Chapter 10 - To Stand
I was at my kitchen table eating supper when I heard the sound of crunching gravel out front. Before I could react, the front door was knocked off its hinges. Dark figures burst in and charged, reaching out to me with scaly claws. I grabbed my long sword and took a swing at one of them. The first one fell, but the rest of them quickly overwhelmed me.
I fell to the floor under their weight and heard an awful tearing noise. Next thing I knew I was falling into a starry void. A tear in the space lead back into the kitchen and I could see scrabbling claws around the edge. I could hear the familiar corrupted voice of the leader in the distance but it was fading fast.
“It’s time to finish paying the bill brat. They’ve already covered the rest of the cost”
It was like the nightmare I had escaped didn't even realize I was gone. I tried to face a different direction and easily began to spin and turned my back on the tear. In the distance, there was a figure near a similar tear. I tried to move in that direction but I just kept slowly drifting.
“This again? Why am I here?”
My voice came back at me from the distance. I could see the other figure getting closer but it was still just a tiny dot. I heard my voice respond again.
“We are getting closer. We need to keep trying.”
“Trying what?”
“To understand. We need to understand.”
Monday October 3rd, 2016
I opened my eyes and immediately sat up to look around the room. It had been the same thing every night since the fall formal. It was like the nightmares didn’t have any actual substance anymore. The fall into the starry void and my own voice speaking back at me were both disquieting. I was fully aware I was dreaming by the end. Then I woke up feeling rested and fully awake. It wasn’t a true recurring dream though since the conversation was different every time.
We'll figure things out eventually.
Like why I’m still talking to myself?
Among other things.
It's not like I expected to get instantly better when Princess Luna got rid of the curse and the nasty voice in my head that came with it. Still, this was a bit ridiculous. I really was doing my best to stay away from existential questions but it was getting harder to ignore the simple fact that something was still wrong. I lay there in bed pondering the upcoming day.
So, any objection to getting out of bed today?
Do we have to go to school?
Seriously?
You know we'll have to deal with the bullies again.
Yes, I know. I’ll deal with it.
Can we actually do it?
I don’t have a choice.
These conversations were getting seriously unnerving. I hauled myself out of bed and started my morning routine. I walked into the bathroom and stared at myself in the mirror for a moment. My face was drawn and gaunt but the dark circles had faded under my eyes for the first time in ages. The last couple nights I had just fallen straight into bed. Then I looked over at the bottles on the shelf behind the sink. Four different bottles of medication sat there accusingly, untouched. I was supposed to take one of each every evening before bed.
When was the last time I took these?
Ummm. The night after we met Fluttershy? Maybe?
Crap. That's not good. How did I forget them?
The curse might have pushed the thought away.
I should be seeing withdrawal symptoms by now, should I?
Yes, that's kind of odd.
The sleeping pills don't seem to be necessary anymore.
We should wait and see what happens.
Having convinced myself not to take any of the medications I'd been on for six months, it was time for a morning workout. It was lightly drizzling outside so I went through a series of indoor exercises. Sit-ups, push-ups and a number of stretching exercises helped to continue clearing up the residual strains from the past weekend. I was paying more careful attention to my endurance and strength than I had before the Fall Formal. Now I could tell months of poor diet and constantly letting myself get beaten up had taken its toll on every aspect of my physical ability.
I hadn’t really realized how bad things were getting until Applejack commented on my gaunt face at breakfast Saturday morning. As a result, I spent part of Sunday evaluating my overall physical ability. I had lost measurable amounts of flexibility, core strength and endurance. Nothing I couldn’t regain but it was going to take time and some serious effort on my part. Basic physical training wasn't my favorite activity but it was going to be a regular activity if I wanted to get back to who I was before all this happened.
Once I finished exercising and showering I pulled on my sweats and made sure the pants were tied tightly. After a moment of consideration, I put the bracers and gloves provided by the portal into my backpack with my books. As much as I wanted to wear them, they were made of metal and they could actually seriously hurt someone. They wouldn’t be far away though. Running was still going to be my first choice but if I was forced to defending myself I had to be prepared.
After wolfing down a breakfast of apples, yogurt, toast and peanut butter, I pushed the front door opened to leave. I paused looking back at the empty house again and shook my head sadly.
I need to make this place usable.
We can't do it alone.
Yeah, there are too many memories in those boxes.
Our friends might help.
I have friends. I almost believe it now.
I pulled my backpack over my shoulder and walked out to my car. At least the state of my yard brought a smile to my face. I had knuckled down and started taking responsibility. The lawn was mowed and I had chopped the dead and loose branches out of the trees. I'd even managed to clear debris out of the gutters and downpipes. It was a step in the right direction, but there was still a lot to do. The gardens were overgrown with weeds and there were dozens of other little jobs to do but at least I had started.
I pulled into the school parking lot about half an hour before the first bell would ring. It was abnormally early for me but a part of me was almost looking forward to school. I had been half-hoping I'd spot Applejack or Fluttershy but I'd had no luck so far. Now I was just trying to stomp down a panic attack over what I'd do about the bullies I usually had to deal with.
I was having a major internal conflict as I tried to decide what to do with myself. Part of me still felt that I should take the pain and the hits that I deserved. Another darker part of me wanted to absolutely destroy my tormentors. Then there was the simple desire to run and avoid any trouble no matter what happened. I sat in the car holding the steering wheel in a white-knuckled grip, trying to come to terms with my feelings.
I am shaking. Why can't I calm down?
