Hey Journal, It's me, Spike, here. I'm here to tell you about my life preceding Twilight's transformation into an Alicorn. Well, first off, even though I love Ponyville, and everyone thinks my life has been great so far, it really hasn't. I try to put on a brave face and suck it up but I'm starting to get lonely. Ever since I came here with Twilight, life has been hard. It is really hard to be the only “tame” dragon known here in Equestria. Twilight knows I am a living, breathing creature with a soul but many of the other ponies just seem to think of me as a little pet, or doggy, or inanimate object. Even some of my “best friends”.
For example, Rarity has even used me as a pincushion for Celestia's sake! A FREAKING PINCUSHION. You think you know pain, you don't until the love of your life asks you to come over to where she is and proceeds to stick needles into your spines. Now, it's no secret that I like Rarity, I think that even she knows that I like her but she still uses me. I go over to the Carousel Boutique in the hopes of an opportunity to express my feelings for her but every time I show up, all it is is “Spikey Wikey, will you kindly come over here and stand still, dear?” and “ Oh Spiiiiiiiiiike! An Ideeaaaaaaaaaa!” And here come the needles again. To know that the love of your life is using, USING you for something like that, something painful,even though they know that you love them is the worst feeling ever. To look into those beautiful, shining, sparkling, deep pools of sapphire blue with your loving eyes and see nothing back except merely inspiration for the next dress, the next suit, the next design, the next whatever. I have always been there for her. I have always been at her beck and call whenever she needed it. When the Diamond Dogs attacked, who was it that ran for help to save her? Me. Who had daydreams of being the literal knight in shining armor who dashed in and saved her and won her heart in the process? Me. Need I go on? Anyway, I was saying that they treat me like I'm worthless or something beneath them merely because I am a BABY and that I am also a DRAGON. One of these statements makes the other untrue. I am a dragon. Dragons mature at a slower rate that ponies, so in reality, I am only 1 or 2 years younger that all of Twilight's friends yet they treat me as if I am just a helpless baby. Now, I put on a tough face to show nothing is wrong but in reality, it bites deep. I have managed to grow thick emotional skin but some arrows just find that one little chink in my scales to bite into the flesh beyond.
Another perfect example is when they moved Twilight's birthday party to Canterlot and didn't inform me. I had planned out a huge cake, made it, and had it all prepared and set for the big unveiling at the end of the night for her and her friends. It was a perfect example of our friendship. It had different sections set in it with the different ponies colors and likes. Twilight's was a lavender shade just like her coat with a dark purple section on the top tier with a light purple stripe in it like her mane, there were little books frosted into it. Applejack's was orange with a tan stripe across the top for her mane with real apples baked into the actual cake itself. Pinkie Pie's is obvious. PINK. That's all it was. Just pink all over with cupcakes sitting on it. Rainbow Dash's was all colors just like her mane with extra cyan put in. It had little frosting drawings of the Wonderbolts put all over it in their various flying patterns and tricks. Fluttershy's was yellow with bubblegum pink across the top. There were little stone statues of her woodland creatures with tiny gems for eyes that I found. Then there was Rarity's section. Given my extreme feelings for her, I put extra care and precision into this part. It was all white with a strong purple strip along the top tier that I made to curl outwards like her mane does. Just a little bit though. I put real gems in her section for her to take home after she ate her section. At the top were figurines for each of them that I had scratched, gouged, and scraped into being. I tried to put as much of their character into their figures as I could with real gemstones grown and shaped by yours truly for the exact purpose of making the eyes and cutie marks of all of them. I even painted their coats and manes to fit the real things. In the middle on the top was a massive emerald that I had been shaping for over 2 months, trying to get that perfect shape to it. I had arranged all of the pony figurines so that when you looked through the facets of the gem at just the right angle, you could see all of the girls all arranged in a manner in the same way as the many pictures taken over the years. There was just one difference between the pictures and the gem. In the pictures I was absent. In the gem, I had placed figurine of myself on the shelf behind it so that you could see me in the shape of it just perfectly. It would have shown that I was really a part of the group and that I cared for each and every one of them. But then they had to go to Canterlot and visit Rarity without inviting me or even telling me they were leaving. I was highly saddened by the fact that the six mares whom I had tried to show my friendship and gratitude to had spurned me. I arrived at the library expecting to find that party in full swing that night. When I opened the door, all I saw was an empty tree house. I searched the house, thinking this was a prank of Pinkie's or Dash's that they were trying to scare me with but as I searched and found nothing, my hopes grew ever dimmer. I sat on the steps and waited. And waited. And waited. Luna's moon rose past the halfway point across the dark blue expanse of space. All hope was gone. They had left me behind. They had forgotten me. They did not care about me. They did not even bother to tell me they wouldn't be around, that they would be leaving. That hurt.
