After Nearly Two Months, I Haven't Forgotten No Hugs · 9:41am Nov 10th, 2018
Eyyy.
I return with an update for No Hugs progress! AND! I haven't written anything for it. But to be perfectly honest, I am glad I took the time off to relax and focus on myself and other things.
Something deep inside me was unstable, something that I have yet to really have someone give me a firm answer to. The good thing is that with the help of a friend, I was able to really get myself out of the rut I was stuck in. The bad thing is that I know that feeling will come back around to haunt me; only a matter of time before it returns.
The following chapter is going to be the absolute truth about what this "thing" has been eating at myself. The "thing" that came to attack me was myself. I'm not going to spend the next X amount of words calling myself worthless and ask for people's pity; this is just my emotions. In September, I was forced to move my house because I couldn't work 7 days a week. I now live with my grandparents and am living much more comfortably. However, I couldn't help but feel lame because of where I was in life. I was angry with myself. I couldn't even write without hating every word I wrote, thinking my stories were nonsensical. Heck, even when I wrote King's Puzzle, I was very stressed about writing a good story. I've been told before to write for yourself, but how can you write for yourself when you're assaulting everything you do? The funny thing is, no one gave me the answer to fixing my issue with my own personal insults. I just got over it like I normally do. I think the main point as to why I am writing this is because I want those who struggle with self-confidence are not alone. What I do to stay rejuvenated is to tell someone you trust what's going on inside your head. Even though my friend just listened to me ventilate to him, it just helped. You want to be listened to when you are sad; when you are down; when you are defeated; when you feel alone.
Well, you aren't alone. I'll listen if you need an ear. I've done that for others who have struggled, and I won't let up that practice. Keep in mind I may not have the answers to all your problems, but sometimes you need to see your thoughts out before you.
Anyways, that's what's been going on with me. Onto more important matters. When will the next No Hugs chapter be? I will not give a firm date on that. I am currently working on another story as a means to meditate. Strange how working on other things makes me feel relaxed. But I did get a commission of Sugar Crush done!
I know it's been almost a year since I did my fan picked scene commission, but the artist in question is away at the moment. That's all that will be said on that.
Keep being patient with me and thank you for those who are. I just need more time.
Freak, out.
Take all the time you need. Your health, whether that's physical or mental, is immeasurably more important than any story.
Besides, your story is worth the wait
Take however much time you need, Fero.
I actually missed the blog you posted last time about taking two weeks off, I still thought you were moving. 
In all seriousness, please take all the time you need. Having just got out of a small funk of my own, I get where you’re coming from. If need be, maybe see a therapist, I had a friend who said it helped her out a lot. Not right away, but eventually it helped her find whatever it was she was looking for.
And good luck with any stories you’re writing on the side! I’m sure they’ll be fantastic!