The Darkening isn't Dead, I Swear! · 4:45pm Mar 14th, 2021
So, I know I haven't really done anything here in nearly two years, but I just wanted to tell anyone who may still care that I haven't given up on The Darkening yet. The truth is, I've been in a bit of a funk since before posting chapter 7. My depression came back, harder than it has in over a decade, and with it came the old feelings of failure. Every time I sat down to write, this little voice in the back of my head told me that I wasn't good enough, that nobody would like what I made, and I'd get very little done before giving up.
It was especially frustrating because I've already beaten this. Nearly 12 years ago, when I my oldest daughter was born, I made the decision that I needed to find a way to be happy, to live for my daughter, and I beat it. It doesn't seem fair that it can come back now, you know? But I'm fine, I'm through the worst of it now, and I find, for the first time in nearly two years, that I'm excited to write again.
So, I just wanted to give a big thank you to everyone who has been reading The Darkening, as well as to those of my followers that are still around. Whenever that voice speaks up, it helps to reread your comments (and even simply looking at my like/dislike ratios), and I'm often able to make it shut up. So please, continue commenting, and don't shy away from criticizing either! Don't worry, I have always valued criticisms even more than positive comments, and in all of my 7 years on this site, I have never been bothered by one. And again, thank you to everyone who reads this!
I'm working very slowly on chapter 8 of The Darkening. I got a good way into it, but scrapped it because I was unhappy with where it was going, but it's on track now. However, I'm pouring most of my energy into another story at the moment. But as I stated before, the old excitement to write is back, and I'm pretty sure I'm back for good! And words can't truly express how great it feels to say that. I'll keep you posted as I make progress in The Darkening, as well as my new story.
Take care everyone and God bless!
I hope you have a blessed time, in writing and in family!
I hope good things continue to happen to you.
And to quote part of a song from my church.
Count your blessings.
Name them one-by-one.
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Thanks! I truly appreciate the kind words.
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You're welcome.
He’s back! *snuggles and 🍪s!*
You know, for me, the challenges were all a mystery, a puzzle, a challenge, and I, as a man who loves the challenges, I always take it differently than most people. I want to do more, and when I get upset and I get this moment of emptiness, I ask myself, "Well, you’ve given up, but what now? What will you do now?" And then I realize that I have no opportunity to give up, if I know that it will make me miserable and that once I am completely done with my goal, I will never find satisfaction again. So I’m glad you could come to your senses and get your life together and get back to writing, maybe very slow)
PS. It would be fun to see oc of your daughters if they’re the ones who inspire you.
PSS. English is not my native language, but I am a carrier of Belarusian.
And whatever you say The Darkening I like.
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And again, thank you.
I appreciate the kind words. They mean a lot to me, especially right now. And I'm glad you enjoyed The Darkening so far. I may have gone on one heck of an hiatus, but I'm still writing! Just currently, it isn't pony words