'I just want it to end.' I thought to myself as I rolled over to look at my nightstand clock. It was a quarter after three in the morning. I had been trying in vain to fall asleep for five hours. I bet you're wondering why I had such a dark thought, so I will tell you...
After the Battle of the Bands had come and gone, things were finally looking up for me. My friends had finally truly accepted me and the rest of the school had stopped hating me for my past transgressions. Winter swiftly followed the Battle of the Bands and Christmas was just around the corner. Applejack had come up with the idea of having sleepovers at everyone's houses leading up to a Christmas celebration at Sweet Apple Acres. It didn't get that far.
A username on MyStable called Anon-a-Miss started spreading the secrets of my friends, starting with Applejack's family nickname. It only got worse from there. The school is now in utter turmoil, my friends all but abandoned me and not even the teachers believe my innocence. Now I lie in my tiny apartment, all alone, except for my thoughts. I hadn’t changed out of the dark grey hoodie and boy shorts I changed into after my failed attempt at proving my innocence to my friends at Sugarcube Corner, despite it being the middle of winter. I had no heat in the apartment, but it was okay. I didn’t deserve such a luxury.
‘Perhaps it would be better if I just ended it all.’ I thought darkly to myself as I reached under my pillow for the swiss army knife I bought after arriving here. I pulled it out, sitting up on the bed in the dim light of my bedside lamp. I pulled up my hoodie’s sleeves to reveal multiple scars lancing erratically up and down my arms in every direction. I had originally started cutting myself as an escape from the emotional pain I was feeling since this whole debacle had started: now I did it just to feel anything.
I found a patch of untouched skin on my left arm, readying the blade, before drawing a two inch long line across it, the red of blood bubbling up in the knife’s wake.
“Secret stealer.” I thought as I drew more blood from my left arm.
“Anon-A-Miss.”
“I can’t believe her.”
I kept cutting, getting more and more erratic as I thought of all the hurtful, hateful words spoken to me over the last few weeks. It got so bad that I stopped going to school entirely for the last week of the semester. Once again, after closing the knife and stashing it under my pillow, I found myself staring at the ceiling, thinking of ways to end it. As always, I came to think of a certain bridge about a mile away from my apartment. I got up and pulled on a pair of black jeans over my boy shorts and walked out the door, leaving my journal open on the last page that had writing on it. The writing read as follows:
Dear Princess Twilight
I know you said in your last message to find my family, but I have failed. I thought I had finally found my family in the girls, but they abandoned me after this whole thing started. Kind of don’t blame them though. This does look like the sort of thing the old Sunset Shimmer would do. I just wish that I could have experienced the true magic of friendship before all of this shit started.
Just know that what I am about to do is not your fault. You could not have foreseen that something this fucked up could happen. Just let the others know that I bear them no ill will and that they will always be my family.
Your once and failed student,
Sunset Shimmer.
I found myself awake after a few hours, feeling that something was wrong. I couldn’t place it, but I knew something was horribly terribly wrong. I sat up and picked up my phone. Nothing was out of the ordinary, apart from a single, two worded text I got from Sunset that sent a chill through my spine.
Goodbye forever.
I started panicking. I knew that Sunset had depression after the whole Fall Formal fiasco, but she had gotten past it… by… Shit. How could I have been so fucking careless? She only got past it by becoming friends with us. I called Applejack. She picked up on the third ring.
“Hello,” she drawled sleepily.
“A.J. Did you also get a text from Sunset?” I asked, trying to hide the panic in my voice.
“Dash. Ya called me in the middle of the night ta ask me ‘bout the traitor?” She spat, all tiredness replaced by pure anger.
“Please, A.J. Just check.” I plead, all control over my emotions fleeing, leaving the panic in my voice open to be heard.
“Okay, hold on. Ah’ll check,” She answered, a hint of panic creeping into her voice after hearing my panicked voice. “Yea. She sent me a text sayin’ “Goodbye forever”. What do ya think she means by that?”
“I don’t know. I have an idea, but I hope I’m wrong. Gotta go. I’ll call ya later.” I replied and hung up. I jumped out of bed, throwing a pair of jeans and my winter coat over my flannel pajamas and headed downstairs to the garage. I hopped on my bike and headed toward Sunset’s apartment.
“Please be okay, Sunset. I’m so sorry.” I thought, tears welling up in my eyes as I rode toward her apartment.
A few minutes after leaving my apartment, I reached the bridge. I looked over the edge into the ice cold water of the Canterlot River churning below. For the first time in weeks, I had tears in my eyes. I heard a faint voice in the distance, but I toned it out. I set my resolve and climbed over the railing, the sound of the voice getting closer. Finally I jumped, the sound of the voice closer than before.
“SUNSET!!!” I heard before the world went black.
I think this is maybe only the second Anon-a-miss fic I've seen where Dash actually acts as an element of loyalty. Anyway, you've caught my attention and I hope this works out well for you.
I rather Sunset never forgive the Rainbooms, I know Rainbow saved Sunset, assuming she did, but I'm sick of forgiveness!
