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The Conflicted Writer


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  • 501 weeks
    When you don't want to write?

    What do you do when writing becomes a chore? What happens if you've spent 8+ years writing and then, all of a sudden, the desire is gone? What do you do when someone suggests that you should write and your groan because you feel like you're about to go wash dishes?

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  • 524 weeks
    Now taking Commissions!

    With this journal and the posting of my latest story, I am happy to announce that commissions are finally open to the public! I hope to make enough money from this to help support myself and my dad while having enough left over to afford a few gifts for friends and save up for a good computer, all the while writing you a story you’ll love! As to how that will work, commissions begin at 5000 words

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  • 534 weeks
    I'm going to delete Pinkie Dinky Pie, I swear...

    Okay, everyone, I'm getting sick and tired of this. I write a padded pony story for a friend using their character, and what do I get? A few comments and notes complaining that I didn't use one of the mane 6 AND asking for more Dinky Pie.

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    Self Confidence issues

    I'm doing a lot more writing lately. I've got some stories just waiting for coverart all lined of to be posted. And, yes, more of the padded pony variety. sorry Celestia's Daughter fans... I just don't know if I have it in me to continue it. I'm still trying to muster up the energy, but it wanes everytime I try.

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  • 547 weeks
    Stream once more

    https://docs.google.com/document/d/1Svrbk1UlOZVg2oI9e4rXYUkGE-rpJhDJrCQHYH1hY6Y/edit

    Let's try this again. I have to do some cleaning, but let's all join in and talk.

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Feb
8th
2014

I'm going to delete Pinkie Dinky Pie, I swear... · 10:09pm Feb 8th, 2014

Okay, everyone, I'm getting sick and tired of this. I write a padded pony story for a friend using their character, and what do I get? A few comments and notes complaining that I didn't use one of the mane 6 AND asking for more Dinky Pie.

Seriously, what? I write what I want to write. If you want to complain about a story, point out awkward scenes or plotholes or something constructive. Asking me 'you should put x in situation y!' not only demotivates me, it makes me want to write what I was planning on writing even less. Where do you get off telling me what characters to use? If you want to jack off to Rainbow Dash being forced into an awkward foalish position, go read pattycakes.

And for those of you asking for more Dinky Pie; go away and never come back. You're never getting more Dinky Pie. Never. I'm offically done with it because you all won't shut up. It's cancelled, you're never seeing any more because you have the gall to demand more from me when I'm stressed and dealing with life.

I write what I want to write. If you don't like it, leave.

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Comments ( 57 )

Why is the starling spa trip story tagged?

1811756 But you know that's tag abuse, right?

1811762 LOOK! THIS IS A MESSAGE FOR EVERYONE THAT'S READ THAT STORY, OKAY?!

1811762 Does anybody really give a fuck?

1811799 1811810 I'm pretty sure you can get banned for doing that.

Stressed and dealing with life is fine.

But meeting dickery with further dickery accomplishes nothing.

I enjoyed PDP, am sorry to hear you won't be writing more, but for whatever reason you're deleting it, I'm sorry, that just makes you seem like an ass.

Try to not let them get to you, they just want what you do to conform to their own desires and needs... this is the part where I insert a clever metaphor but I'm too sick and lightheaded to think of one.

1811862 ... Are you serious? What SHOULD I have tagged, then? It's a message to people who read Starling.

1811871 well i thought it was a good story while it lasted

1811871 But out of the four comments on that story, only one person said anything about PDP. Why didn't you just reply to his comment instead of making a blog post about it?

And also, don't delete the story. If you do, it takes away from your story view count.

1811896 NOTES! DID YOU MISS THE PART WHERE I SAID THERE ARE NOTES?!

We'll, I'm gonna miss PDP, whether or not it's deleted. It was fun while it lasted. I hope your further writing goes better, I love your work man :pinkiehappy:

ARBPW #15 · Feb 8th, 2014 · · 2 ·

1811912 Implying he does it only for the views.

ARBPW #16 · Feb 8th, 2014 · · 2 ·

1811942 Also I like how all of the posts I make both here and in the padded group get thumbs down now.

If someone has a personal issue with me, don't be embarrassed. Step up and call me a cunt to my face. I'd love to know why.