We aren't ready for this.
I don't know if I can resist hurting them.
We can't do that. We have to control ourselves.
I can't avoid this forever.
We could just . . . wait, what's going on?
Several students were running over in the direction of the sports field. When I stepped out of the car I could hear the sounds of laughter in the distance. It wasn’t pleasant laughter; it was the same sort of vicious glee I had heard one or two times while on the floor being kicked. I felt my heart start racing as thoughts and memories began to float through my mind.
“You just laid there and took it.”
We have to do something.
In spite of my fear, I got out of the car and started jogging towards the field. A crowd of students had formed a semi-circle at the far end of the bleachers, nearly out of sight. I could see Rarity and Fluttershy at the back of the crowd frantically trying to get through but they were being pushed back. Their behavior sent a chill down my spine and I started running. I ran towards the bleachers, up the stairs, and then along the upper row of seats. I could hear the students chanting 'down with the demon’ as I reached the end.
“Their strength came from your weakness.”
Should we get involved?
It's probably Sunset, I'm not sure I can make myself do it.
“You did nothing.”
“Defend yourself so you can help others.”
Our friends wouldn't want her hurt.
For our friends. I can help her for my friends.
“You couldn’t protect them.”
Luna give us strength.
I vaulted over the rail and dropped down into the middle of the mob. I caught a glimpse of Rarity and Fluttershy on my way down. Rarity had her phone out and I think they caught a brief glimpse of me. Then I was in the middle of a mob of angry students. The jeering quickly went silent as I dropped into a roll to absorb the impact and then stood up to take stock.
Gilda was holding Sunset Shimmer up against the side of the bleachers while Lightning Dust was punching her. Sunset had several cuts and scrapes on her arms and blood was pouring out of her nose. Her purple shirt was stained with a growing red blotch. That triggered something inside and my mind ignited as thoughts and memories hit me from every direction. Deep inside it felt like I was being torn apart by the conflict.
Blood. Sunset was bleeding.
“Go! We’ll make a hole.”
“You’ll look out for Sunset won’t you?”
We were helpless. Useless.
I'm going to destroy them.
”Just shoot them you idiots.”
Never give in to thugs and bullies.
No. We have to have restraint.
Gunshots. My parents collapsing to the ground.
Ponies like them live to take and . . .
Not again. I can't . . .
We can't watch this happen to Sunset.
Bleeding. Frozen. Useless.
. . . can only be stopped when somepony . . .
They died because of you.
We have to do something.
Yes we will.
. . . stands up and says . . .
“NO MORE! GET YOUR HANDS OFF HER!!” I screamed out loud as my conflicting thoughts came into harmony. There was no doubt about what I had to do. I took two steps and grabbed Lightning Dust's wrist mid-way through her punch. I pulled her arm sideways and sent her stumbling towards the crowd. I turned to face Gilda who had dropped Sunset and raised her fists and started laughing.
“So the creepy wuss thinks he can boss us around and take us on? I'll put you in the hospital and then we'll get back to finishing off the demon.”
We are not responsible for their actions.
But we can stop them.
My vision was already going red around the edges as rage was threatening to overwhelm me. Gilda swung her fist at my face but I easily blocked it with my hand. I grappled her arm with the blocking hand, turned inwards, and grabbed her elbow with my other. With a quick twist, I spun around, bending down, and simply tossed her over my shoulder. She landed on the ground with a thump.
Focus. We need to focus.
Prove there’s more to who you are.
We are in control now.
Defend yourself so you can help others.
I turned back to Lightning Dust who was running back at me for another punch. I blocked Lightning Dust's first two punches as I stepped backward and turned away from the bleachers. As her third punch came straight toward my face, I instead spun to the side, dropped onto my hands, and used my leg to sweep Lightning Dust’s feet out from under her. I was back up to my feet in a continuous movement and turned to catch another punch from Gilda who had gotten back up to her feet. I used nearly the same move to flip her over my shoulder again, dropping her to the ground on her back right next to Lightning Dust.
I was gasping and shaking as I fought to stay standing and keep my anger in check. I was furious but somehow I kept control while my memory of Twilight and Luna's voices quietly reassured me. The only thing I could hear was the quiet murmur of voices in the background. I stood over Gilda and Lightning Dust and prepared for any attempt they might make to attack me or Sunset again. They weren’t moving yet which gave me a moment to speak.
“You two listen close now” I growled. “I foolishly allowed you to use me as a punching bag since the day I started classes here. That ends today. You are not going to be hurting me or my friends ever again. Find a new way to entertain yourselves.”
I turned to face the crowd of students that surrounded us. They had gone dead silent and were staring at me. I glared at the silent faces that seemed to grow pale as I met their eyes one by one. The guilt on their faces made my anger flare. I was seething as I spoke.
“Does this make you feel strong? You see a monster over there bleeding? I see a victim. Go look in a mirror if you want to see monsters because what you're watching here is not justice. You’re just a mindless mob hellbent on getting revenge. Twilight would be crushed to see this after everything she went through. Get out of here.”
The crowd began to quickly disperse. I saw Rarity and Fluttershy run over to Sunset out of the corner of my eye but I had to make sure Gilda and Lightning were done. They looked seriously angry as they got to their feet but they didn’t make any aggressive moves. Their faces and clothes were soaked, caked with mud and grass from where I had dumped them on the ground. I stood ready to fight them again but Lightning Dust just snorted derisively.
