May
8th
2018
I feel like an idiot · 10:09am May 8th, 2018
What's the point of living anymore? I've screwed up my life (both online and IRL) and I'm just a loser. Why do people even like me? I'm sorry that I'm like this today. Memories of past events have caused me to hate myself. I do hate myself. Why am I even a Christian? I don't want to be horrible, but I am. WHY?! Why did God make me this way? Why did he make me rubbish at Maths, rubbish at computers and awful to people?
I'm sorry, everyone, for messing up in life and for hurting others. I feel like a right noob:( That be all.
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TheMysteryMuffin · 351 views
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Ok. First, calm down. (I mean that and what I’m going to say in the nicest way)
Second. Screwing up is just a part of life. It’s better took accept the disappointment and take it as a lesson rather than wallow in it. Trust me, I know how that feels.
Having flaws is a part of being a human. To know your flaws and to try and improve yourself for the better to tackle those flaws allows you to grow as a person.
Take a deep breath and tackle things one at a time.
All the best.
(Apologies if I come across as condescending. That’s not my intention.)
God gives you weaknesses so that you may learn to be humble and come to him. And when you do, he will make weak things become strong unto you.
If that sounds bad, I'm sorry. But weaknesses do not make you weak.
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Hello again,
Firstly, you didn't come across as condescending, so it's all good.
Secondly, yes, you are right; flaws do just come naturally to us humans and we do all mess up sometimes. It's just that I've tend to mess up with my friends, family and followers on FiMfiction. The problem is that I never want to cause harm to others or hurt others in a way that causes tension across all sorts of levels. I have moved on from the most serious of situations, however usually these problems start with me when I get the wrong end of the stick (like a joke or something that's meant to be innocent, but causes problems for myself or a follower). I just don't want to cause cause a problem for others. I'm angry at myself; not other users.
Hey, I never see myself as perfect. But when it comes to others' feelings, that's where it gets depressing, because sometimes even the people that I know I'll never get on with, I can lash back verbally, especially after being threatened someway or another. I never want to be a bully, but sometimes people go too far and push the buttons that are never meant to be pressed.
Well, thanks for helping me again. I just hope that I can find peace with those who I have clashed with or they've clashed with me.
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True. I guess it's jealousy that controls me and that's when I completely turn my personality on its head. I guess if I wasn't bad at Maths, then I wouldn't be so great at writing stuff. I always want to believe in God, because he has always been there for me, but there I days when I'm angry at him for the times where I tend to mess up and had to clean a lot of it. I start my exams very soon and I'm attempting my third resit at Maths. I've passed English, so I am praying that I get it on this go, so that I get to learn the things that I want to learn. I'm pretty sure that after all of that's been done, I'll feel more positive about myself.
I guess only what happens next matters. I just question myself a lot, that's all. Thanks anyways for the advise.
(gives Muffin a tight hug)
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That's very insightful.
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*hugs back*
So, on the religious front, I apologize, for I am no help whatsoever. But on every other front, I cam understand. Why do people like you? Because they see something in you that you might not see I'm yourself. I have the same question burning in my head every day. Are you really as horrible as you believe yourself to be? I highly doubt that. Once again, that's something that stabs at me all the time. Being rubbish at math or programming doesn't make you a bad person, and people are always a bit weird to deal with. Clearly, you're no loser, as there are people willing to follow your work and offer up support. You have friends, and if there's one thing everyone that goes to this site knows, it's that friendship is magic. So, let your friends help you.
*hugs you*
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Thanks, you guys! Friendship is indeed magic!