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kudzuhaiku


She's looking at you. Yes you. And she is judging you with her eyes. There is no escape.

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  • 53 weeks
    It's late

    But my brain isn't quiet. I'm stoned out of my goddamn gourd. Don't worry, it is just my usual regimen of drugs. That's how I spent a lot of my time now. Wasted. Doesn't really help with the pain much, but makes it a bit more tolerable. All of my drugs cost over 5 grand a month. That's what it takes to keep me going. I'm in somewhat better shape because of all of it, and there's a few bright

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  • 64 weeks
    Cyborgification is potentially a-go

    Finally found a doctor that didn't run screaming upon seeing my spine images and xrays. The team is coming together. Met with the neurosurgeon the other day, and he thinks I am an ideal candidate for augmentation. The transition is happening, I think. I still have to pass a psych evaluation and other steps, but I am closer now than ever. First I'll have the trial run; they'll sink electrodes into

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  • 93 weeks
    Today, life changes forever.


    It's been a long, long road to get to this point. A big thank you to everyone who has been with me during this journey.

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  • 93 weeks
    Big changes are happening


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  • 117 weeks
    I suppose it is time for an update

    Been meaning to this, and I've become the King of Pro-Crasty Nation. I kept wanting to report, but there was nothing to report, no good news at all, so I just... didn't. Sorry. Went a bit silent on my end. It just sorta happened.

    I finally got a lawyer willing to take up my case. After that, things started happening.

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Sep
10th
2016

Because it feels like the right thing to do · 3:55pm Sep 10th, 2016

I am releasing an actual honest-to-goddess trigger warning for the next chapter of Venenum Iocus.

I've wrestled over this issue for a while now, worried that people might not take me seriously. (It's my own fault, I've made silly trigger warnings for other stories.) I've also worried that some people might be turned off by such a thing, or turned away from the story. I debated on if this chapter should even be in the story. At first, I thought it was too dark, but then I realised that it wasn't dark at all, but soulful and triumphant. It's been difficult to write, painful even, and I've had to stop several times so that I could get my shit together and compose myself. It seems like I could only jot down a paragraph or two before it felt like I was coming undone and then I had to hug my beagle or go watch something that would cheer me up on youtube.

Speaking of things that cheered me up, here, have this.

Some wacky kid's show wrote a song about post traumatic stress disorder.

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Comments ( 5 )

I'll put 'safety' to on, don't want my M134D-T to accidentally cut loose. :pinkiecrazy:
P.S. Got rid of that cricket yet?:pinkiehappy:

Well... I'm looking forward to it ambivalently!

I have disagreed with you immensely on things in stories that hasn't stopped me before, but given how some of the backlash happened I understand the nervousness.

this song is very good, really helps you calm yourself

Its about post traumatic stress disorder AND relationship conflicts

bring it!

even though my body is probably not reay XP

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