lofty ambitions · 10:01pm Jan 11th, 2013
so.
the new story is up. i'd appreciate it if you'd read it - but that also means AP's half of our 'trade' is up, and you should definitely go read that, as AP is an amazing writer who deserves more attention than they get.
some thoughts about the story, because i feel there's more to say than just the description gets at:
firstly, yes, it is fairly sexual. i understand that trying to accomplish any feat of greater storytelling under the confines of 'having sex with ponies' as a premise is a bit of a flawed endeavour - but damnit, i wanted to do something special here.
there are some rough spots in the story, for sure. one of the things i struggled with was the first person perspective, because, while i feel it's a great tool for introspection and a unique storytelling voice, it made certain pieces of exposition really hard. specifically the crux of the story's plot (which i won't spoil here); i had a whole set-up and set of scenes envisioned leading up to that, but the problem is that all of them would have needed to take place outside the character's perspective. so, to the reader, who's floating along in jason's head the whole way, the turning point of the story seems to come out of nowhere, when really it's been building behind the scenes for a while. i don't know if that's a limitation i could have overcome with different orchestration, but i guess i'm moderately okay with how it came out.
the second thing is that, as i said previously, i did want to put some kind of message or thought into this story. part of the problem with that is the level of transparency of any underlying meaning to the reader. in analysis of 'real' literature, the onus is on the reader to study the text and draw the meaning out - in fanfiction, or any work of writing that doesn't immediately imply literary significance, the writer has to prove out that there is meaning. that can make the idea of a loftier theme or message kind of clunky or heavy-handed. there's a lot of implied meaning in this story, but i had to do some work near the end to make the meaning more overt, and i hope it doesn't make the story seem too clumsy as a result.
with all of the above said, what have i done, really? i wrote almost 40,000 words of a pony porn story that, while possibly containing a good narrative arc, is still just fanfiction smut. does that mean i wasted my time? probably.
i guess if no one else takes more out of this than a story that was worth reading, that will be enough, but i do hope that after all the work i put into it that someone gets a little bit more out of the whole thing.
and of course, i'm happy in the end to write it no matter what, because it's for someone very special to me, and as long as they like it, that's all that matters.
dunno what i'm up to next. probably more shorter stuff. but, this was a fun journey, and i hope everyone enjoys what will probably be my failed attempt at my 'magnum opus' of underage pony porn.
lates.
ah new story? well off to read it
I for one enjoy your writing, period. Porn or not.
All of this makes me deliriously happy.
You succeeded. All there is to say.
I'm curious as to what your intended message was. From what I read, it's something a lot the lines of, "Humans are decent creatures, capable of resisting temptation beyond what we would think. But when shoved in his face, man will succumb to his baser desires. Oh, and given absolute power, he will become, essentially, a rapist."
That sounds kinda cynical, but you sometimes strike me as such. If I'm way off base and that isn't what you meant, I apologize for assuming so poorly of you.