I’m Not Down Yet · 2:46pm Jul 2nd, 2021
Hi. Been a bit since you heard from me, hasn’t it? I imagine you’ve been wondering if I’m doing alright, or what I’ve been working on. Have I been writing? I’m trying to. Below, I go into personal matters. If you want to stop here, you can. I won’t fault you none.
Have I been doing ok? Yes and no.
Yes, because I’ve been doing my best to care for myself. I’ve been exercising. I’ve been eating well. I’ve been brainstorming new ideas. Stories of erotica, stories for my alt account. I have one draft finished and ready for editing, other ideas in progress. I’m participating in the Summer Sin contest this year, so someone will get a surprise gift story from me.
But also...no. No, because there is a specter that hangs over my family and has for the past year and a half. My father’s health has been in decline. He’s a diabetic, and has cirrhosis of the liver due to his abuse of alcohol. He has not tried to stop over the years we’ve begged him to stop. And now, presently as I write this, we’re in the hospital as we await him to have a procedure to check his throat for bleeding issues.
Grisly, isn’t it? I apologize to you for describing it, but I have to get this out of me. This is the thing that’s been haunting me for months. And you would think for someone who writes such positive minded erotica, I wouldn’t be having such troubles. But I do. It has not been the easiest thing to deal with. I have had to make several sacrifices.
I won’t try to preach at you all, for multiple reasons. There are those with worse things plaguing them every day, individuals I pray for who deserve mercy in some form or way. The anger of his alcoholism I had in me, I’ve made peace with. Because he is who he is, and I cannot make him change. But for those out there struggling with the same issue, be it a family member, a special someone, or even yourself, take it from me.
You have choices that you can make. Decisions that only you can make. If you can think forward and ahead, to see where those decisions will go, then you can have a hand on the wheel of life much better than you think you can. Don’t let anger or bitterness rule you. You can feel it, understand it. But don’t let it control you. I believe in all of you.
Don’t give up.
-Steel Quill
Hugs and best wishes!
I hope things on your end get better.
All my best wishes, Steel
All my best wishes, Steel
Sending love and good vibes your way.
Thoughts and prayers, friend!
Hope you the best and hugs and wishes to you in the future
That's a lot to deal with, always look after yourself first. Fiction can wait.
Wishing the best for you and your family!
Stay awesome!
My prayers to you and your family my friend.
Have you heard of a user named Holy? They two are facing their trials and as from one human to another it’s better if you know people who are in similar circumstances as you so that you don’t feel alone in this.
My Best wishes to Your family steel
Good luck bud; we all got your back!
I can't imagine what you're going through but, you have my support regardless.
We are here for you man. Through thick and thin.
I struggle with alcoholism and my doctor prescribed me Topiramate, 50mg. It's for weight loss and sleep, but it has the added bonus of cutting down alcohol cravings.