Feelings · 5:20am Oct 26th, 2021
I've been lonely and empty lately.
It feels as though everything has collapsed.
I don't know the future. I don't know what may come. But I don't think any tomorrows will beat my yesterdays.
I am here and trudging along.
But it's always felt like I've lived my days wrong
And have been on a wrong path.
I don't know what's wrong.
I just don't feel anything to be right.
I hope the rest of you, for whatever reason that keeps you here, are doing well. That you are someone heading toward something. And that your existence feels right in a certain way. I based my life on the likes of Harlan Ellsion. Someone who lived life fully and used his work to process it. Adventures and battles and the like. But even he became deadly depressed in the end.
Even if you become successful—it might even matter to you after a while.
I wish I knew who I wanted to be. What I wanted to be.
Failure, it seems, is all that I've achieved.
Maybe this 'it' is not something that you can battle. All you can do is submit. To accept.
I've lost my marbles now.
I wrote this blog because it's one of those nights—and a lot of those nights have been happening.
Be well.
~ Yr. Pal, B
I'm with you, B.
Hang in there my guy
I've felt like this for 3 years. I'm used to it. I sleep alot.
*Hugs*
"It's only when you've lost everything, that you're free to do anything." -Tyler Durden
I mean, you've written more fics and achieved more followers than most writers here could dream of. An accomplishment is up to one's own values; the best I've managed is beating the NES Ninja Gaiden trilogy without dying.
Failure is an opportunity to learn and experience more.
*hugs* I know things are bleak right now but I have faith the storm will pass and the sun will shine again. Keep going lil bro.
I care about you, and I gotta be honest: you need to see a shrink. Feeling like this from time to time is normal, but what you're experiencing is not normal brain chemistry. There are solutions but many of the effective ones take time (I have treatment-resistant depression so I know a lot about it). Meds can work but you have to keep trying them until you find the right one. Therapy is less important but also very useful, especially for dealing with specific issues like loss.
Please seek help. I'm sure you know that Rarity would want you to be well and take care of yourself. I'll be here if there's anything you need—just ask. Seriously.
it's always a blog about it, rarely good news. ask for help.
Thigs will be ok you just need to keep on pushing though until you reach the better times