The Possible Return of Arcelia · 7:17am Nov 23rd, 2019
About two years ago, I wrote a post saying that I may or may not continue with writing fanfiction on this site. As you can probably tell, I didn't. I'm still not sure. To be really honest the thought has come up quite a few times. I've been toying with the idea for the last two years but never really put much stock into it.
Two years ago, I packed up and moved to Brisbane to live with Cerulean Voice, his two children, and his mother. By all accounts, this does not end well. I was basically packing and trying to leave all my problems behind in Perth. Which, never works. I spent almost a year being depressed, I didn't have a job, I was in bed a lot, I came off my anti-depressants abruptly and without professional consultation. I spent a lot of time in one room and feeling sorry for myself. I now take 100% responsibility for the state I managed to get myself into.
When I finally did get a job, my deep-seeded anxiety and mental health issues got the better of me and I wasn't able to cope. I was also working in retail, which probably didn't help matters. My Mother had to fly to the other side of the country to help me pack up my things and bring me home. I spent a lot of time sleeping and trying to work out what to do next. Even though I had realized it yet, I was on a journey. For the first time in my life, I wasn't living with my partner and I was finally going to need the help I so desperately needed.
That journey of self-love and recovery has brought me here. I am now twenty years old and even though I've been through a lot of really traumatic experiences and have had to overcome an immense amount of pain and suffering mentally, I'm definitely better off for it.
I've been seeing psychiatrists, psychologists and even clinical psychologists who have helped me process my trauma. I've been diagnosed with Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. (Or CPTSD) I've been put on the right medication and I've been doing everything in my power to get life into a much better place.
At the start of the year, I developed polycystic ovaries and had to see a private gynecologist in order to get the right treatment. Having cysts on my ovaries made it very difficult for me to attend any of my classes. I was trying to study at TAFE at the time and even had to drop out of a few classes to cope.
Even though I've struggled both mentally and physically, I'm now about to graduate with three Qualifications. All of which are Certificate III tertiary qualifications. A Cert III in Business Administration, Cert III in Business and a Cert III in Business Administration Medical. I'm now hoping that with these qualifications, my Mother overhauling my resume, my lecturers giving me references and just my general personality will be enough to get me a job next year.
I've also been learning to drive. I'm now up to roughly 30 out of my 50 required hours of supervised driving and I'm hoping to get my provisional license before I move back to Queensland.
That's the other thing I wanted to talk about. I'm officially going to be moving back in with Cerulean Voice. I'm now hoping that everything I've tried to do this year will be enough to prepare for what lies ahead. I have outgrown my current environment and I'm ready to 'spread my wings' so to speak. We are both very much looking forward to seeing each other again after what will have been a period of seven months. It has been hard for me to be away from him for so long but I've managed okay.
Now, for the real reason, you probably clicked on this post. I am considering returning to writing. Even though the show has ended. Well, generation four has anyway. I still feel that writing could be beneficial to my ongoing healing process and also be a great creative outlet when I'm not coloring in or making costumes. Yes, I'm still doing that.
But before I even do come back to writing I think it would be good for me to read some really good stories and maybe get some inspiration. To keep me motivated I'm thinking about writing reviews or even just writing about my thoughts on here. Just sharing what each story makes me feel, what I thought about it etc.
I am going to Bali in just over a week for a desperately needed holiday. My family has been through so much and we all agree some time off could do all of us some good. None of my brothers will be coming but that's okay. It will just be me, my Mother and Grandparents. We will be in Bali for sixteen days and I'm hoping then to also get some good reading. It's high time I caught up on some of the fandom's masterworks anyway.
For now, it is looking like I will be coming back. I do miss writing. I do miss feeling somewhat accomplished by actually finishing something. If you are interested in seeing any of my cosplays or coloring you can check them out at my Instagram accounts here: Arcelia's Cosplay Account my Cosplay Instagram account will also link you to my casual account where I post my colorings. If you do not have Instagram and would prefer to use Facebook, you can follow my cosplay here: Arcelia's Facebook Cosplay Page
It has been an incredibly intense year for me and I'm glad its almost over. As of next Friday, I will be finished with my studies and I'm hoping to do lots of reading while on my break.
Also, I have not seen most of Season 9 and since Cerulean Voice wants us to watch the entire show again together it will be quite sometime before I do so. So please, no spoilers. I also have other shows I'm yet to catch up on because we love watching stuff together. If you are looking for good shows I can recommend some great Netflix show such as:
The Good Place
Now I certainly don't want to give too much away because personally, the best way to watch the show is by going in blind. But The Good Place is seriously funny, deals with some very interesting topics such as death, moral ethics, and philosophy. It's honestly just so good so go check it out on Netflix.