“You got lucky here creep. A couple judo lessons aren’t going to protect you next time.”
"Yeah, you'll pay for your interference creep," Gilda added.
My fists were clenched so hard I could feel my nails cutting into my palms. I took a deep breath and I stared into their eyes. When my eyes met theirs, they stepped back in what looked like fear. The color actually drained out of Gilda's face as she started to back away.
We need to keep it together.
“If you think I managed that with only one or two lessons, you are complete fools. Go. Now.”
They turned pale and fled towards the school. I was still fighting barely contained rage as I watched them run. I could see Rainbow, Applejack, and Pinkie running across the sports field towards us. Fluttershy’s voice pulled my attention back to reality.
“Silver, she’s badly hurt! We need to get her to the nurse!”
I was barely thinking as I turned to them. Fluttershy was kneeling beside Sunset, holding a cloth to her nose. Rarity was watching me but when our eyes met, her eyes widened and she took a step backward just like Gilda had. I ignored her reaction and gently scooped Sunset Shimmer up into my arms. I was surprised how easy she was to lift but then again it had been a long time since I’d lifted someone up. She seemed awfully light though. I looked at the girls as I held Sunset.
“Let’s go.”
The next minutes were a blur. I think I carried Sunset across the field and into the school. Someone got the doors as I ran, but I wasn't really paying any attention. My only focus was getting Sunset to safety. Next thing I knew I was in the nurse’s office, gently laying Sunset down on the bed. I looked down and saw Sunset’s eyes were opened and she was staring at me. Ruby then pulled me back out into the front office and sat me down in the chair at her desk.
“Sit here Silver. You look like you’re going to collapse. I'm just glad you're not the one injured this time.”
I didn’t say anything. I just lay my head down on her desk and stared at the wall. My mind was a total mess as I came out of whatever fog I had fallen into. Everything was a blur from about the moment I had seen Sunset bleeding. Conflict and confusion muddled my thoughts and I felt incredibly tense. Suddenly I felt gentle hands on my shoulders which made me shiver. I wasn't used to being touched out of the blue and I was about to object when those fingers dug into my knotted shoulders. I let out an involuntary moan as my muscles initially fought against the gentle ministrations.
“Oh my, how can you stand being this tense Silver?”
“I don’t know Fluttershy but sweet Luna that feels amazing.”
“Silver, are you ok?”
I turned my head without lifting it. The rest of the girls had crowded into the nurse’s office. The door was closed and Rarity was standing at the front. Her face was furrowed with worry. Why was it always worry and sadness that brought us together? Part of me wanted to run away but Fluttershy's shoulder rub was draining all the resistance out of me. I sighed and just let my head relax on the table while I nodded at her.
“Don’t get me wrong, darling, what you did was very brave," Rarity continued. "You’re going to hurt yourself again if you keep doing crazy things like that. What possessed you to jump off the bleachers like that? It was a fifteen-foot drop.”
“A fifteen-foot drop isn’t a big deal if you know what you're doing. Neither is Gilda or Lightning Dust. They’re just simple bullies with no real skill.”
“Confidence is fine to have, but aren’t you taking it a bit far? I recall you mentioned you’ve taken some martial arts but a hobby can only carry you so far.”
I didn't even move, I just closed my eyes and started to speak.
“A third-degree black belt in Taekwondo with fourteen years of training. Ten years of rapier, dagger, shield, and sword. Five years of parkour. A mix of other things as time permitted,”
Rainbow Dash looked skeptical. “Wait just one minute. Fourteen years? How old are you?”
“I’m eighteen years old Rainbow; my birthday is in February. Mom started teaching me the basics as soon as I could walk and understand. I was officially enrolled as a white belt when I turned four and earned my first-degree black belt at eleven. My mother was the lead Taekwondo instructor at the gym I attended. Sword combat was taught by her business partner Steel Rain.”
Pinkie leaned down so she could see my eyes. The worry in her baby blue eyes was unnatural.
“If you know so much about fighting why did you let everyone hurt you Silvy?”
I winced at her question. The more I thought about my choices over the past year, the dumber I felt.
“There are so many bad explanations. I thought I deserved it. Or the curse convinced me I deserved to hurt. Mom was my trainer and I lost her because of my mistakes I didn't act so I couldn't make myself fight anymore. I’m not really sure what the truth is anymore. All I know is, I can't afford to stand and be attacked again. I was actually risking my life by not acting.”
Rarity sighed. “Well, it’s not my place to stop you if you're sure you're safe. Just try not to become a bully yourself.”
“I will do my best. Mom once told me, ‘He who fights monsters should see to it that he himself does not become a monster.' She was quoting something but I can't remember what now. I think I was close this morning when I saw Sunset bleeding but using my ability to bully others would dishonor my mother’s teaching in the worst way possible. I will only ever fight to defend others or myself if I cannot escape.”
“I really didn’t doubt you darling but it’s good to hear you're aware of the risk. Were the contact lenses really necessary though? My heart just about stopped when I saw your eyes.”
Of course, that was when the first bell rang. Nurse Redheart walked out of the room where Sunset was resting.
“Silver and Sunset will be staying here for the first period. The rest of you need to head to class.”
Pinkie bounced up to her feet to leave, but then stopped.
“Oh wait, I have a free block. Can I stay here and keep my friends company?”
“Fine, you can stay. The rest of you need to go to class.”
Rarity looked like she wanted to protest but Nurse Redheart stood firm. The other girls trudged out and we sat quietly while Ruby continued treating Sunset. After the second bell, the PA system crackled to life.
