posting under the influence · 12:10am May 9th, 2016
You've been warned.
I can hear my family speaking through the heating vents. I'm hiding in my room. Our room. The room that I share with my husband and son. Our family room. God, I can't wait to move out.
Finished my third glass of ojsvedka. Having a family barbecue. At the time when things are usually winding down, more guests have come. People I don't know. One man helped me up onto the roof of our house to fetch a ball. Also retrieved two Frisbees from past tenants. Husbando was not pleased. Requested that I not let strangers shove me onto roofs under the influence. I think about my head canon of Sunset Shimmer and promise him. Mildly turned on by his protectiveness. I kind of like it when a guy (or girl) would fight for me, even if I'm being dumb and reckless.
Kiddo is fine. He's playing with another boy we barely know. The new kid brought superhero action figures. SmallCaliber took a shine to them. I say, "I guess I need to get you action figures." Baloo (oldest brother) says with a look that suggests the obvious, "Yes. Yes you do."
Cue drunk rage.
Mind you, I'm a conscientious drunk, so I reign myself in, but I'm pissed. I say, somewhat defensively, "Hey I don't MAKE him like My Little Pony! He likes that all by himself! We also get him cars and dinosaurs! That's pretty masculine!" But my words were unheeded.
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Wow. Had to pause this to say goodbye to someone and just got teased again for buying my son My Little Pony toys. By someone I hardly know.
Someone wants to die.
Sure does sound like they want to die, yeah.
Then try not to let it bother you.
I go to the liquor store or grab fastfood without taking a shower while wearing shirts with bleach marks and sweatpants with holes. Why? Cause I couldn't give less of a shit about what random people off the street think of me. I clean myself up for jobs and classes and friends and family, but not for cashier #42 at McDonalds.
Basically, if you don't know someone, and don't care to, then don't worry about their opinions, in anything.