1811929 The notes part is fine.

However, the title of the blog post is talking about PDP, but instead of tagging PDP, where you can hear what those who have favorited that story have to say about you deleting it, you tagged a story where 1 person said they wanted more PDP. So from what I understand, you're angry that people are asking more of one of your stories? Why is that making you so mad; that should make you happy! :pinkiehappy:

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If you were asked over and over again to do something you *don't want to do*, and being told to do it, you'd get pretty burnt out on the idea.

Hey
I'm generally a fan of your works, it always makes me happy when you submit something new and I have enjoyed reading all of your stories.
I can understand why you're mad but don't let the opinion of a few overshadow the many more who really liked it. True they might not have commented, but just look at the likes and faves, they're silent but they are there.
Concerning Pinkie Dinky Pie, as many others here I really love that story, both as a one shot and as a potential first chapter, while I would love a continuation of it, really I'm happy just to reed whatever you upload.
However, the story is dear to me as it was that story that made me realize what the heck abdl is about and made me come more to terms with myself.
I don't really care if you continue it, but the thought of you deleting it saddens me as others won't get the chance to reed it.

1811969 The thing is that some of the things you say comes off as dickish, especially when I'm politely pointing something out that could get the guy in trouble.

The phrase: "Does anybody really give a fuck?" is pretty dang rude, and pretty much everything you say after that is read not in a friendly way, but in a negative way because of the tone that you have set. Even if you say something neutral or even somewhat positive later, people will still most likely read it in a negative manner.

Also, I think it may have something to do with the avatar that you use. For instance, one of the readers on my main story kept leaving comments that could go either way, positive or negative. But the very first time I read one of his comments on my story, it was a negative one, where he tried pointing out flaws in the story that really weren't there. He came off as an asshole, but in reality, he just didn't understand the situation correctly, and he didn't phrase his comment in the right way.

That's another thing. Before commenting, one should read their post to see if it could be interpreted in a negative way. That's the downfall with texts: You cannot convey emotions. For example, I could be telling you this in a dickish way (I'm not), or I could be politely answering your question (which I am ^^).

1811942 Also, you replied to your own comment. :twilightblush:

1812100 You pointed out an extremely pointless thing about a post that doesn't even matter in the long run. My question stands; who really gives a fuck about which story is tagged? You're talking as if it's something ban-worthy, when in reality it's something that very few people are ever going to be concerned about. I'm not posting here to make friends, I'm posting here to let you know that you're making pointless, shitty comments. If people think that me asking you an honest question is worth all those thumbs down, then they're idiots and I don't give a shit if they're offended by that.

Besides...

Also, I think it may have something to do with the avatar that you use. For instance, one of the readers on my main story kept leaving comments that could go either way...

...what the actual fuck? That doesn't even follow! You criticize my avatar without saying anything constructive about it to no effect whatsoever and then you just move onto another topic entirely. So before trying to make another bullshit point, try finishing the one you started. Please and thank you.

1812109 I'm aware, dipshit.

1812109
Hey guess what?

You're a dick. Arby is a better human than you. Leave.

1812147 I did not insult your avatar; that was just bad phrasing on my end. What I meant to say is that it all depends on the avatar that one uses.

Time to throw in my two bits.
I'm not going to pretend that I know where your coming from, in an odd sort of way I wish I was constantly asked to do more writing, because I genuinely like doing it. However something I hate seeing is an author that is being insulted because people can't learn to take what they are given and live with it, it's always "more more more". The story is perfectly fine as a one shot, and I preferred it a one shot, adding anymore could take away form the general niceness of the story. I don't agree with your decision if you take it down (seeing as it was the story that introduced me to this group) but I will respect you if you feel that it is what you have to do.

