! Darn... I don't know about you, but to me, 2022 passed FAST! Then again, with all the crap that happened around the world, maybe that's for the better 
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! Check it out! Indifferent, tired, burned out, and... lost. · 8:49pm Feb 23rd, 2021
I don't know what the hell is going on, but I've been feeling like a POS for the past few weeks. I'm either tired, nervous, or angry, and I can't focus on anything productive. Nothing seems to bring me lasting joy - just yesterday, I finally pushed myself to watch Avengers Infinity War + Endgame, hoping it would help... But my mood was 'meh' before and 'meh' after, and not because the movies were bad...
The damn mood swings have affected my writing as well - there is no longer any joy in it... Frankly, any attempt to write feels more like a goddamn, tiring chore. Worse, my ability to spew anything funny or constructive has gone to hell. I've been working on 5 stories since the beginning of the year, but everything I wrote was total crap 
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I feel... lost. I don't know what is going on or what to do about it, but unless something changes, I'm afraid you shouldn't expect any new stories coming from me (including the rewrite of 'Lonely Among Us'). I'm sorry, but at the moment, I just... can't 
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... I'm not sure if sharing your problems with anyone is a good idea - especially given the current state of the world. But some say getting things off your chest may help, so... here we are.
Thanks for reading...
Well, you are not alone with your feelings/problems, a lot of people share this kind of trouble these times. All the stuff going on in the world makes everyone less happy and moody, so for the time beeing its absolutly fine to feel a bit uneasy.
It will get better as soon as this whole pandemic thing is over and people start to do stuff again sharing good vibes and make new exoting expiriences.
For you Personal, I would say don't you worry aboit your writing for the time being, take the time to care for yourself and do something that entertains you and does yourself good instead. If its not tge movies, try something else, maybe cooking or who knows what you may find interesting.
Been there before. Take all the time you need an focus on your mental health.
I'm sorry to hear that you're so down. Your word choices do suggest depression--including the persistent 'meh' even when doing things that you thought you should enjoy. It has been going on long enough, from what you say, to go see your doctor and tell them you're feeling depressed.
Your problems and how you feel about them, wanting to talk about them, it's all valid no matter how it might look in the big scheme of things. Small problems are real, too. Besides, if you aren't doing anything creative, that's actually a big problem, not something minor.
*Hugs* Maybe if you hang in there, if you are in a place where there's heavy winters, the season change will help.
Whatever the problem is, I hope it gets better soon. I hope you'll be all right.
Maybe you're not looking for any advice, and anything I have to say could be irrelevant anyway, so if you're not in the mood for any advice just skip this next part:
I'm not sure, amongst all the people I've talked to about this, whether I've ever mentioned to you anything about food intolerances. I'm deliberately something of a broken record on this subject. Doctors can help with whatever you're going through, but I've never had them anticipate this problem and it has been a major issue for me three times.
Relevant to your situation, I've gone through being completely unmotivated in the evening and depressed in the morning and discovered that I was eating too many potatoes, especially the whole roasted kind with skin on.
Each person might have different food intolerances. If you think you might have a food intolerance, you can test yourself by avoiding the food for two weeks, eliminating one food at a time. With such pervasive emotional issues, if there is a food intolerance, the problem would be something that you eat at least a few times a week. Start with caffeine. Then almonds, wheat, dairy, eggs, potatoes,soy, and corn. Rotate back in the foods that you had no issue with, and if you feel better just stay off the food, possibly eating it very occasionally once you've had a long time off of it.
Again, tell your doctor about your emotional problems, but this is something you can test on your own.
Hope you feel better soon.
My recommendation? Take a break, step away from the writing for a bit and do something else. Burn out is a major issue and with everything that is going on just makes it worse.
HEY! What about asking your readers and followers to suggest movies, comics, webcomics, stories, etc to look into reading or watching! Maybe look for an online D&D group to do a oneshot or campaign with! Hell why not find a multiplayer game that you can play with your Followers!
Just something to take the tedium out of life for a bit!
I think it might be time to go to your doctor and ask for some happy pills.
I had noticed this change in your posts, but didn't ascribe it to anything more than that. If you want an explanation, the general theme of events from the last couple months is most likely a large factor. We saw a lot of conflict between people, sides and lines being established, and a very real expectation that we were going to enter a new chapter in the history books. But nothing really happened; the frustrations, tensions, and anxieties didn't reach any kind of event or closure. It was the political equivalent of being blue-balled.
