'Cause vodka makes everything right again after a day of anxiety and panic attacks, right?

Check out the song; trust me, it is awesome, even if you aren't a metalhead \m/

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e7kJRGPgvRQ

If the link doesn't work, looking up "vodka" should summon the right video first. If not, keep in mind the title of this arbitrary blog :)

Thank any one of our alicorn goddess that I start seeing a therapist, in addition to my regular psychiatrist, sometime next week.

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So....anyone who read my bio knows I have Bipolar Disorder....
Well, today was the epitome of that.

Ups and downs and all arounds of emotions, constantly going back to the things/people that upset me the moment I calm down, mood message/avatar on Skype constantly changed because of it just to show it....

I don't know why some days it seems like my pills just don't work. I don't want to be actual me, I want to be calm, emotionally suppressed me!

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I'm doing a stream for the Depression and Bipolar Support Alliance tomorrow. Be on the lookout if you either want to support me or donate to them.

https://youtu.be/Y4LIFYlzpfE

So I read a story on FIMFic today, and now I need to get some things out. Dunno if anyone will read this. Doesn't really matter if they do. very little editing. sorry if it's hard to follow.

– ohokayohokayohokayohokay –

A little over a month ago, my mother had a manic episode.

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The voices are back,I'm in a big down from the bipolar disorder,and I'm cold,I just want to lay down and cry,I feel useless...A complete trash...
Luckily,I don't got class this week...
And sorry if I'm being a burden to you all, I just needed to tell someone...

For being so absent.

I've been dealing with inner demons as of late.

I'm not sure I've shared this openly or not. But I suffer from Bipolar Manic Depression, I have most of my life.

It's this black tar in my life which in many ways, has stunted my growth as a person.

I'm not as open with others as I wish I could be, I'm very introverted to a limit , I just seem to sink into nothingness.

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For better or for worse, this may turn out interesting...

So I might not be to finish my degree if Rauner gets his way...

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SWEET MUTTERFICKERS!

2 glasses of absinthe is like taking 5 shots if you drink it too quickly...

I have to go to work tomorrow. I'm not prepared for the imminent cottonmouth.