“Good morning Students!” said Principal Celestia in a cheerful voice. “I hope you all had a good weekend after our eventful Fall Formal. You may have noticed that the repairs to the front of the school are underway. Please respect the roped off areas and use alternate routes to get to your classes. All teachers have been instructed to be lenient on tardiness until construction is completed. The courtyard is also off-limits until construction is completed.”
“On a lighter note, our first big fundraiser for the year is coming up. This fundraiser will help support after-school programs and spring field trips. There will be a student musical showcase on Friday, November 18th. All student music groups who are interested are encouraged to sign up at the main office. Thank you for listening and have a good day!”
I looked over at Pinkie who was bouncing excitedly. “Super cool! I wonder who’s going to sign up.”
Ruby poked her head out of the back room. “Do either of you have extra clothing with you today? Sunset’s shirt will be ruined if it doesn’t get put in water to soak as soon as possible and she'll need something to wear in the meantime.”
Pinkie shook her head. I thought for a moment and then pulled off my sweatshirt and my t-shirt. I untangled them and handed the t-shirt to Ruby.
“You can give her this for now Ruby. I’ll get something new from my car.”
I held out the t-shirt to Ruby and then noticed she was staring at me with wide eyes. I realized I had blanked and that my scarred and bruised body was on full display. I noticed Pinkie was looking at me as well. I quickly pulled my sweatshirt back on, choking back panic.
Oh crap. Ruby hasn’t ever seen them.
Why did we forget she hadn’t seen this?
Pinkie knows. Why is she staring too?
They are pretty awful.
“Tell me none of that happened to you on my watch Silver Spark."
“Nurse Redheart, I swear to you these scars are all more than six months old. I wish I could say the same for the bruises, but at least there won’t be any more of them if I can help it.”
“Good, I’m glad to hear it. Principal Celestia would have my head if I didn’t tell her about injuries like that happening here at school.”
Nurse Redheart walked into the back room and I turned back to Pinkie. She was still staring at me. I squirmed uncomfortably at her gaze.
“Sorry about that Pinkie. I wasn't thinking.”
“I think you and Sunny should come to my house after school.”
“I might be able to manage that. Why?”
“I need to do some baking and stuff! Cooking together is a delicious way to get to know people! I’d love to get to know you both better!”
“Ok, I guess I can come.”
Pinkie threw her arms around me in a huge hug. Nurse Redheart came out with a shopping bag.
“I’m going to take this to Discord so he can get it soaking for Sunset before the stain sets in. Could you two stay here until I get back in case someone shows up? One of you needs to sit with Sunset to make sure she is well. That hit to her head was almost bad enough to call an ambulance.”
Pinkie bounced with barely contained energy. “No problem Nurse Redheart! I’ll sit out here while Silver checks on Sunset!”
Redheart walked out the door while I looked over at Pinkie. “Why me?”
“She needs to talk to you. Now get in there.”
Pinkie pushed me through the door into the back room. Sunset was lying on the bed in the dimly lit room and holding an ice pack on her face. She was certainly going to have a black eye. The peach skin of her face was marred with cuts and bruises. My t-shirt was almost comically oversized on her. I sat down next to her and gently took hold of the ice so she could rest her hand.
“Hey there Sunset. Let me hold that for you for a minute.”
She glanced over at me and sighed. She sounded like she was trying to be angry, but her voice was just tired and sad.
“Why did you risk yourself for me? I made your life miserable and tried to kill you. You should have left me there to hurt.”
Ouch. That is painful to hear
Remind you of anyone we know?
Yes, I know. I'm still frustrated with what she did.
We are probably alive because she made our life miserable.
“Sunset, to be honest, I almost didn't. I'm torn in so many ways it's impossible to describe. I wanted to leave you, I wanted to save you, I wanted to crush Gilda and Lightning Dust to paste. In the end, I'd like to think I saved you because it was the right thing to do.”
“I have to pay for what I did somehow.”
“I know what you're going through better than you could possibly know. The guilt is overwhelming and you think pain is the only way to pay penance. You're finding it hard to care about anything and the world just seems gray and empty. You've probably wondered if it's even worth getting up in the morning. Am I close?”
As I spoke, Sunset closed her eyes. A teardrop escaped and ran down her cheek.
“How do you get through the day feeling like this? Everywhere I look all I see are people I hurt.”
I gently wiped the tear from her cheek with my free hand as I considered how to respond.
Here we are comforting the girl who made our life miserable.
I really have no reason to help her.
We can't let her do what we did.
It's the right thing to do.
“I'm still figuring that out Sunset. I'm far from healed at this point and I still have a long way to go. What I do know is hurting yourself won't make things better. All I have are scars and bruises without closure to show for my choices. Promise me you'll talk to me or the girls if you ever feel the need to hurt yourself. Please? I don’t want you to make the same mistake I did.”
Her voice was barely audible.
“Ok. I’ll try. I wish I knew where to start. There are so many people I've wronged and I have no power to make things right.”
“Everyone is different Sunset. I think spending time with Pinkie and her friends might be a good place to start. You could also try to fix the little things with individual students. Even if they don’t accept it, at least you made the effort to step forward and fix your mistakes. All you can control are your choices.”
She took the ice pack off her face and closed her eyes. “I suppose you’re right. In that case, there’s something I need you to do for me.”
