Oct
19th
2014
I'm so, so sorry about this . . . · 11:37pm Oct 19th, 2014
Chitin is on hiatus until I find an antidepressant that works for me without side effects.
I'd like to establish as soon as possible that I am seeing a psychiatrist, and I've already found a medicine that made me feel much, much better. It had side effects I didn't like, but as soon as I got off it, I pretty much turned into a puddle of angst. I'm not going to vent any of that on you folks, and I have no intention of turning into one of those writers who use their readers as unpaid therapists.
As it stands, I just don't feel like I can muster the energy to write this story properly. I'm hoping to change that as soon as possible.
Take care of yourself first. Story can wait.
Oh dear. Take as much time as you need. Do you mind if you hear my advice?
2544233 Go for it if you want. I think I know what to do, I just need time to try the meds and see what works for me.
Don't worry about it; you're not the only author I know who has antidepressants interfering with writing. Good luck!
It's one of the great tragedies of human nature that awesome creativity often goes hand-in-hand with psychological difficulties like this. :(
Don't worry about us, though. I think all your readers will be totally understanding and your own health comes first. Your stories are gifts to us, after all. There's absolutely no need to apologize for taking a break as needed.
2544246 Alright. So the meds may work, they may not, try to find an activity as well to supplement. I'm a kinect learner kind of guy, so simple physical activities relax and rejuvenated me when I was struggling with depression as well. I liked to take simple walks around the neighborhood and you would not believe the number of story ideas I had sitting on my family's ridding mower going in circles.
I'd also try out some different sleep patterns as well. All throughout my school years I had 10 hour sleep periods at night and woke up miserable. When I started working for my dad, going to bed at 12 and waking up at 630, I felt like one of those kinds of morning people everyone wishes to shoot, with enough good mood to last a bad day.
Now this is coming from a unrepenting shut in who went through an average case of hard depression during his school days. So I'm talking from a personal understanding point (will never truly understand what you're going through as you're you and I'm me). Last thing I can think of is just talk. Sit down in your room when you're alone at home and talk to your childhood stuffed animal, or mirror, or just open air, or write in a journal, or even with a family member if you feel like it. I found that just getting your mind into the air with the action of speaking or writing was very liberating, even if what I talked about was never heard by anyone except me and God (I also had the support of a faith, maybe you could look into that as well,
BUT DON'T TAKE THAT AS PRESSURE!!!
Just giving you options sugercube.
)
Good deed done for the day, and you're the second person I've talked to today at 830PM
(The anti-social is STRONG in this one...
)
Take as much time as you need. At the very least you'll have me waiting on you if you decide to come on back.
Hope you find what you're looking for.
Personally I found Ponies to be my anti-depressant. They did break me out of an 8 year slump with Winter Wrap Up.
Has your doctor checked your hormone levels? Testosterone/Estrogen and Thyroid levels are probably the most common sources of hormone-based depression, but any kind of hormonal imbalance can cause depression.
Do what you need to do to get yourself in a healthy state of mind. Your health comes first.
Talk to your doctor/psychologist about ketamine. I have heard from some medical blog sites that there are good results with depression and don't have the side effects of the normal gamut of anti-depressants.
Take care of yourself. We can wait
2544818 Horse tranquilizers as an antidepressant? Seriously?
*Googles*
Okay, Wikipedia mentions it's actually being tested for that, but I just got away from the last psychiatrist who wanted to fill me with scary hardcore pills* because he thought they might help! I'm staying with the normal stuff for now.
* First clonazepam, then lamictal. He wanted me on both of them full-time, despite all the warnings not to take clonazepam long-term, and he started me on a massive dose of clonazepam that seriously messed me up. I also found out that he was having patients combine stimulants with some drugs that were known to cause potentially lethal spikes in blood pressure if taken with any form of stimulant. That was when I got the hell out.
Damn. Hope you find something soon. Don't worry about the story, just take care of yourself, and if you do feel an urge to vent, feel free to send a PM.
Author before creations. Take care of yourself.
I'm sorry to hear that you're not doing so hot. I respect you not turning us into your personal therapists but, if you want to talk or anything, I'm here for you. Take care of yourself.
I know how depression can really stink. I hope that you find something that works well for you soon.
Sighs . Im sorry your not feeling well but there is an old age cure that may work but only if you belive and its not very expenasive. All you need is a bit of amythist and some Faith. dont blame you at all for leaving someone that wants to fill you with drugs most times they dont work. But that aside take your time and come back to use with another Chapter when you are ready
Just keep looking at your like:dislike ratio (709:25 24 right now), you've still got a fanbase to revel in...
2556346 I threw up in a trash can once. A text message about it got uploaded to a website called Texts From Last Night. It has ten times as many likes as anything else associated with me.
All things considered, I'd prefer not to look at this sort of thing in terms of the like ratio.
(Besides, hardly anyone read How Equestria Was Made, and I firmly believe it's a better story than Chitin.)
Thanks for the support, though. I do feel like I'm starting to do better. It's just slow.