October Update · 7:53pm Nov 3rd, 2020
October didn't go particularly well. Hopefully November ends up better. More after the break.
October 2020
Goal: 30,000 words10/1 - 100
10/2 - 100
10/3 - 200
10/4 - 300
10/5 - 200
10/6 - 100
10/7 - 100
10/8 - 100
10/9 - 100
10/10 - 300
10/11 - 100
10/12 - 100
10/13 - 100
10/14 - 1000
10/15 - 100
10/16 - 0
10/17 - 0
10/18 - 0
10/19 - 0
10/20 - 0
10/21 - 0
10/22 - 0
10/23 - 0
10/24 - 0
10/25 - 0
10/26 - 0
10/27 - 0
10/28 - 0
10/29 - 0
10/30 - 0
10/31 - 100Result: 3,100
Writing didn't go particularly well this month. For whatever reason I hit a pretty intense patch of depression about halfway through October and have been trying to recover ever since. Things kinda only got worse from there but it's not quite as bad as it was this time last year at least. That's certainly not to say that the world hasn't been trying its best to put me down. For whatever reason I've gotten a sudden influx of people claiming to know my intentions around what happened last year better than I do. I suppose I knew people would try to say I was only doing it for attention but I'm not sure why there are a handful coming out and try to claim it now. For whatever reason people have decided to be a lot nastier than they should this month, surprisingly even people that I thought actually cared.
In times like these though, you have to turn yourself away from the toxicity. There will always be those that give into their own temptations to be awful people and refuse any introspection to try to change that, but the best we can do is try not to do the same. We're in control of our own actions and it's important to not let negativity dominate you. I know I still have a lot to be thankful for, especially with the friends I know I can still trust. If I've learned anything over the last year, it's that you won't ever be able to recover if you only ever think about the bad that's happening in your life. I definitely know how overwhelming that negativity can be, but there's always a light to focus on if you could just turn away from the dark for a while.
In light of that, I suppose we all know what today is and that not worrying might be kind of difficult. I've made it a point not to use my profile as a means to spread my political opinions for the mental health of my followers and because I think it's kind of selfish to build an audience for a specific thing only to try to use them to spread a completely unrelated message. To each their own but I'd rather not jump into that camp myself for now, anyway. I haven't really made it a secret what my political position is and I've been doing my best to provide some actual information to other discussions that have been severely lacking them recently, but to stick to my own philosophy I'll skip the political lecture here and just say don't let today be a regret you'll have for the next four years.
That's all I have for now. Until next time.
Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/Holy
Ko-fi: https://ko-fi.com/holyxheretic
Subscribestar: https://subscribestar.adult/holy
My Discord if you'd like to talk to me directly about something or want to try making a new friend: Holy#4599
Discord Server: currently for patrons/friends only.
Thanks to my patrons: Knoster, Liger Storm, JrWubMaster, X865, RoboRed, Hahapie, Hoovier, RustDust, Pesoen, and three currently anonymous donors.
Oh my lord, that picture is a-ma-zing!
I know this is ridiculously late, but, Happy Halloween Holy!
Regarding the people being negative towards you: as good as it is to hear that you have the strength to not be torn down by what they say, it's upsetting that you should need to use that strength. Hope to hear that a better November was had by the time the month ends.
well said
E N G O R G E.
*Chuckles in a ditch.*
At no point did I ever think you did it for attention, and those people who did can kindly frick off.
Don't worry, we'll always have your back.
Hopefully November will help you move forward in the right direction. Take care of yourself.
I'm glad that you aren't letting them get to you. 3,100 words is a lot (by about 3,100) more then I have written this month! Hopefully you are able to make more out of next month, but if you don't, that's ok. Don't feel like you have to force yourself to write. We will be there no matter what. Thanks for taking the time to give us these monthly updates. I personally haven't had much time to go on this site much, (between work and sleep, I only have about an hour and a half free time each day) and have been gaining a major backlog of storys and chapters to catch up on, so it is really nice to hear from you. That being said, I have decided to dedicate my breaks at work to catching up on chapters and storys on my backlog. Naturally, I will be starting with yours. I can't wait to finally start catching up on all of what you have been posting that I have missed. Hopefully I won't shock my coworkers too badly by actually taking my breaks.
Just keep on trucking and know we all have your back. We Iove you, Holy 😊.
P.S. LOVE the pic 😍.
Hello again Holy. I know I haven't said anything recently. But it's great to hear that you're trying to keep the strength to focus on the positive things in life, while still acknowledging that there are bad things in the world. To me that sounds like you're making great progress, but that's just an opinion from someone that doesn't have knowledge in mental states and mental health issues, so take what I say with a grain of salt. It'd be great to try and become friends with you, so I'm wondering how I could do that. Hope this month is better for you, both in terms of mental health and creativity.
I don't really interact with you beyond opinions on chapters, even though I'm in your discord group, but I do support you.
Haven’t heard from you in a while. I hope your doing okay. Don’t know why but I feel worried about you.