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A little forgiveness every now and then is okay, if nothing else but to save you from monotony.
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You know, if Sunset never forgave the Rainbooms of what they did, then she would be a real hypocrite.
Remember when Sunset was laying bruised and battered at the bottom of a crater, her villainous ways finally brought to light, and Twilight told the Rainbooms to help her? They could have just turned right around and let her suffer after Twilight left. But they didn't. They took her in, taught her about friendship, and made her into a better person.
They forgave her of everything she did as a bully. They gave her a second chance. Why can't Sunset do the same for what they did during Anon-a-Miss?
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A valid point. I will cover that in later chapters. Just be patient for now and I will upload the new chapters soon.
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And don't worry. I'm not gonna turn her into a hypocrite.
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It's good that you'll do that. Although I was making a point to someone else.
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These statements are actually false. If they'd given her the second chance she thought she was getting then they wouldn't/shouldn't have reacted the way they did during Anon-A-Miss.
She isn't being hypocritical and has every right to not forgive them. She opened her heart to them thinking they'd forgiven her when in fact they were just waiting for the other shoe to drop. And as soon as they believed it had, they cast her out.
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I'm actually glad you brought it up. I prefer Sunset no to be omnipotent.
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I agree that this may only be the second, and I do plan on taking it far. Thank you for reading.
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I agree that she has every right not to forgive them, but, she had reformed herself. The old Sunset Shimmer would have been unforgiving. The one who truly have her a second chance was Princess Twilight.
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True enough. I honestly feel forgiveness is essential for everyone especially when the lack thereof could potentially result in a demonic transformation. Friendship on the other hand is a whole other story. Forgiving them doesn't mean being friends with them.
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Not only can it result in a demon transformation, but it can lead to a whole mass of other negativity. I've been in a similar situation to what Sunset goes through in this story (read: WILL go through), and it ain't pretty.
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I'll admit I think it would be hypocritical, but honestly, did Sunset ever drive everyone to commit suicide like what the rainbooms did her?
Also, they helped Sunset try to redeem herself...only to leave her there, for something she never did, spreading secrets. They overreacted over just some silly photos and secrets. Did they TRULY believe that she could ever change?
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First off, Sunset never attempted suicide in the actual comic.
And second, the Rainbooms are just really gullible for this sort of thing anyway. When Sunset was a bully and framed them with text messages and emails to ruin school events, they all assumed the worst from each other and broke their friendship, instead of talking it over and resolving small, simple matters.
While I will admit now that it isn't really hypocritical and Sunset has every right not to forgive the Rainbooms for abandoning her, at the end of the day, all she wanted during this whole thing was to get her friends back. The way I see it, she forgave them because she was willing to not necessarily give them a second chance, but to start over entirely. To work through the tension and the trust issues, and to try being friends for real.
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First, I know she didn't commit suicide in the MLP comics, and I know this is FiMfiction, pretty sure everyone is aware.
Secondly even if she did forgive them, would she be friends with them after what they drove her to do?
Thirdy...at the rest of your last comment to me, if you say so.
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So, I gonna take a guess that this is the first one, right?
Seconding that it's nice to see another thing where Rainbow is the first to come around.
On that topic...
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If you wanted 942 words of Rainbow standing by Sunset, I could (in a comment or something) share a scene I wrote two months ago, but that's not enough to to publish as a story, and I kind of have too many incomplete stories sitting at one or two chapters anyway. (Which is part of why I didn't check the wordcount until right now.)
[Added:]
I did end up publishing it, it can be found here:
- Equestria Girls
- Drama
When others turn on Sunset, Rainbow Dash remains by her side, even though it means losing the rest of her friends.10268325
It's only just occurring to me now that you were taking about this story, where Sunset DOES attempt suicide, rather than the original comic. My bad and my apologies.
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If you want, I can take a look at it and maybe work it into this story. I can PM you my email for it.
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Seconded...
Also worth mentioning....
As it have been showed on EQG, up till 'Battle of the Bands' was concluded, they constantly harassed (and bullied) her with all of the ''no offense'' responses.
Doesn't exactly scream friendship when someone constantly reminds you of how bad you were.
In regards of how Sunset attacked them while being a demon... the show never clearly stated whether she was in control or not.
This mostly gives fanfiction authors the ability to set the precedent whether Sunset have any high-ground in Anon-a-Miss fics, when she doesn't forgive.
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I agree with what you said in the second paragraph here. They never say whether she was in control or not, so she truly does have the moral high ground when it comes to forgiving them after the Anon-A-Miss thing.
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Certainly the first one I've seen. Usually when comes to post Fall Formal or Anon-a-Miss fics, it's Fluttershy who's the first to come around, which makes sense. I mean if Equestrian Fluttershy can give the spirit of chaos a second chance, human Fluttershy can do the same for Sunset.
But when Rainbow sticks with her element of Loyalty? Now that's a breath of fresh air!
You listen to Desire too?! That's AWESOME!
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