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HMXTaylorLee


I hope that when the world comes to an end, I can breathe a sigh of relief, because there will be so much to look forward to.

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    A Year in (Movie) Review

    Peppered throughout my stories are various references to films and movies, as I'm sure several of you guys noticed (A Dare's Truth has several ponified versions of movies, and Scootaloo and The Cabinet of Seers has a few references as well). I love movies - I go once, sometimes twice, a week to the local theater to see a new movie! It's gotten to the point where the Tuesday staffer recognizes me

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    Happy December, everyone!

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  • 53 weeks
    Bronycon 2019

    Well, like thousands of folks here, I will be attending Bronycon this year!

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  • 59 weeks
    Fragments of fiction, and the validity of non-canon stories.

    So, like many fans of the orange winged wonder, today was a momentous episode for Scootaloo. I teared up at a few moments, and although the episode was predictable, it was a feel-good episode that reaffirms just how special the Crusaders truly are.

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  • 65 weeks
    On Videogames and motivation

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Oct
16th
2015

Magnolia · 11:15pm Oct 16th, 2015

Hey everyone.

So, I was really surprised by the response that my last blog garnered. I want to take this opportunity to thank the supporters among you followers. As for the other comments, I can't blame you for your vitriol. What I did was reprehensible, illegal, and terrible, and I regret every bit of it. I can understand why the entry might have been interpreted as a call for sympathy, but at the time of it's posting, I truly felt despondent, having been robbed and looking at as bleak of a future as I've ever imagined. But, I think that perhaps, it was supposed to happen. I'll explain.

First, my situation.

On the civilian side;

I am out on bond, and because my offense was a first time, non-violent crime, I am eligible for a program called 'pre-trial intervention.' If it's approved, I will fulfill the conditions set before me, and the charges will be dropped. If not, well... I prefer to have hope.

On the military side;

My commander and first sergeant are waiting to see the results of the civilian case first before proceeding with UCMJ action. The investigators are Air Force OSI, a separate branch of the military, so they haven't communicated too much with one another.

So, what could lead me to think that this was orchestrated? Well, it started when I went to jail, and my life was turned upside down. Visually, even - my cell number was 116, and my room number at the barracks was 119. Literally flipped upside down.

Next, were the books. The cell block I was in was under lockdown the entire time, and prisoners were only brought out one at a time to shower every two days, so they couldn't contact one another physically. But, I learned from the shouting that they often did from the doors that they didn't have any books to read, and access to the library was restricted while the block was locked down. Meanwhile, I had four books in my cell.

The first was "Time of Attack" by Marc Cameron. It's a hugely entertaining thriller, but the thing that struck me was that the main character was a member of the Air Force OSI - just like my investigating officers.

The second was the sixth book in "The American Bicentennial Series", titled "The Warriors." The book follows the exploits of an American family during, and after the Civil War, and the struggles that the Kent family faces as a result. I likened it to my own situation, as my time with the military is drawing to a close as well.

The third book was an oddball. It was the 1996 Readers Digest Condensed Works, Volume 4. It had four stories in it: "Notorious" (proof that Mary Sue stories with generic main characters can sell), "Snow Wolf" (A great imagining of how Joseph Stalin may have died during a covert US operation), "The Cat Who Said Cheese" (a quirky small town mystery, wherein plot points are unwittingly foreshadowed by a pair of Siamese cats), and "Mirage" (a tale of a woman living in, then escaping a middle eastern country presumed dead, only to have her noble husband track her down). Why does this bear any significance to me? Of all the Readers Digest Condensed book sets to make it into my cell, it was the same as the singular Readers Digest Condensed book that currently resides on my mother's shelf at home.

The last book was the fittingly titled "A Gentle Thunder: Hearing God Through The Storm" by Max Lucado.

Coincidence? Maybe. But I won't lie that the notion that what has happened to me is part of some divine orchestration is comforting.

This experience, though not finished by a long shot, has taught me rather a lot. Maybe that was the point of it. The biggest thing that I learned was about forgiveness, and how important it is. As demonstrated by a lot of the comments from my previous entry, there is a lot of hatred directed at sex offenders, even in communities that have "love and tolerance" as a mantra. Life for a sex offender is one where they are subjected to judgment, scorn, and vilification for a bad decision that they've made, and all most of them want is a second chance. And there's me, desperate for one.

You may recall that when I returned to my room, I found that a lot of my belongings had been pilfered. My TV, games, movies, what have you. Well, the thief also had taken my debit card, and tracking it's usage revealed that the identity of the thief was someone whom I considered a great friend - we were inseparable while deployed. He had a falling out with the significant other whom he lived with, and I offered him my barracks room as a place for him to stay. Cue Rarity Takes Manehattan,

When I brought it to the attention of my first sergeant and commander, I insisted that I didn't want to press any charges or have any severe disciplinary action brought to him - I just wanted my things back. We've since recovered a good bit of my belongings, and he isn't facing any legal action that may adversely affect him as a result of my insistence.

After all, what good is asking for forgiveness for mistakes made when one can't forgive someone else for theirs?

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Comments ( 20 )

When the universe throws you an olive branch grab on with both hands and don't let go.

I'm so happy for you!

Its good to hear from you man. Try not to pay attention to the people giving you trouble over your last blog. A lot of people are ignorant and don't understand just how much it f**** you up when your abused yourself as a child and how it can lead you to do things you later regret. As somebody who experienced it first hand and who has dated somebody who experience it I understand where your comming from.... To an extent, I can't pretend I know exactly what your feeling. I do hope everything works out on the 'pre-trial intervention' program. Hang in there man, you've got people in your corner.

