I’m open! First I’ll lay out the important details, then talk a bit about how I’ve been doing.

Rate: $25/1,000 words
Lengths accepted: 1,000 to 10,000 words
Payment: in full up front via PayPal, payment plans negotiable but will be more than 100% of the ordinary price because paypal fees suck
Slots: until financial needs are met and/or I feel sufficiently loaded up
Higher-word-counts are higher up in the priority list

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I'm gonna keep this one brief. Still alive. Still battling the fuck out of depression. Still making little progress.

Still writing. It's difficult, but I've recently got the idea-machine back up and running.

Stories will be less frequent than I thought as of last post. Much less so. I hope you don't think less of me for it.

That's about it, I guess. Sometimes it's just kinda like that. I guess I can answer questions if y'all have any, too.

Finally.

After months of struggle, roughly 6 drafts stuck at a wretched 1.5k words, unable to get any further, draft after draft…I finished drafting a story. It’s a very rough draft, and not even that long (3.2k pre-edits-and-expansions) but I think once it’s polished, it’ll shine. This represents such a victory for my mental health, focus, and writing skills. I still struggle every single day, but this proves that I can still write.

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Hi again. Sorry for being so radio-silent. We’ve still been banging away at treatments for me but success is limited and often short-lived. I’m deep enough in the trench to be unemployed and darn near unemployable period. I’m still fighting though. I’m slowly dragging myself off Valium, and switching to Cymbalta(/duloxetine, the generic) has caused upswings in my mood more than other meds have, even if also ultimately temporary. Since I have nothing but time, my writing brain has been

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Hi. It's me, Deus. Thanks for opening this blog. Those of you who even go so far as to read these initial sentences give me hope. Unfortunately, this is a sad blog. If you're not in the right mindset to read the words of a sad soul, now's the chance to avert your eyes and go elsewhere.

Still here? Okay then. What I ask today is simple:

Am I still relevant?

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A promising solution to my mental problems has revealed itself and held steady for three days so far. The joy of living is finally clear for me again. In short: fuck off depression, you were never welcome for any of the months I had you, and I hope you never come back.

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Hi folks. I figured I'd let you know I've officially placed my one multichapter story on hiatus as well as any Deus Foalt other writing I had. This comes with good and bad news. The good news is this is because my mental health is finally on the mend, and this is a step to help it along more. The bad news is...well, less fillies for you to enjoy since I'm avoiding writing for a while. I'm only a hobbyist writer in the end mind you (not even taking it in college!), and it's been a

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Heya folks! Thought I'd let you know my "extremely weird stuff" alt is now live. QC is a bit lower since a lot of these fics are written self-indulgently, so I've turned off ratings for the sole reason that I don't want what I don't consider my diamond-polished best to hit the feature box. Comments are still open for discussion and theoretical up/downvotes or not!

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So. I have a few angles for the conclusion to the DD trilogy, but they boil down to basically “just raunchy sex” or “something with character development and conflict”. Go ahead and vote and/or comment below which you prefer most!

https://www.strawpoll.me/45625624

So, uh...it's a fickle thing. I don't even know how or still exactly what, but I ended up in the emergency room a few weeks ago with a lot of heart attack symptoms that were recurrent over 4 days before I finally went; shortness of breath to an almost extreme, chest pain, consistently feeling like I was going to die, fast heart rate, being unable to relax, hands and feet going partially numb for 10+ minutes at a time, that sort of thing. They didn't actually find anything there,

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