I let Pinkie Pie take over sitting with Sunset and rested at Ruby’s desk for the rest of the first period. I left in a hurry just before the buzzer sounded. When the bell rang I was waiting at the side of the school where the Diamond Dogs often spend their time. I had a heavy envelope in my hands that Sunset had given me. It didn't take long for them to come out the door. When they saw me waiting, they stopped with nervous looks on their faces.
Rover took a step forward, his voice lacking the usual confidence. “Ummm . . . Fork it over?”
“Hello Rover. I'll be keeping my lunch today but I do have something you'll want.”
I held out the envelope to him.
“Sunset Shimmer simply asked me to tell you that everything is in there and that she is sorry about what she put you through.”
Rover and his two friends stared at me completely surprised. He walked over and snagged the envelope out of my hand. He cracked it open to look inside.
“Did you look?”
“No. I'm just delivering this for Sunset.”
“Good. Tell her we are done with her and to stay away.”
“Are we going to have problems in the future?”
They shook their heads vehemently as their faces paled.
“No, No. We will leave you alone now.”
They just walked away out into the sports field without another word. It was odd that they seemed almost scared of me. There was no good reason for it that I could think of. I guess how easily I took down Lightning and Gilda that morning had an impact. I felt a weight lift from my shoulder when it occurred to me that Sunset had freed me from being attacked by the Diamond Dogs but I was also angry that she was responsible in the first place.
The Diamond Dogs only beat me to take my lunch or money.
True. They always wanted something.
Were they stealing for Sunset? Why?
No idea. We could ask her.
I don't think I want to know.
I started walking over to my car to grab my backpack. I’d left it there when I ran to rescue Sunset earlier. I was glancing over my shoulder to keep an eye out for trouble. The way the day was going it wouldn’t surprise me if I wasn’t done yet. Somehow I wasn’t surprised to see Flash Sentry walking my way. There was an angry look on his face. I just faced him with my arms by my side and waited. He had his fists up be he didn’t throw a punch.
“I thought I told you to stay away from the girls you creep!”
I am so tired of this garbage.
I could feel a weary expression on my face but I stood tall and faced him without flinching. I was actually looking down at him this time. With all my slouching, I had never noticed I was at least four inches taller than Flash. His ridiculous demand made my temper flare.
“After everything that’s happened since Friday you still think you have the right to dictate who I spend my time with? Not happening. What’s your real problem?”
“You and Sunset tried to frame Twilight. I don’t see why Twilight would care about someone like you unless you were manipulating her.”
“Really? That’s seriously what you believe? Wow . . .”
“That’s right creep! Why’d you try to steal my girl and then drive her away?”
For Luna's sake. Really?
'HIS' girl? Twilight wouldn't tolerate that attitude.
I just want to punch his attitude back to the 1800’s where it belongs.
It’s hardly worth our time.
I suppose he's not worth the risk.
We shouldn't pick fights anyhow.
I just glared at him as a bit more anger slipped into my voice. “Twilight is not ‘your girl’ you twit. She is her own woman and she had to go home. It’ll be a long time before she can come back and it’s not my job to educate you about why if she didn’t tell you her story. She had wings for Luna's sake, I'm sure you can figure it out. Now if you’ll excuse me, I have to get my backpack and go to class.”
I turned as if I was about to walk away but I was prepared for his next move. Out of the corner of my eye, I saw him reach out to grab my shoulder. I quickly turned and knocked his hand away before he could grab me. I put my fists up and I stood in a defensive stance.
“Please keep your hands off me. I have no interest in fighting you but I will defend myself if you don't back off.”
He glared at me and looked like he was going to try to fight me anyhow.
“Fine” he snapped. Then he turned and walked away.
Good grief. He’s got one hell of a chip on his shoulder.
Why does he have such an issue with us?
He’s got a thing for Twilight.
Creepy. Did he even talk to her while she was here?
I'm not sure he did. Other than to ask her to dance I guess.
“Why do you keep doing this to me Pinkie?”
“Because we want to spend time with you silly! Now come on. There are burgers today!”
It was finally lunch break and I was having the strangest feeling of déjà vu. For the second time in a week, I was being towed into a place I had avoided since school started. Pinkie was tucked under my arm dragging me along. I wasn't fighting too hard against her but my heart was pounding when she pushed the door open.
The cafeteria was a bustling space. There were sixteen tables with eight chairs at each. I saw Fluttershy, Applejack, and Sunset already sitting down at a table. Sunset looked like she was trying to be invisible and the bruise above her eye was clearly visible now. The tables showed no signs of cliques or isolated groups that I had expected. There were also several students wearing the ears and tails from Friday’s rally. Pinkie steered me over to the serving counter. The lady behind the counter was just as surprised to see me as I was to see her.
“Ah don’t think I’ve ever seen you in here Silver.”
“Hi Granny. I didn’t know you worked here.”
“I don’t. Ah just volunteer here at lunch since Mac has the day to day farm operation well in hand. Helps save the school a few dollars. Plus ah can make sure they ain’t servin' garbage to mah grandkids. Here ya go. We can chat more next time you come by for breakfast.”
I grabbed a bottle of apple cider to go with my lunch and followed Pinkie over to the table. As we walked I could feel the other students staring at me. I just ignored the whispers since they weren't anything new to me. I greeted the girls quietly as I sat down next to Applejack and started wolfing down my meal. It was delicious and I just enjoyed the quiet conversation that the girls were having. I was about half-finished when Rarity arrived and sat down. She looked frustrated as she sat down.