That one hurt almost as badly as the time that Twilight became the official organizer of Winter Wrap-up and they left me, sleeping, on a chunk of ice out in the middle of a lake. Apparently it was a joke. Some joke, it took me almost a week to get off that fever and cold. Another week to finish off that cough. What hurt the most was not that it was a prank but they didn't even bother to save me as the pitifully small piece of ice I was on melted and I fell into the lake, which was freezing cold by the way. They just stood there and laughed. Now, I don't mind a good prank every now and then but that one could have actually killed me. Dragons are cold-blooded creatures. If it is hot outside, we get hot, if it is cold, we get cold. With that fall into ice water, I would have gone into torpor and frozen to death had the lake not been shallow and small. It hurt even more than that when they LAUGHED. The entire town LAUGHED. The mayor, other ponies I don't even know, Twilight, Rarity, even Fluttershy. Fluttershy who is supposed to be the element of kindness laughed at my plight where I was in real danger of dying. Once again, some joke.
Then there was the time that they went to Cloudsdale for the Best Young Flyer's Competition where Rainbow Dash pulled off a Sonic Rainboom. Too bad my “friends” didn't see fit to invite me along to see it. I could have easily gone along and helped with the cheering at least but no, little Spikey Wikey has to stay here and mind the library because he is too weak and small to go on big girl adventures with us. They all came back down all blathering on about how awesome a sonic rainboom is and how they still can't believe that Dash could pull it off. I didn't even see it because Twilight had put me on strict orders to stay in the library in case any customers showed up. We have maybe had about 30 customers in the library the entire time we have lived here. That is not including Twilight's friends, of course.
I am getting really tired of being pushed off and spurned merely because they don't think of me as important enough to inform to important events in their friendship and adventures. Maybe all I need to do is pull off some dangerous stunt or something. Maybe then I will get their attention and become an equal of some sorts.
Yours truly,
Spike
Excelent story, I do quite enjoy the premise and wonderful delivery.
Ok... here we go.
- Spacing is important
- Some grammar issues
Other than that it looks ok... this could lead onto a sequel of sorts, like Spike attempting suicide and the others realizing what jerks they have been...
I've said it before, and I'll say it again... Spike really does get screwed over A LOT. Even on this site, there's no pic of him on any of the site artwork on the front screen. A least these kinds of fics really capture this sort of thing. At least S3 was better to him, other than the whole Crystal Empire thing. Good story man.
Thanks guys. That really makes me feel a lot better, I kind of was hoping for a good response and was sort of anxious. You guys just showed me how cool the herd is!
Can we have more?
You should continue this. Pretty please?
2645121 Please continue this story.
2645097 It pisses me off how he gets screwed over.
This should totally have a second chapter. Maybe he does pull off the stunt, something happens to him, and twilight, and the others, finally realize what he truly means to all of them?
Due to the barrage of begging and pleading comments, I shall be writing and uploading a sequel soon.
I don't want to sound annoying, but please, please, pretty please with a cherry on top continue this or maybe do another story as a continuation of this?! Maybe do a story where Spike maybe goes off to get something Twilight, and he could leave his journal out in the open, and Twilight could open it and read it, then maybe get the others to read it. Oh, I loved this, because it is how I feel they Mane Six treats Spike, and how his character has been treated in the show. Oh, I loved this, please continue with this.
2645250 that's a great idea. I think I will take that advice and just refine it a little bit. More details you know?
2645327 Wow, are you real life Fluttershy?? Your comment sounds exactly like her... anyway, yes I will be continuing this. That is a good idea and I may implement it.
It is worthy of a sequel. But also, even as a baby dragon, simple pins from needles should *not* actually inflict any pain... I'm fairly well versed in lore of Dragons (Not as well as I used to be) but even humans oft use themselves as pin cushions. (Put the needle under the first layer of skin. Literally no pain.)
EDIT : Also, please fix the wall o' text, even if you just add another "enter" at each break; that would be immensely helpful.
Please don't think I'm ragging on you. IT's a well written story. I pray you do justice to it, because I see many fics with AWESOME first chapters and lack luster second, third, fourth etc...
2645354 Well, you see, the reason I said that is because the few pictures I have seen of that particular scene, the pins actually will go ALL the way through his spines and come out the back. I thought that that would amount to some pain at least. My bad.
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That may. Could you link me to some? Were they episode clips or fan art? I thought you simply meant a needle going into his scales. Care to elaborate more?
2645409 Yeah, gimme a second, I gotta go find them. At least I remembered them looking like it went through his spines...... memory glitch maybe?