1812180 All you did there was change the wording ever so slightly from 'the avatar that you're using' to 'the avatar that one-- implying you-- uses'.

So yeah, I'll ask again. What the fuck is wrong with it? You've went out of your way to make a point on it, so let's hear what you've got to say.

Yikes... Can say that after reading your recent story a d reading the comments, I was a bit upset with the things some people said... It's usually best to comment about what a story "does" have, rather than what it "doesn't" have. Plus, asking to update a story on a completely different one is just plain rude. When I first read PDP some time ago and noticed it hadn't been updated for a long time, I pretty much predicted it wouldn't update again. And you know what? I was fine with it. People naturally get bored of things and don't wish to update/continue them and instead move to new works. And your new works don't disappoint. The last thing people want when they move onto new works is that they should continue the old ones, as it implies that the new ones aren't any good, which is what I assume you feel. In my opinion, and as I stated in your PDP comic, it fits in well with your one chapter comics and in a way doesn't need more to it. Considering the problems you've been facing though, I'm not sure if my comment helps much. Hope you feel better, and I honestly look up to your way of doing what you want when you want instead of giving in to others demands, some people do the exact opposite, then slowly their work becomes worse. Yet by continuing to do things your way, I can always expect that whatever you write will always be great. Good luck!

Eldorado
Moderator

1812156
1812155

Hey guys. The wrong story was tagged, and Abyss was just pointing it out. The issue has since been resolved. There's no reason to dive into personal attacks, here, okay?

1812567 Who's diving into personal attacks? He's making a pointless comment on something that doesn't even matter and I'm calling him out on it.

Besides, if he wants to act pathetic and run off to a mod so he can score some internet brownie points and make himself feel like a big man, then fuck him. The kid's not worth a second more of my time.

Eldorado
Moderator

1812576 Well then it's probably best if the discussion ended here, yeah? I'm glad we're in agreement on that.

1812581 I tagged that story on purpose, because this blog post was about two stories and I picked the most recent one to get people's attention. But fine, whatever.

1812576

Who's diving into personal attacks?

Really? I wonder who...:derpytongue2:

ARBPW:

I'm posting here to let you know that you're making pointless, shitty comments

Besides, if he wants to act pathetic and run off to a mod so he can score some internet brownie points and make himself feel like a big man, then fuck him. The kid's not worth a second more of my time.

I'm aware, dipshit.

TCW:

You're a dick. Arby is a better human than you. Leave.

Need I go on? I'm done with the both of you. You two have been quite rude throughout this entire exchange. You need not bother with replying to this comment, as I will not look nor respond to any replies or private messages from either of you.

Have a good evening.

Comment posted by Darkentrophy deleted Feb 9th, 2014

You know, deleting it just because everyone won't shut up about it won't solve things. It'll only anger those who follow you. If you really don't want to write it then all you need to do is let someone else take it. That's a far better alternative. One of your die hard followers could take charge in a heartbeat.

1813426
Did you not read the actual blog? I'm saying it's cancelled. It's not being deleted until people bug me too much.

1813445 Well the way you came off you made it seem as if you were going to delete it.

Please don't delete it! It's such a good story, and the first one of yours I ever read! If you don't want to continue it that's fine. I won't lie, I'm a little disappointed that we won't see any more of it, but no-one has the right to tell you what stories you should or shouldn't write or continue. Cancel the story if you want to but please don't delete it. Just mark it as canned/one shot and move on. Whatever you decide to do next, I'm sure it'll be great. :pinkiehappy:

Minor edit: Having quickly re-read the ending, I think it works fine as a cute one-shot anyway. :twilightsmile:

:derpyderp1: I just wanted to read pony fics...

Anyways, as disheartening as that is to hear, I'm ok with it. There are many more fics of yours I must get to reading.

