mass panic so much as she's frightened of her own feelings, and seeking (albeit plausible and very likely) excuses to give herself time in the comfort zone, where it's just her and Twilight and no one else needs to know and complicate matters for them.
That whole "We'll face the world together!" thing is just bullshit romantic novel drivel. No one actually does that unless they're an idiot. Celestia is being quite wise despite the fact (which you seem to have forgotten) that in thousands of years of life, this is a NEW EXPERIENCE for her. She's spent more years than you can possibly ever, ever comprehend ruling and protecting an entire species, and by extension the entire world. She hasn't had TIME to think about herself, no TIME to consider how or what she feels when she's not being "Princess" Celestia because she has ALWAYS been "Princess" Celestia rather than just... Celestia. Your piss-poor comment proves you don't understand the character, the situation, or the setting. So, regardless of how long ago you made that post, I'm giving you a fail.
you were just shut down celestia