I looked at her as she was working in her little flower shop, she was using her magic to arrange some flowers and looked quite happy. I was using a different disguise so she would not recognize me in case she noticed me. It had been about two months since I first met her, she had been just another target to get love from, all for the sake of the hive.
I had a lot of targets before that affected me in one way or another, but with Lavender Dust things had felt different, and they didn't go as planned…
I had met her in one of Canterlot’s parks where I searched for a new source to feed on. I had about two weeks until I had to deliver new love to the hive, so I wasn't in a hurry and allowed myself to be picky. I hadn't expected to find somepony fitting this day when I saw her sitting in the grass reading a book.
As usual, I read her emotions to find out what she may want so I could adapt my character in a fitting way. I had become pretty perfect in being the optimal partner of everypony after all these years, but she gave me a surprise. Never before had I found a pony so content with who she was and her place in life. I was confused and didn't know what character I should choose to play, so for the first time ever I decided to just be myself… apart from the appearance of course.
I walked over to her asking what she was reading, a wave of warm feelings passed over me while she answered, kindness, openness, and happiness. I was so perplexed by these emotions I had difficulty following our conversation, I must have looked like a fool to her, but she just smiled.
Within the next few days, we grew really close to each other and made a lot of happy memories. We had our first kiss while we walked through the same park we had met and I became very flustered, but this time not because I faked it.
Being around her felt so easy since I didn't had to concentrate on the character I was playing. My body was filled with love in no time, even though I was able to store much more love than a normal changeling. That's when I should have left her, everything I had been taught said so.
‘Once you are filled up with love, leave as soon as possible. The chance of being exposed grows with each additional day.’
But I didn't… I didn't want to leave her because I felt so very wanted while I was with her. It felt good to have these feelings be directed towards me instead of some persona I was playing.
So the days went on while I ignored what I was and the duty I had to fulfill. But time moved fast and soon two weeks had passed and I knew I had to return to the hive. Since I was a ‘şahzadə’, a princess, they would start to search for me after this time.
I felt dirty and guilty for having to give away the love she gave me, but I couldn't ignore my own nature anymore. I felt my love for her, a thing I had never imagined happening to me, but I knew I was foolish to love her since she could never love the creature I was.
So, with a heavy heart, I told her I had to visit my sick father in another city and I would come back within two weeks. While we parted I felt how my heart got torn apart. I knew I couldn't come back to her and we had no future together. I would send her a letter within a week, telling her I found someone else and I was sorry. I looked back at her smiling face as I walked down the street feeling her love beaming towards me and forced myself to smile back, but she didn't know what I was. I felt my hideous black soul within me and cried while I left the city. Without her, I felt empty inside and all her stored up love made it even worse since I had to give it away.
As I walked through a nearby forest, I broke down. I knew I was the worst creature ever for stealing her love. I cried while I started to smash my face into a tree until blood streamed down its trunk...
“Sorry, can I help you? You look so lost and confused.”
I had been trapped in my memories so much, I hadn't noticed how Lavender had left her shop and walked up to me.
“I… I…”, was all I was able to answer. I was confused by her sudden appearance. I checked the voice I was using, making sure it was different from mine.
“Is there something I can do for you?”, she asked worriedly.
‘Yes, there is.’, I thought but knew how foolish it was to even think that, there was no possible future for us.
“No, thank you.”, I answered with a broken voice instead. “I just was lost in my thoughts. Sorry for worrying you.”
She still didn't look convinced. “Are you sure? I just closed my shop, I have time to bring you somewhere.”
“That's really not necessary.”, I replied and quickly walked down the street, away from her.
“Okay, have a nice day, but I'll be here for you if you need me.”
I nearly tripped over my own hoofs as I heard her say this and ran out of this street with tears in my eyes.
‘Maybe I can visit her in my old disguise once I control Canterlot, I tell her that I'm sorry for breaking up and…’
I realized how foolish these thoughts were, there was no way back for me. I couldn't pretend forever and someday she would have found out what a hideous creature I was. I had to concentrate on my plan. If there wasn't any chance for me to find love and happiness, at least I wanted to give the other changelings an easier life where they didn't have to pretend to be fed.
Do it. Just do it
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You're talking to Chryssi?
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Yes
That was a nice chapter and a bit similar to something I have read already, just not with the bad "I accidently killed her" stuff.
I mean if you want to make them look good in a way, I don't think having them actually killing other ponys would have looked good here.
Well I think I make it short and say that I'm pretty curious for the next chapter, I think I would actually love the idea of that Pony actually finding back to Chrysalis if you shouldn't use that Chrysalis X Stella X Twilight X Chrysalis idea. Maybe Chrysalis could say something that would make her notice Chrysalis behavior as that disguised pony. Should I/we say something like this in a PM or is it enough to put it in a spoiler in chase one of our ideas should be to your liking in the future? I think if they look at the spoiler and you should use those ideas it is probably their own fault, however you write it in your own way anyway.
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Well, she can't have an happy ending right now, I need her in this mood for the next chapter.
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I see. her saddened state will make her sloppy. Having her slip up. Good.. good.
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Spoiler tag is totally fine.
You know I often have a different way of writing. I set up a lot of different possibilities of the course of book two. Stella has possible access to explosives, we gave Chrysalis some nice back story but also a lot of intel on Cadence. I have different ideas on how the final chapter should play out and gone back and forth many times on them. How my characters act in this final chapter (of book two) will decide which route I'm going, they all have different benefits and interesting story parts.
this is a conundrum,
and at the same time makes this a vary good chapter.
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oh? the last chapter is near? I think it looked to me like at least two chapters where supposed to still happen. However I think we know the show and don't need the full stuff to be retold, which means maybe a chapter is enough.
One question, do you like those new changelings or not?, to be honest I slightly dislike them and only hate the new look from Thorax, he is the only ugly one for me.
To be honest it was even a bit chliche to me that the first one, Thorax was the one that got transformed into some sort of new king. It could have been that he was just the first one, some kind of Changeling hero that awakened a new princess, which means another Changeling could have been the new ruler.
Ich mochte es einfach nicht das ausgerechnet Thorax der König werden musste, das ist so typisch für die meisten Filme usw.
Es hätten genauso gut andere den Platz als neue Königing einnehmen können oder keiner und sie hätten eine neue gezeugt, praktisch so als ob deren Körper und die neue Magie eine Notwendigkeit eines neuen Herschers erkannt hätte oder sonst was.
I don't exactly dislike Thorax getting a new position, I more dislike how and why it happened. Maybe those where the wrong words....it is for a similar reason why I dislike some sort of mind control through a changed body, love at first sight (if it is alway the first character that the hero met in his life/anime/game.) like those Starlight Sunburst shippings, just because he was her first friend ever.
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Thanks, I had to look up "conundrum"
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Well I think it will be one long last chapter, if it get to long, I split it.
I like the old changeling design much more, black is beautiful. Well they tease him to be special and different for some time, including the wings so at least it wasn't to sudden that way. I don't like "dark/black" always have to be evil, so I had preferred them keeping their form and color.
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I know what you mean, it was more the fact that it was him, the first one that got friendly and everything, it is always the person in his situation. In a way that maybe makes sense, but I would love it to see that someone like him doesn't actually get's the ultimate reward or something.