“Hi Silver. From what I’ve heard around the school, you didn’t do yourself any favors with that stunt this morning.”
I swallowed my mouthful of food and looked at her incredulously.
“Protecting Sunset from being hurt is that unpopular?”
“Darling, nobody is faulting that choice, least of all me. Gilda and Lightning Dust were way out of line. It was those contact lenses you wore that really got the rumor mill wound up.”
“You mentioned that just before you left the nurse's office this morning. I’ve never worn contacts in my life.”
Rarity looked worried about my response. “This is serious Silver, I only saw them for a moment but whatever you were wearing looked almost feral or animal-like. I couldn't really put my finger on what they were but they were not human. Still, they weren’t as scary as Sunset’s when she was all demonic . . . Sorry, no offense Sunset.”
Sunset sighed. “None taken.”
I stared at Rarity in disbelief. The table was silent and I began to listen to the whispering from the other tables. “Animal.” “Witch familiar.” “Still possessed.” “Demon Spawn.” “Even creepier than before.” My anxiety was building as I realized exactly what had happened. My composure was rapidly failing.
“You’re kidding, right? I don't even own contact lenses. They aren't still like that, are they? Please tell me my eyes are back to normal.”
“They were fine by the time we got to the nurse’s office Silver” replied Fluttershy quietly. “I only got a glimpse of them when you picked up Sunset. They weren't your eyes.”
We scared them.
I don't want to be feared anymore.
We can't change what was seen.
They're watching me again.
Everyone in this room.
The girls will be scared too.
We saw Rarity's reaction
I shouldn't have come here.
We have to run.
My chair flew backward as I exploded to my feet before anyone could react. I started to run for the cafeteria exit, sending the other students scrambling to get out of my way. I thought I could dimly hear the girls calling after me as I crashed through the door. I couldn't stop though, I had to run. I crossed the wet lawn as the drizzle began to soak my shirt. Each stride took me further out towards the bleachers. With the miserable weather, nobody was out here. Not like this morning.
I slowed down and walked around the corner towards where I had protected Sunset. Where I thought I was doing the right thing. Torn grass and muddy footprints were the only indications anything had happened here. The rain had washed away everything else. I slumped down against the bleachers into the mud and began to quietly cry as the rain fell.
What is wrong with me?
Are we just a freak?
It doesn't matter anymore.
I sat in the rain and just let my clothes absorb the water with my eyes closed. Then the rain stopped hitting my head. I opened my eyes and looked up. Pinkie was standing next to me holding a comically huge umbrella over our heads. She was watching me with an obviously forced smile on her face. Pinkie was normally a cute bundle of energy but now she seemed subdued. Instead of her skirt, she was wearing blue jeans and a pink t-shirt with three balloons on it. Her normally curly puffy hair seemed to have gone limp.
“Sorry about running like that Pinkie. I know I promised to talk to you but I couldn't stay in that Cafeteria another minute. I panicked.”
“It's not your fault everyone is being meanie pants. I'm so sorry I dragged you in there Silver.”
I looked away from Pinkie and up at the gray sky instead. Pinkie Pie, the girl who pushed me and challenged me to do things that scared me. She just wanted to help.
“It's alright Pinkie, you did nothing wrong at all. Sitting in the cafeteria for lunch would have been a nice change of pace but I think I'll have to find somewhere else for now.”
I was quiet for a moment but then I continued.
“You know the worst part about this was realizing something might be really wrong with me Pinkie. Looking back at the end of that fight, I saw the reactions of Gilda, Rarity, and the other students. They were actually really scared of me. Not because of some rumor anymore, but because of something they really saw. I'm not sure what happened but I doubt I'll see any acceptance from the student body now.”
“You wouldn't leave us, would you Silver? I haven't even thrown you your first party yet. It wouldn't be fun if the first party I throw for you is because you're going away.”
I looked up at her and smiled just a tiny bit. “I'm not leaving Pinkie, not as long as you and your friends are willing to tolerate my craziness. I'm just accepting that you and the other girls might be all the friends I'll ever have. It's disheartening to discover that even doing the right thing can make your reputation worse.”
With a loud splat, Pinkie dropped down onto the muddy grass next to me, somehow holding the umbrella up. Strangely, her hair seemed to have puffed back up. She put her arm around me and gave me a gentle hug.
“I’m glad you’re staying Silvy, but you shouldn’t be a silly billy. You already have other friends! Just look at Granny Smith and Nurse Redheart who both like you. I didn't even know her name was Ruby; that was so neat to find out! And Granny invited you to another breakfast at Applejack’s house? How did you even wind up at breakfast in the first place? Oh, oh, and what about Steel Rain, your teacher back in Manhattan. Isn't he your friend?”
Instead of letting me answer the questions she just continued talking. She was on a roll.
“This silliness will go away in time. Rarity, Rainbow Dash, and Applejack are giving the students in the cafeteria what for over their silly stories. They shouldn't behave like that to you just cause you protected Sunset. Can you believe they didn't even know you nearly died protecting us? I mean how crazy is that? I guess they were all zombies so maybe that's why. They're making up stories about you just cause they saw some silly cat eyes on your face which would be totally cool by the way.”
My ears perked up at her last comment. “Cat eyes? Did you say cat eyes Pinkie? Did you see them?”
“I didn't actually see them. It was just a hunch.”
“I hadn’t considered the possibility. My Thestral body in Equestria had cat-like eyes.”
Not possible. There’s no magic left in this world.
The curse still worked on us though.
