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The Ruler of Ponies and Men - Boopy Doopy



Why am I cursed like this? I shouldn't have to suffer this way...

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(3-2) What Should Have Been Done

“That went so much better than we could have ever expected, Alex,” Radiant Hope told me as she kissed me, the two of us back in our room, the sun now fully set below the horizon. “The look on her face was incredible! It was perfect!”

“I told you it would be good,” I responded, smiling back at her. “This is so much better than sending her to Tartarus. I’m giving her exactly what she deserves, and made sure everypony knows what happened.”

“Although, you know I have to ask if you really do plan on bringing Celestia back,” she continued. “And will you be putting her on trial as well?”

“It’s not a statement I can take back now, seeing as I said it publicly, but that won’t be for a while. Ponies might even forget about it once enough time has passed.” I let out a breath I’d been unconsciously holding in, saying, “She honestly deserves a thousand years, both of them actually, seeing as that’s the punishment Celestia was fond of handing out. One, a thousand years banished, and the other, a thousand years in Tartarus. But I’ll be letting them both off easy. Also, remind me later to do something about Cozy Glow. Why they sent a filly to Tartarus is entirely beyond me, and doesn’t sit well with me.”

“I can do that, but I’m not sure it’s a good idea to let her out, at least not so soon…”

“Why not?”

“Well,” Hope started, “I mean… just think about how it looks, especially for us two…” I raised an eyebrow at her, and she continued, “I mean… ponies already don’t like us, and like Cadance was saying, some ponies probably still look at us as terrifying villains, so if we start releasing-”

“They still look at me as a terrifying villain,” I corrected her. “I doubt they see Luna that way, and I know they don’t see you like that. The risk falls entirely on me.”

“I’ll be part of it, too, seeing as we're already a pair, especially if what happened gets out…” she told me, her voice getting quieter.

“If what gets out?”

“There’s still… a certain pony who’s imprisoned in the Crystal Empire who I lead to the Crystal Empire under the guise that I would let her take over Equestria and take revenge on Starlight Glimmer,” she whispered, looking around the bedroom as though someone might be listening in on her. “My excuse is extremely weak, and I know Luna and Cadance didn’t believe me. How Luna seemed to forget about it and how Cadance didn’t bring it up, I don’t know, but if we start releasing ponies from Tartarus, even if they’re fillies, they might remember that fact again.”

“I hardly think that’ll be an issue,” I told her. “I’m certain Luna didn’t forget, she’s just either forgiven you or decided to overlook it. And we’ve already proved to Equestria that Cadance isn’t a credible source of information.”

“I really, really don’t like the risk though…” she trailed off. “I’d really appreciate it if you could look out for me…”

I couldn’t help but turn away and grumble at that, huffing as I said, “Of course you want me to look out for you, even though I know you don’t look out for me.”

“What?” she got out, sounding completely confused, and a bit taken aback. “When have I not looked out for you, Alex?”

“Every day,” I told her bitterly, “when you tell me you love me or tell me if I just wait out my suffering it’ll get better. You act just like them, telling me I should just sit here and suffer and go crazy because I don’t know who I am! I’m losing myself, and you’re not doing anything even though you’re supposed to be my friend!” By the time I finished, I was turned back to her and yelling at her.

“What do you want me to do?” she yelled back. “I know you already blame me and hate me for hurting you once, and if I do anything else, you’ll just blame me and hate me more!”

“You could at least be looking-”

“Don’t you think I've tried?" she asked. "Don't you think if I could do something, I would? And even if there was something I could do, what do you expect me to do? Do you know how fast they’ll turn against us if I sent Alex away? If you think they won’t, you’re absolutely wrong. And if I send Sombra away, then I’ll lose the only friend I have forever. I’ve basically already lost you already...”

She closed her eyes once she was finished, clearly holding back her tears. Seeing her this way made my ears flatten against my head. Even as much as I blamed her for what happened, even as much as I couldn’t stand her for it, I couldn’t help the emotional connection I shared with her, which, of course, only made me more frustrated.

“I wish you would have just stayed there,” she continued, a few of her tears dripping onto the floor. “You told me you knew I would come, and yet you couldn’t just wait for me. I had the perfect plan, and all you had to do was stay in your room in the Crystal Empire and wait for me, and none of this would be happening and we’d both be ruling the Crystal Empire. It would’ve been perfect! You knew I was coming, and yet you couldn’t just... wait for me! And now you hate me because of that dumb mare… argh!” She stomped her hoof as she yelled, adding, “She deserves to be in Tartarus! Not roaming free to do whatever she wants! She deserves it because now you hate me because of what she did, and there’s nothing I can do!”

She shivered out a few more tears before using her hoof to wipe them away, sniffling as she did so. I hated seeing her like this, and couldn’t help but move up to her and press my cheek against hers, rubbing my coat into hers.

“I know, Hope,” I told her softly. “I absolutely hate this, too. It’s partly my fault for trusting her. And I know you know that even though this is killing me, even as much as I can’t stand you for this and can’t help but blame you, you know I absolutely adore you. The fact that I have you by my side as ruler of Equestria is proof enough. You know I love you with my whole heart, even if I don’t love you at all at the same time.”

“I know,” she sniffed out in a whisper, her voice cracking a bit. “I know you love me, but it doesn’t make me feel much better though knowing you hate me… You know I hate seeing you like this. I know you don’t want me to say this, but I love you, and I want you back, Sombra.”

I moved away from her again at that, frowning and turning my head.

“It absolutely tears me up inside, and it’s never going to change. I hope Starlight can come up with something, because I honestly feel like I might as well be dead. What's the point of going on like this? God, I hate this all so much…” I sighed, adding, "The only reason I haven't done anything is because if I do, then all of this would've been for nothing, and just the thought of that kills me more."

“I really honestly think if you just wait it out, you'll feel better,” she told me. "I really think you're getting better, honestly."

“Wait it out isn’t working,” I told her quickly. “This being I am, Alex, truly exists. Even if nothing I remember happening when I was a human was real, I still exist, and am still truly, wholly this person. I'm still a human. And I’m losing myself. Or, less losing myself and more… I don’t know. It’s so conflicting, and it absolutely kills me…”

“I’m sorry, Alex,” Hope apologized quietly as she looked down at her hooves.

“Oh, I miss my life and my family so much, every single day...”

Author's Note:

Yeah, it's earlier than normal. Maybe we'll get two chapters this weekend?

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