This is a great and original idea. I'd like to see more.
2645409 yeah, sorry, I got it mixed up, the pins actually do go into his scales not his spines. my bad. the pics I saw before were small so that may be part of it... here's the image URL you requested-http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-iUZ6IT9VKTI/UFKtUjBAvQI/AAAAAAAAFXs/-81I_JqglHw/s1600/spike_the_pin_cushion_by_catnipfairy-d4zahn7.png
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I can see how that would have been confusing. It would definitely be humiliating. But After secret of my excess Rarity for sure knows about his crush, and she does use him, so your point is still valid.
EDIT : So, as long as the pins only go into his scales not through them there would be no pain inflicted. Humiliation for sure though. Judging for the picture the pins only appear to go into the scales, not through.
Also, it already looks a lot better with the added spaces.The first and second to last paragraphs are the perfect length for a paragraph.
2645440 Thanks man, it feels really good knowing there are good, kind people out there.
2645468 Hah, No worries! That's what I'm here for! Isn't that what us bronies are all about? I'm not much of a writer myself so props for doing it! I do readings personally. Anyone who contributes to the fandom is awesome IMO!
very good story indeed. you are very lucky you got this many likes and views all in one day. can't say for the same thing for my first story . but like i said very great story indeed keep up the fantastic work
This totally illustrates exactly how everypony treats Spike just because of his small body they automatically treat him like a baby. Spike is only 5-7 years younger then twilight yet they treat him he's 4 years old. As for leaving him behind, counting all 3 seasons I think Spike hasn't been outside Ponyville not even 10 times while the girls are always going off on some adventure and leaving him behind. Depending on dragons age by the time they no longer considered him a 'baby' all of the Mane 6 except for Twilight would be long dead. This really needs multiple chapters.
You know, I really hate it when they keep giving Spike the short end of the stick, this story really made me feel.... Please continue this, this is really good, maybe you should put in different chapters for each adventure that Spike has or was left out on, like one for Sonic Rainboom, one for The Best Night Ever, and so on and so forth, which every one describing in detail just how Spike feels after each one....
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Actually, I think he's only around 3-5 years younger, plus he's a lot more mature than everybody else thinks....
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Hmm, maybe you should save that for the ending....
The cold lake and birthday scenarios are pretty disturbing to think about. Though it's possible that dragons are resistant to a very wide range of temperatures, intense heat and the lack of it. Even so, it is still canon that his "friends" did nothing to prevent him from getting sick, and that they showed no remorse for it that we saw. This situation need not be embellished to be horrible.
It's also possible that there was a good reason Spike didn't come with his friends to his sister's birthday party, but since the writer for that episode couldn't bother to explain it, we are left to our own assumptions. But again, it doesn't need quite so much embellishment.
2645097 This is something I noticed a while ago. Spike is one of the earliest characters to appear in the pilot, yet one of the biggest sites made for the show doesn't have him anywhere in their banner art. Out of 33 fucking selections!
Everyone who is reading this needs to search for good Spike art that you genuinely think is up to standards, and PM knighty with those nominations. At the very least, I would leave a message on his profile page asking for Spike art.
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Whatever you wish dear author. Although i feel it would be better with a second chapter. Maybe from another pony's perspective.
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Certainly sounds like a good idea. But instead of them all having the realization at once, take into account each mare coming to that realization inside their own minds. Then, one by one have them talk with Spike, who's condition is entirely up to you. Honestly, given the heart-break you established here, I don't think just a sincere apology will be enough. Each of the Main Six will have to connect with Spike, truly, and then find a way for him to be an active, and IMPORTANT part of their lives. In the case of Applejack, for example, have her ask Spike to spend time with her during her time at the apple stand. As good as her apples are, she usually has enough down-time to hold conversations with the others when they visit.
From there, they'd likely go into the mechanics of family, and the development of their characters can go from there. I've got ideas for the rest, but I figure AJ is a good place to start. Her pride would be shattered by this, and that's usually the only barrier that hold her back from doing what is necessary and being honest with herself and others.
Let me know what you think, and hope your writing goes well!
2648262 I LOVE IT!!!!!! YOU SIR HAVE THE BEST IDEAS I HAVE SEEN YET ON THIS COMMENT THREAD! Seriously though, where did you find such a good idea? I was trying all day to come up with something like that but could not. Thank you. I will most likely implement that into one of the next chapter(s).
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Dude, they just come to me. All I need is a set-up, and the characters just start acting out in my head. If I'm fast enough, I can type it out, at least in summery. If you like, I can PM you my ideas for the rest of the Main 6, it's up to you. Mind you, I'm still struggling with my own story ideas, but this may help me get that into gear as well. I'll start waiting for you reply, hopefully you'll accept.