*hugs*

I'm so glad things are looking up.

And about the books, it certainly sounds like the big guy upstairs was watching and wants to give you a second chance.

*Hugs*

And I'm so glad that's the case.

And you definitely proved yourself a bigger man by forgiving your friend. Not everybody would and it says a great deal about you that you can.

I hope that you should get the help you need. If they have not offered psychiatric help, please request it. Please do as your lawyer says, because your lawyer knows more about this law-stuff than you do.

Your Scootaloo has suffered but is strong. You can be like her. Just please do not let Diamond Tiara incite you to violence. :facehoof:

The trolls have moved on and had their say, we're still here for you.

( partially to 3475787 , but mainly HMXTaylorLee)
Actually as far as your lawyer is concerned, make sure he actually wants to help you. My brother's lawyer did not want to be his lawyer, but rather the prosecutor and scoffer, hence a biased trial.

I've been praying for you. I'm so glad that God has been orchestrating everything. I'm also sorry about everything that has happened. I hope everything goes well. Forgivenes truly is a hard thing to do, but it is the best thing. I've struggled with it. Now I can honestly say it is the best decision you can make.

Praying for you and God Bless! :twilightsmile:
~Melly~

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Thanks for all of your support, guys and gals. I'm going to use this time in Limbo to try and crank out some writing for you fine folks!

It is good to hear from you again, and better to hear that you believe there is hope. I don't like being philosophical, but I'll say this anyway: hope is a good thing to have. (Better still, your situation seems to be under the control of reasonable authorities. :pinkiesmile:)

I like to think I've also learned something from your communication of your experience - my perceptions towards accused perpetrators of the relevant acts have become much less polarised, and I regard that as a very good thing. Most people are redeemable - you seem to be among them. :eeyup:

Remain hopeful, and may your authorities stay reasonable. :coolphoto::twilightsmile:

I sure hope you don't get put in jail, I believe you can do this, You have my support.

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To Pencil Melody:
You earned a thumbup.

To HMXTaylorLee:
I have no idea what to do if your lawyer is against you and you cannot afford a private lawyer.

Hurrah! You're back! Congratulations and good luck! :twilightsmile: And yes, forgiveness is very powerful indeed; personally, I hold it as the most powerful virtue of all.

3479033 I have a private lawyer, so if he's not fighting for me, he'll be fighting to earn his check.

Man, you're back! I am glad! :-)

It's very touching to read your words of faith. I think/hope, that you are on the right path.
I hope it's not offending you in any ways, but I will pray for your well-being.

Cheers!
P.S.: And keep writing your awesome fics... :-)

Wanted to share some Bible verses, if you don't mind.

9 If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness.

-1 John 1:9

6 Humble yourselves, therefore, under God’s mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. 7 Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.

8 Be alert and of sober mind. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. 9 Resist him, standing firm in the faith, because you know that the family of believers throughout the world is undergoing the same kind of sufferings.

10 And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast. 11 To him be the power for ever and ever. Amen.

-1 Peter 5:6-9

9 But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.”

-2 Corinthians 12:9a

16 For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. 17 For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him.

-John 3:16-17

John is a great book of the Bible, especially to get in touch with Jesus's character. If you don't mind, I'll keep praying for you. It you'll bear with my long post, there's a really good story in John that I think you would enjoy, found in Chapter 8. It goes like this:

2 At dawn he appeared again in the temple courts, where all the people gathered around him, and he sat down to teach them. 3 The teachers of the law and the Pharisees brought in a woman caught in adultery. They made her stand before the group 4 and said to Jesus, “Teacher, this woman was caught in the act of adultery. 5 In the Law Moses commanded us to stone such women. Now what do you say?” 6 They were using this question as a trap, in order to have a basis for accusing him.

But Jesus bent down and started to write on the ground with his finger. 7 When they kept on questioning him, he straightened up and said to them, “Let any one of you who is without sin be the first to throw a stone at her.” 8 Again he stooped down and wrote on the ground.

9 At this, those who heard began to go away one at a time, the older ones first, until only Jesus was left, with the woman still standing there. 10 Jesus straightened up and asked her, “Woman, where are they? Has no one condemned you?”

11 “No one, sir,” she said.

“Then neither do I condemn you,” Jesus declared. “Go now and leave your life of sin.”

Jesus forgives even the most atrocious of sins. Look at Paul, who wrote Romans. He was a serial killer, yet Jesus redeemed him, and used him as one of the most influential apostles of the time period. He forgave and accepted me, helping me past struggles with porn, and though I'm far from perfect, His grace continues to cover me when I mess up. It's because of Jesus's intervention that I'm free now.
From your last post, it seemed like you perhaps don't have a relationship with Jesus yet. If this is the case, please consider it. Do some research, and seek Him out. He loves you more than you can imagine. And though He won't magically make life easier, or fix all your problems necessarily, He will help you through them.

I see you deleted your other blog post... I don't blame you, it was attracting trolls like flies. At least it seems the jerks have gotten bored with their game and have moved on since they don't seem interested in trolling this page. I just want to say that what you've written is beautiful. You created something beautiful. And that can't be taken from you.

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Yeah...

I figured at this point, there wasn't any point on dwelling on it. What happened, happened. What happens next, happens. I don't feel that additional persecution is beneficial to anyone at this point, and I would very much like my stories to be judged fairly on their own merits as opposed to what I've done in the past.

I'm glad to hear that things are starting to brighten up for you!

Ah, this... I remember writing a blog post about it... Hope all goes even more well for you.

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