Part of me is really freaking out and part of me is telling me get over myself. Yes, I survived one big drama after Celestia and I accidently got drunk and ended up together (I should be lucky she didn’t get pregnant there too or else I would never have been alive today), but a foal? I don’t know, everything I could do once its born could affect it, Celestia’s actions as well.
My mother raised me right, I wouldn’t abandon my child or hate it, I would love the child and give it everything it needs to have a successful life, no matter what just like my parents would. I think I’d rather shoot myself than mistreat my eventual child but I have to figure this parenting thing out.
You can do this Jason, haven’t you been getting out of messes before? When you first got here, Celestia and now this? But this, this is a long term mess that was my fault, I shouldn’t have been so into sex to forget our precautions.
NO! Bad thoughts! Go away! Celestia needs you, she’s experienced pain over the years and this foal-bearing thing won’t make things any easier on her if you aren’t around. She’s your wife for the love of the sun! You love her more than anything, you will help her through this time and that’s the end of it! You have 11 months, get used to it! There are ways to prepare but you must be calm Jason, panic brings you nowhere.
“Jason?” Luna’s voice came from behind.
“Hey Luna” I wave as she sits next to me.
“Jason, we were wondering where thou are” Luna explains her reason for being here.
“You are here to talk about the pregnant thing aren’t you?” I ask Luna, assuming that was what she was here to talk about.
“Indeed we art doing so, we merely want to know why thy thoughts are as they are” Luna replied to my assumption.
Note to self: The day Luna talks full modern Equuish, there will be lots of fire and despair, Discord will be very happy.
“Luna, I have told so little of my world, Earth. It’s been so long that to show up back on Earth would raise questions and it would be impossible to lie my way out of it. But even so, I wouldn’t go back to Earth, there are other reasons Luna including a reason why I feel afraid of parenthood” I start to explain a bit.
“How doth this fit in?” Luna asks me.
“I’m getting to it. Well, on Earth I have to be honest, I kind of despised my own kind. I had backstabbing friends, people who only wanted things for gain, a world full of people stuck to tiny screens and dumbed down language while we spend money on so many pointless things for defunct stuff that people selling this stuff are getting away with. I hated it Luna, I hated it very much, and then there were stuff that just made me sick to watch, people put flags on their social media pages if a country gets a town bombed by some damn terrorists, they're just doing it for some stupid social obligation and one thing I saw that truly sickens me was news of parents just abandoning their child, some in cruel ways, others because they have to and others just abuse their children. I don’t want that for my child, when I see something like that, it makes me furious when I see or hear something like that. I want my child to be safe, to feel loved not endure pain like this, no missing parental figures just a safe and happy life” I explain about the problems Earth and my hopes for my child.
It haunts my dreams, becoming the very thing I sworn never to be as a parent, mark my words THAT WILL NEVER HAPPEN! EVER!
“It seems silly to you doesn’t it?” I ask Luna.
“Nay, we hath seen many a fear in our dreamwalking, we are well versed in dealing with fears” Luna shakes her head.
“Maybe I just need time to get this to sink in” I say quietly.
“Perhaps, but remember, we do support Celestia and thou all the way through this, we hope thou knows that” Luna pats me on the shoulder.
“I know, I guess whether I’m ready or not come 11 months time, I’m going to need to be the best father possible” I say, as I make my resolve to prepare properly.
“Thou also must realize, thou must announce thy foal’s coming, it shall come out sooner or later once it is obvious our sister hasn’t been snacking on cakes in the middle of the night” Luna adds.
“I guess so, it’s better to tell them soon, but not right now, give it a month or two down the line first. I guess for now on the public until then, business as usual but really, it’s coming to terms of this, start planning what’s what and the like. Thank you for the talk Luna, but for now, I must go see my wife again” I say to Luna as I got up.
I know I might not be ready mentally, but since when have I ever been ready for life’s curveballs? I guess the moral of the story right now is that ready or not: you gotta make the best of what you’ve got…
*groan* Oh feckin' please. You are right in the author's note, he has to suck it up. But I'd also go ahead and say, "sure, despise your kind. because we're ALL like that, right? Just screw all of us who do charities, help out homeless, study medicine, etc. Kinda wanna punt him in the head for that one.
Aside from that, eh. Pretty alright chapter, and his outlook on raising a kid is the same as I would.
Bro, are you hating are your own people in this Chap? Not everyone is like that
I can't wait for the next chapter.
Can't wait for more.
Bleh please for the love of all that is good the whole misanthropic human thing is so over done. I mean its cool you have oppinions. its just the all humans are horrible theme is so whiny and overdone. It would be nice to see a main character with a positive outlook on his/her life and the lives of others or at least acknowledge there are good people. But i do get that it doesnt really fit with your current character
7225226 I've read a lot of HIE stories and i"m afraid that its becoming a trend. I can really think of three reasons I keep seeing that pop up, 1. this is how the author feels and the story is indeed a self insert 2. Its somehow relevant to the story or gives us a reason to be distant from the character 3. Its easier to skip or downplay the coping process of no longer being with your kind than it is for a character to actually give a fuck about going back. keep in mind, Im talking about the stories this applies to, not just this one
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Also on the kinds of fears that people have for themselves when they are freaking out about something the mind always jumps towards making humanity out to be the worst possible existence. People when they are freaking out about anything, especially if the freak out is about their actions affecting others, always go toward misanthropic directions before they calm down and realize the good. Misanthropic thoughts always comes out first when people get scared, this has been the cause of so many issues. Also if this comment seems to jump around oddly I wrote it very, very tired.
Scared that this might just be an elaborate prank by Luna as revenge.