2648370 I most definitely accept, I'm not much the story writer. I was not expecting this much good press from this. The premise just sorta hit me and I just whipped a rough draft together inside of an hour. then was just editing. But I digress. I would love to have your input on this. Thanks!
You sir get a like and a favorite for not only the good story but showing me something so blaringly obvious. I can't believe I never noticed the mistreatment intentional or otherwise that spike received and honestly shared the mane 6's mentality towards Spike. Thank you for the new insight.
2650018 You are very welcome. Thanks a ton for the good press! First story and all, I was not expecting such a warm welcome to the posting community.
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See below for some comments on dragons. (Meaning my previous comments about dragons)
Along the lines of the cold blooded issue : It seemed fine and perfectly reasonable to me. The problem with Dragon lore is that there is VERY little canon. I'm editing another story about spike and in his fanon the dragons are very magical. Strictly biologically speaking, if we threw a komodo dragon in a freezing lake - He's dead.
Due to the lack of canonization of dragons in MLP (Which is soon to change I believe with the introduction of the MLP Bible we will see more of the details of the dragons in the MLP universe. Depending on your personal fanon of dragons, it is quite possible for one of Spike's size to freeze to death in a barely-above freezing temperature lake, since it would be a sudden change the creature would fight, but with spike's physical abilities that we are aware of being nigh non-existent he likely would die. And in that situation it's surprising he didn't.
Now to back-track, the canon of dragons; it is as close to canon as possible to say that dragons have resilient scales that likely toughen with age. (That is scales either being non-existent or very flesh-like at hatching) The other canon being that almost all if not all dragons breath fire, the exception being specialised dragons born, raised and spent their lives in other climates, most likely ice being the only other element. (Though my personal fanon of dragons take a drastic view of dragons, making each dragon VERY rare and there is one dragon that is master over each element and one that controls time)
2650524 I would say dragons can withstand cold as well as humans can. In "Dragon Quest" he hiked through a windy mountain range with his body laden with snow.
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^ That's part of the "canon" of MLP, and that's not even canon, they're telling us a story, telling us that since he can't fly he had to walk very far. I had forgotten about that scene to be honest. My canon excuse it the A. They're telling us a story and B. It was a ten foot stretch.
Also, after doing some research on cold-blooded animals, I have to change my original conclusion. It appears that they may not feel extreme cold such as a warm-blooded animal would (Humans for example, or ponies) but they may go into a hibernation-type coma/sleep until it warms up enough for their bodies. Quite interesting. If I did more research I could probably come to a more definite conclusion.
But since we're bringing up Dragon shy, wouldn't that make the point of the story null? Because while the ponies didn't believe he could do it by himself, they were right, he *couldn't* do it by himself.
2650669 Looked like more than a ten-foot stretch to me. Although you may be on to something; he did look pretty tired trekking up that mountain.
You're right on the second point, too. A good chunk of what he does requires pony assistance.
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The "ten foot stretch" is just my way of getting around your objection. I would assume that any cold-blooded creature would have difficulty living in such an atmosphere, which is part of the reason I'm so partial to my personal fanon of dragons.
love this story and also spike needs more respect i mean he does all those stuff for them but no respect what the glob!
My humblest apologies everypony, I have been having troubles at home and with finals coming up, I will not have much time to finish the story until at the earliest, end of June-ish area. I hope you will forgive me. I will try hard to finish it soon though. Sorry
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Hey no one can blame you. I'm in the same boat, luckily, just gotta push through and hope for the best.
2662767 No need to apologize at all. Your finals come first and may I wish you good luck on them.
I'm really looking forward to the updates
Looking forward to updates..
Hope to see an update soon
2662043 you are right he is more of a slave than a friend! They have no respt for him!
:( no new chapters
So sorry, my dear friends and supporters. I must say that I unfortunately shall not be writing an update for this. I know that some of you will be very upset with me but sadly it must happen. I really do not have enough time or inspiration to finish this possible series. If one of you thinks that you could possibly continue this and do it justice, then please, message me! As stated previously, I do not have the good ideas, diction, or syntax necessary to elaborate more upon this particular piece. Again, my deepest apologies on my failure to come through.
3466385 Why would you right something so damn majestic to only leave us wanting more? I spent forever trying to find this piece because of what it taught me and I come back to this.... Thank you for writing what you could.
Have no fear Ponyvillians! Your one and only Fueled By Desperation is back! The Savior of Spike has returned! Due to the grand dose of inspiration that hit me full on in the face today, I am currently banging off a sequel chapter! I apologize for my terrible lateness in the bringing of this, but I hope that the wait was worth it! It should be up very soon!
Adios! I must get back to writing!