Thanks for punishing those of us who were patiently waiting in silence for you to update it. I guess the 4 pages of extremely positive comments on the original weren't enough to offset a handful of messages from over-enthusiastic and impatient fans of your work. I'm still extremely grateful that you wrote the story in the first place, of course - I just wish things could have turned out differently. It's a shame to see such a fantastic fic get discarded in retaliation for the actions of a small number of individuals who I didn't even know existed. I hope you find happiness in life, and maybe change your mind on this in the future.

PS. I've downloaded a copy for safe keeping. If anyone comes across this message after it has been deleted, just ask me for a link.

1813686
Oh for the love of...

I'm not deleting it. It's a threat. I am, however, cancelling it. It was meant to be a one-shot anyway. Look, I love all the nice comments on it, and I'm glad to have changed to many people's lives. But people begging and demanding it every time I post something that isn't more Pinkie Pie, I get frustrated. I'm sorry.

At least you have the smarts to tell people straight up to go suck a Dick if they don't like what you write. Not many people can do that and stillbe looked on with pure awe. Good job, and can't wait to read more from you soon. Starling was a good story, and a great continuation from the fontaine spa series

1812791 I have one stupid question... By arby.... He means abyss right?? If not who the help is arby... Makes me want some roast beef and curly fries

1813802
No, I'm the one who should be apologising. I made my comment in the heat of the moment immediately after seeing this blog post, without really giving myself time to think about it rationally. You don't owe us anything - we owe you for writing it in the first place. This is your decision to make, and I'm not in a position to question it. I won't mention PDP again. Just know that you've got at least one fan who would be happy to wait as long as necessary for the next instalment, even if that ends up being forever.

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1813838
I wish all my fans were as kind and understanding as you two are being.

1813851 Youre quite welcome. (I may have suggested a next sequel to fontaine, over on your starling story.... Doesn't mean I am bugging ya ... Justsaying iit would be fun to see no? Zilly Pony? Lulz. Well you have a nice night conflicted. Its 1 am here and I work at 8. Keep on winning.

Greatness takes time, perfection; an eternity. But (self) Happiness: mere seconds - Eric Zorath

Well I'm a bit glad you mention "Pinkie Dinky Pie" and honestly the whole fan demanding senerio in the first place.

See around a month ago I had a bit of a mental break down when I got over stressed. I'd just gotten the thumbs up to make "Pattycakes: The Remake (Continued)" and my fans were expecting it meaning I had 3 stories plus my DA page to manage on a weekly basis, that's not to mention school.

I gave up. I completely lost it just thinking about the amount of writing I had to do, so I just dropped my DA responsibilities for a week or so and I put "Applejack's Obsession" on Hiatus.

My worry over my fans literally caused me to go into a depression, and being I had to adjust from the regression mindset of my writing to my over stressed work schedule; I literally lost it. I now completely understand the importance of writing for your own request and I really respect your desire to do so,

Anyhow about Pinkie Dinky Pie, it's worth noting that it served as inspiration for another story I'm writing at the moment "Pinkie Pie's Obsession". It's essentially taking every element of "Pinkie Dinky Pie", sugar coating it on the stories own independent plot line, then completely turning it all over on it's head. I just thought I'd mention that seeing as how many people wanna see more diapered Pinkie Pie.

Anyway, enjoy your writing man, I'm looking forward to it! By the way, I re-opened "Padded Ponies and Adult Foals" if you care to join?

http://www.fimfiction.net/group/202335/padded-ponies-and-adult-foals

1811862

Actually, it's not tag abuse. It does relate to the comments involving that story. Ergo, it's completely understandable to tag this blog post with regards to that work.

*hugs* Is there anything I can do to help? Do you want to talk? I'm here, for what it might be worth... I can certainly understand why you're upset! That's just... it's bad form, bad etiquette, and bad taste on their parts to demand (seriously, demand? like that's going to endear them to you?) you write what they want? They deserve nothing!

Amen bro. More power to ya. If ya want any help or some ideas or examples or whatever, or if ya just want someone to talk to, send me a PM, Email, or add me on skype. :twilightsmile:

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