Bojack Horseman
Now on its sixth and final season, (Netlfix canceled it) Bojack Horseman is the best-animated adult TV show. ever made, it also probably one of the best depictions of depression I have ever seen. The show is incredibly smart, funny and deals with some pretty heavy-handed topics but in the best possible way. With an incredibly colorful cast of characters and a story that keeps the show incredibly fresh and addictive to watch. If you haven't already go check it out.
Here is a synopsis:
A humanoid horse, BoJack Horseman -- lost in a sea of self-loathing and booze -- decides it's time for a comeback. Once the star of a '90s sitcom, in which he was the adoptive father of three orphaned kids (two girls and a boy). The show was the hottest thing around, then suddenly, it was canceled. Now 18 years later, BoJack wants to regain his dignity. With the aid of a human sidekick and a feline ex-girlfriend who is his agent, he sets out to make it happen. But Hollywood is vastly different from those days, and getting used to stuff like Twitter may take some time.
Jane the Virgin
I recently started watching this show while I do my coloring and I gotta say its so freaking good. It's one of the craziest fucking shows I've ever watched, it's so funny. It's really great. Here's a quick synopsis:
Jane Villanueva's life turns upside down after she gets artificially inseminated. She is in for a greater shock when she discovers that the biological donor is her boss and former crush.
So if you have Netflix and are looking for some good shows to binge watch sometime, those are my recommendations. I'm going to go through my read later list and maybe try and cut it down a bit so it's not so overwhelming 
I'm hoping to come back soon with some story reviews/thoughts whatever and then later on hopefully some new stories of my own. I don't even know how good my writing is. I'm probably really rusty. Maybe someday I'll actually finish These Heartbreak Times I really think that the first chapter being as long as it is has made it for it to find a readership and also I write a lot of fluff. Like there's a ton of filler and I can probably cut out a bunch of unnecessary scenes from it.
Anyway, this has been Arcelia. Survivor of mental health battles, partner to Cerulean Voice and aspiring writer who hopes to come back soon.
If you wanna chat with me on Discord my username is: Arcelia#3205
~ Arcelia
Artwork by plainoasis
It’s good to hear how much better you’re doing and what you’ve been overcoming!
I also really like Bojack Horseman too, but I haven’t seen the final season yet.
Hello again, Arcelia! It's good to hear from you after... well, it honestly feels like forever.
The past two years have been eventful for both of us, it seems, and I'm very happy to hear that you're doing well and, more than that, doing better and better as time goes on. Congratulations on your certifications (not sure if that should be capitalized or not, I'm hopelessly American) and best of luck getting your driver's license!
I'm glad that you kept going, and once again, I'm overjoyed to hear that things are not only better, but continuing on the upswing.
If you're looking for something to read over your holiday in Bali (which sounds nice right about now -- it's winter here and I'm tired of it already) I would humbly submit some of my own work for your consideration:
If you like OCs and canon mixing: The Stars of Darkness
If you like shipping: Where My Heart Lives
Or my most popular stories so far: Seven Years then Consanguinity
If none of those strike your fancy, I'm afraid I've very little to offer you in the way of options -- I don't read here often anymore -- but one of the writers I would recommend is Jade RIng. He's written a lot of stuff and leans into horror a little, but two of my favorites of his are For Ages and Ages to Come and Dear Sweetie Belle.
I hope at least one of those piques your interest, and I hope we hear more from you in the future!
Good to have you back,
~D4ft
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Hi Ice Star
It's nice to hear from you, I haven't watched the final season yet either. I've been waiting to watch it with Cerulean Voice. Along with The Good Place, Rick and Morty, MLP, The Good Doctor, Black Mirror and the list goes on.
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I'm looking forward to catching up on some of the stories on that list. I'm hoping it will help me write better stories in the future. 
Thanks for your words of kindness and support. I've actually already added Seven Years to my Read It Later list. I went through and tried to cut down on the number of stories so it didn't feel so overwhelming.
I look forward to reading Seven Years and I'm glad to be coming back after so long.
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You’re going to need a lot of popcorn for all that.
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I prefer other kinds of snacks to be honest, like chips, chocolate and ice cream. But yes, we are going to need plenty of popcorn lol
Glad you’re doing well
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I hope you're well.
Thank you, Vertigo. I could never forget my wonderful former editor