Poorly. It barely functioned without the portal.
Think later. Pinkie is talking to us again.
“Really? That's so neat. I wish I could have seen what you looked like. Oh, and what pony Pinkie looks like.”
I looked over at her, remembering how pony Pinkie had the same poofy hair. Then I glanced down at her t-shirt. I stared at the three balloons trying to remember why that symbol was important. My eyes grew wide as I remembered more of that short visit to Equestria. Pinkie suddenly startled me out of my thoughts.
“Eyes up here Silver!”
I snapped my eyes up to hers as my face went bright red and my heart started racing with fear. She had a huge grin on her face and she started to laugh as she cupped her hands under her breasts and bounced them a bit.
“Sorry, Silvy. You looked so intent on my chest I couldn't pass up the opportunity to tease you. You can look if you really want; I've seen you without a shirt so it's only fair. Some people get so silly about their bodies.”
I could feel my face getting even redder and I just watched her laughter-filled eyes and tried to avoid looking down at her as she showed off her assets. I smiled weakly and forced out a weak chuckle.
“To be honest, I've been avoiding looking at you and your friends pretty much since I met you. I really didn't want you and your friends to decide my reputation as a creepy stalker is accurate. I was actually looking at the balloons on your shirt. Pony Pinkie had that exact symbol on her flank.”
She looked worried as I spoke but her eyes widened with surprise at my last words. “REALLY? THAT IS SO COOL! We're inter-dimensional sisters! Why did she get a tattoo like that?”
“That's the strangest part. The flank marks are called cutie marks and they apparently just spontaneously appear on their bodies as a representation of their special talent.”
“Weird! I've always loved this symbol. I have tons of clothing with it. So are you still coming to my place tonight?”
“That’s the plan.”
She jumped up to her feet and reached her hand down to me. I took it and let her help me up to my feet. She looked around at her back and started to laugh again.
“Yay! Glad you're still coming. Wow, look how muddy we are! We'd better get cleaned up before afternoon class starts Silvy.”
“Yeah. I guess so. It's going to be a long day.”
It was fortunate I actually did have a change of clothes with me since I was absolutely soaked from the rainfall. The rest of the day was long but I managed to get through it. In my classes, I could still see the other students staring and whispering but I did my best to ignore them even though my anxiety was still making me twitchy. At afternoon break I just wandered up to the back of the library and stayed out of sight.
At the end of the school day, I waited for Pinkie at the library again. She came skipping up and gave me another big hug.
“Sunset is in detention until 4:00. We can wait for her here; she's going to meet us.”
“Sounds good. Did you want to grab some books or what?”
“Actually, I had a different idea. I have a good national calling plan since my dad travels all over.”
She pulled out her cell phone and handed it to me. There was a familiar phone number already set up on the screen. I stared at it and then at Pinkie.
“How on earth did you find the phone number for my old dojo?”
“Easy peasy! Your teacher was Steel Rain and he teaches sword martial arts in Manhatten. It's amazing how easy he was to find. The internet is awesome isn't it?”
“Yes, but why?”
“You haven't called him since you moved here have you? I could tell when we talked this morning. How else could you have forgotten he was your friend? You need to call him to let him know you're ok and find out how he's doing. He lost his friend when your mom died too. Plus according to the online schedule for the dojo, he is between classes at 6:00 Manhattan time which is right now!”
She's right you know. We can't hide.
I know. I know. I don't know why I haven't called him.
Should we blame the curse again?
Might as well. Seems to be the theme today.
I nodded silently Pinkie was watching me like a hawk as I pushed the dial button. The phone ringing and then with a click it was picked up and a familiar voice was at the other end of the line.
“Manhattan Martial Academy, how may I help you?”
“Hello, Sir. It’s Silver Spark.”
“Silver! Thank goodness, I was worried something terrible had happened when you weren’t returning my calls.”
“I'm sorry about that. I was in a bad place for a while. I’ve got some new friends here at Canterlot High. They’re really helping me pull myself together now.”
“Good. You’ll have to introduce me to them when I get there.”
“What?"
“It’s why I’ve been calling. You remember Star Whistle of course. He’s buying the dojo. I’ll be moving to Canterlot in December and I should have a new place open by January 5th, especially if you’re around to help. It’s one of the reasons I’ve been calling! Didn’t you listen to my messages?”
“Ummm. Yeah, I’m sorry to say I didn’t. Like I said, I was really falling apart until a few days ago. Seriously though! You don’t have to abandon your dojo just to keep an eye on me.”
Pinkie’s head shot up at that moment and an excited grin started to grow on her face.
“It’s not the same without your mother here. I’m just passing the torch to someone who can make better use of it. I need a fresh start as well and Canterlot sounds like a nice city from what I’ve read. Besides, you might legally be an adult but I’m still your Godfather you goof.”
“Well alright then. It’ll be great to see you again.”
“Agreed. I’ve got to get back to work. I’m not off the hook for teaching here yet but I’ll see you in two months. I’m glad you’re ok. Take care Silver.”
“I will Sir. Have a good night.”
I turned off the phone and handed it back to Pinkie who had a massive smile on her face. I couldn't help it. My face broke out into a huge smile as a couple of tears ran down my cheek. They were happy tears at last. Steel Rain was coming to Canterlot. She ran over to me and gave me a huge hug.
“See Silvy! You still have friends. And he’s moving here too! We get to have another “Welcome to Canterlot Party!”
“Thank you, Pinkie. You're pretty perceptive.”
