Feb
3rd
2022
late night anxietyposting · 10:45am Feb 3rd, 2022
why did I decide to make a comment based story when:
a: reading comments makes me anxious because my brain is convinced that they'll be mean
2: i barely have any readers so all the suggestions come from 2 or three people
iii: I keep getting the urge to write self indulgent content that appeals only to me like the two other people who have the months worth of context to even care
why am I even writing this blog
anxiety sucks
Hey, there's nothing wrong with writing for yourself. And that sort of thing can have wider appeal than you think.
5633378
perhaps, but my brain is convinced everyone hates it and just pretending to like it even though that's the most ridiculous thing that could possibly happen in this website
case in point, I put off reading this reply for a hour because I was scared of what it might say despite the fact that I've never seen you say something not pleasant ever, common sense is powerless against my anxiety not even medication can defeat it
still gonna write more though. when my brain decides it's time to sit down and write the whole chapter in one sitting, who knows when that will be
*hugs*
If the comments aspect is stressing you out, then you could drop it. Homestuck dropped the aspect of readers directing the story in a meaningful way relatively early on.
Anxiety does suck. You know what doesn't suck? Writing a dumb collab with me. You don't have to worry about it being shitty because that's the point lol
Anyway hope you feel better.
5633560
Maybe in the future, but I do like going off of comments, it's fun and kicks my creativity in gear, it's just the stress of actually opening those comments.