Rough endings, new beginnings, and returning. · 9:11pm Jul 23rd, 2015
So, as some of you know, I have been going through some nasty stuff. It started off mild, way back when I first took a leave of absence from fimfiction, and mlp in general. I had attempted to get back a couple times over the following year to year and a half, but was never able to get back into it or got pulled away again. After I got forcefully pulled away from this, and everything as well, in an event that is messing up everything and is causing a downward spiral, I started to get into ponies again, but wasn't able to immerse myself fully, again.
After this past weekend, something happened that is basically slapping me in the face to see why I joined in the first place. Great stories about a nice show all about friends and friendship, and how it can help you pull through anything, and the friends it brings along.
Long story short, I believe I am back, and am able to continue writing my story, as well as continuing the small fics I had saved from eons ago.
Now, for all my friends, and people that care, this truly pains me to admit and ask for help, because it goes against everything I've ever been like. (Passerby carry on)
As many of you know, I spent a few months in jail for something I don't feel was right, it has screwed up everything I had hoped for and was aiming for. Since then, I have found an unfortunate best friend in the form of alcohol. Between not being able to get a worthwhile job due to the circumstances with me going to jail, and not being paid enough to cover bills at my current job (which I get paid a small salary but put in 50+ hrs a week) I had started stealing to keep myself fed. That has gone on for a couple months now, but it recently evolved into something darker. I stole a bunch of drugs this past weekend and took most of them, along with plenty of alcohol, in an attempt to drown out all my pain, sorrow, frustration, all that jazz, and I did, for a few hours. I felt better than I have in years, before my mom passed away in 06. As I was coming down from that adventure, I realized a couple things. I can't do this alone. I need to find some help, and I'm currently seeking someplace cheap to help with my years long battle with depression, as well as all the aggression I have been building since I got incarcerated. I also realized that with everything I took that night it should have killed me. I had enough painkillers that I could have been shot and not felt it. Narcotics are not something to mess with, and I felt it for 3 days before hitting the hangover. All I ask for is your thoughts to carry me through this time in my life, as well as any possible ideas on finding a decent job that I can live on with a felony on my record currently.
*hugs* Good luck, man. May the pink be with you.
Christ. I'm sorry that you were put into this scenario and I'm glad you are getting help
At least you're sharing. That's a good first step.
Good luck dude, I hope you can get the help you need.
As 3263807 said, Sharing is a good first step, never think your life isn't worth while. I follow that thought process religiously, even though I'm a pessimist, I always work toward a brighter future. Things may be hard for you, heck many of the people you'll find on this site alone could empathize with you having gone through or are going through similar situations as yourself.
Whatever path you choose remember, even though many of us can't be there to help you in person, We will be there online to encourage you wh4en you need it. Thanks for sharing your troubles, and if you want me to help you find an affordable place pm me ad I'll see what I can do.
All I can do is gripe about how businesses aren't supposed to discriminate against people with criminal records.
3266624 Except it happens, and it makes it hard to even get an interview..
Glad to see that you're back. I've been through some terrible stuff, though nothing as bad as jail, and I want you to know that if ever you need a shoulder just shoot me a message.