The actual effect of this happening includes some psychological damage. Causality, our belief in cause and effect, was jarred; imagine watching a bottle rolling off a table but instead stopping right at the edge or continuing rolling on air. Things were expected to happen that didn't. This can throw people off balance and result in mood changes as a response.
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Thanks for the suggestions. I'll try some of that. Although, I have to say that everything getting more and more 'meh' has been happening even before the pandemic. There were periods where it was striking harder, but it never lasted more than two weeks... until now.
I think I know what it's related to, and hopefully, it will go away on its own. If not, I'll have to take the break from the net completely (it wouldn't be such a bad idea anyway).
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As far as I know, getting 'happy pills' in Europe is not an easy task. They prefer to limit the usage of drugs to a minimum here, focusing on other therapy forms instead. The same applies to opioids - you're not gonna get them unless you really need them.
So that's pretty much out of my reach.
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Hmm, that can be pretty spot on, except the thing you mentioned is still ongoing as far as I can tell.
But what's the cure? Stop giving a f*ck about it (ignorance is bliss and stuff), turn off everything, and stop caring?
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Well, one thing you can do is isolate those months in a box and close the lid with some arbitrary milestone or boundary. "Out of sight, out of mind" is unnervingly effective for humans. However, that only works if you put it behind you and don't revisit it later. And truth be told, I don't think this series of events is done yet; too many people have gotten too invested and too passionate about things that separate them from others, at least in the US.
"I think I know what it's related to, and hopefully, it will go away on its own. If not, I'll have to take the break from the net completely (it wouldn't be such a bad idea anyway)."
A break couldn't hurt. I hope it helps. Take care of yourself.
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I have one more suggestion, I always find it does me some good!
CRACKFIC something you would never normally write, something full to the brim of Cringe, jokes, references and just hilarious nonsense that would make the worst Vulcan Hit the floor laughing!
Again just another suggestion.
5460788 I was referring to antidepressants. I'd find it very hard to believe that you'd have a hard time getting some, they're not likely to be used for recreational purposes. Regardless, that's not an excuse to stop you from asking your doctor. So go do it. Besides, it sounds like you really need them.
As for that... it wouldn't hurt to try to take a break from it for a while. Stop watching the news (they're all propaganda rags, anyway), avoid politics. Focus on other things. If not your writing (mine is suffering for similar reasons), some other hobby perhaps. Take up something new, if nothing else.
...Or, try to write something new that works on what you're feeling right now. Make up a story to vent your frustrations.
What you're describing sounds like clinical depression (from one who knows, I have treatment-resistant depression).
Ask your doctor about this. Do not delay. This can be a serious disease of needless suffering caused largely by hormonal and chemical imbalance, and there are many options that can help you.
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Yeah... I'm trying to do that, but every few days something new pops out and makes me livid... again.
I admire people who can just wave it off and say 'f*ck it, who cares,' but I have a tendency to think about it over and over, unable to get it out of my head. Not exactly a healthy habit, but it is what it is.
I'll keep on trying...
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Hmm, there is one story that's been on my mind for a long time where this could work... Maybe I'll try that, even if only to see what kind of crap I'll be able to spew
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I know you were talking about anti-depressants, but from what research I did two years back, the path to having them prescribed is not exactly pleasant nor easy. That said, I'm looking into it again. In the meantime, I will get my hands on some OTC stuff (Hypericum pills and similar). Maybe they will do something.
As for politics... yeah, I'm trying to stop watching that stuff, but it's easier said than done. YT's 'here is stuff for you to watch' algorithm is not helping either
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As for the 'vent story' - I'm thinking about it (actually astarted one, but lost motivation...). We'll see...
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Thanks for the advice - I'm looking at how that works around here. But as stated above, from what I read in the past, getting anti-depressants is not a pleasant or easy thing to do in Poland. And as far as I understand it, other forms of treatment consist of... talking to people about my feelings and stuff... I honestly cannot imagine me doing that due to the possibility of landing in a loony bin/suicide watch if some doctor decides that it's 'better safe than sorry.'
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Hey, I'm right there in that boat with you. I'm not trying to get out of it yet because I don't think it's the right time, but that's just me; I'd be having the same issue when I did.
Here's a fun exercise: search YT for "Tucker Carlson". The first pages of results aren't his show, but clips from The Daily Show endlessly attacking him for all manner of imagined-or-real reasons.