“Thanks! Most people don't take me seriously 'cause I'm always so happy. Just because I am cheerful and easily distracted and completely random doesn't mean I'm not paying attention to what's going on. You have to watch people so you know what parties to throw and how to cheer people up!”
Pinkie and I were waiting when Sunset was let out of detention at 4:00 that afternoon. The swelling had gone down in her eye but the bruise would take a while to go away. We drove over to Pinkie’s house in my car. Pinkie lived in a medium-sized rancher in the suburbs a short distance from the school. As we walked up to the front door, Pinkie bounded ahead to unlock the front and pulled the door open, talking the whole way.
“Welcome to my home! I live here with my sister Maud. My parents and my two younger sisters moved away to Ohio two years ago since my Dad got work there. They let me stay here with my sister so I could stay close to my friends. Oh, and surprise by the way.”
“Surprise!”
The shout caught us both off guard as the door opened. My heart jumped up into my throat for a second but I managed to resist the urge to jump into the bushes beside the door to hide. The girls were waiting inside with huge smiles on their faces along with a gray-skinned girl with a blank expression. The living room was decorated with balloons and streamers and there were snacks and drinks visible in the kitchen. Sunset and I were both stunned as Pinkie dragged us in the door.
“Were you surprised? You looked surprised! Sorry for the change in plans but I decided you both needed a ‘Cheer Up, You’ve got Friends’ party after everything that’s happened. So the girls came here to get everything set up while I made sure you two came!”
Sunset had her hand over her mouth and I think she was tearing up. “Girls, this is the nicest thing anyone has done for me in a long time. Thank you.”
I smiled. “Thank you all. This is a wonderful surprise after everything that's happened today.”
We walked in and kicked off our shoes. Pinkie pulled us both forward to the gray-skinned girl.
“Sunset Shimmer, Silver Spark, this is my sister Maud Pie. Maud, this is Sunset and Silver.”
She gave us each a polite nod and spoke in a flat monotone voice without changing her expression. “It’s very nice to meet you.”
This is Pinkie’s sister?
Wow.
After exchanging greetings, Pinkie put on some music and we settled in to have some fun. Applejack, Pinkie, and Rainbow Dash convinced Sunset to play a video game of some sort with them. Fluttershy and Rarity were chatting quietly while I sat back in a chair and just relaxed in the animated atmosphere. I enjoyed a small plate of snacks. Rarity and Fluttershy sat down on the couch next to me. Rarity looked particularly distraught.
“I must apologize; I didn’t mean to upset you at lunch darling.”
“It’s really alright Rarity. When I realized I was the negative focus of all the conversations at the tables around us, I had a horrible burst of anxiety.”
“Nonsense. I could have been more tactful at the very least. I know exactly what I can do to make it up to you though. Are you busy Wednesday and Thursday after school?”
“Should be doable. What did you have in mind?”
“I wouldn't want to spoil the surprise. We'll need to use your car if that's alright.”
Rainbow Dash piped up while she was waiting for her turn. “If I know Rarity you should consider running for the hills Silver.”
Rarity let out a mock gasp before she replied. “Rainbow Dash! That’s terribly unkind of you.”
Rainbow Dash just smirked at Rarity before turning back to the game. Rarity just shook her head as everyone else started laughing.
We all headed back to our houses at about 7:00 that evening since it was a school night. I stopped them at the door as we were getting our shoes on.
“Girls, before I leave, I just wanted to thank you for everything you’ve done over the past few days. Even though I've still got a tough road ahead, your unexpected acceptance of me has already made it easier to face. I’m hoping I’m not being too presumptive in asking for some help.”
“What do you need Silvy?” asked Pinkie.
“You’ve all probably guessed by now that I live alone. I’ve barely managed to unpack anything and I was hoping some of you might be able to come to my house on Saturday to help. I need to make the place liveable but I don’t think I can do it alone. I haven’t seen some of this stuff since, well you know. I couldn’t even face packing so it was boxed up by a moving company.”
“I’m babysitting for the Cakes in the morning, but I can come later in the afternoon to help.”
“I’d like to see where you live. Good thing I don’t have a game that day. I can be there as early as you need me” replied Rainbow Dash.
The other girls said they would have to check their schedules but they’d let me know. They even gave me their phone numbers so we could actually keep in touch properly. With that taken care of, we parted ways for the night. My heart was already feeling lighter as I drove back to my house, trying not to worry about what the next days would bring.
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This is a awesome story, and love it. i just wodner who be paired with Silver, and how he woudl react to meeting Sci Twi.
Now this is the progress I was waiting for!!!
7691155: It wouldn't have been a nice ending, that much is certain.
7693139: Sci Twi has some interesting story potential. I haven't decided how I'm going to handle her.
7693850: Glad to hear it!
I give up on guessing who you are putting with Silver. First I thought Apple Jack, then Rarity, and now Pinkie. I don't know anymore.
For some reason, I'm worried about what the Siren's song will do to Silver. Could even they handle his negativity?
i know i should not have thought this but....
this made me think of Cupcakes
8416419 No worries. Grimdark Pinkie Pie makes all the innocent lines sound creepy.
He's going to pull a Hawkeye.
https://m.Edit 2020: I realize the video link is broken, ots the scene from Ultron where he throws off the mind control and does the one-liner.
Wow, this Flash is a dick.
9338576 - Yeah, he's got a bit of a chip on his shoulder that's for sure.
I'm glad someone else shares my view on Pinkie