One Reason Why I Rarely Write Anymore · 1:22pm Sep 19th, 2021
Excuse the rant, since I don't care to discuss my personal life much, but since I live in a trailer and barely make enough to get by, life is very stressful. But that's not the most difficult one.
You see, I have a narcissistic, paranoid schizophrenic mother who constantly screams, preaches religion, and worse, thinks I'm involved in some Masonic conspiracy to ruin her life at every turn. Wish I was joking/exaggerating. She constantly interrupts and harasses me when I try to write, I barely get any sleep or relaxation, she brings in no money and would be homeless without me, and has always refused psychological help since she thinks nothing is wrong with her and argues with everyone. Just an irredeemably terrible person.
Anyhow, tl;dr, my environment isn't conducive to creativity, let-alone refinement to my craft. Still, I will continue to write until I'm unable, but if I haven't logged on for like a month or more assume I had a heart attack induced by stress and finally left this abomination of a world.
Ouch. That's rough.
Hope things improve for you. Cause that's just awful.
Oh Jesus.
That’s a very difficult situation to be in. My mother is quite the neglectful piece of work herself. Any of my accomplishments are usually brushed off. Still, I hope you find a way to get by and secure a safe place (preferably, with her in a special home or something.) One person doesn’t need to hold you back.
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Thank you both, were it not for you two I wouldn't be writing here anymore, since I crossed my original goal of 100 published stories. But I do enjoy writing our shared OCs when I'm able!
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No problem. And well if you hadn't continued writing I wouldn't have been able to meet you and Nota. You two are some of the best people I like talking to and it helped me a lot since I was lonely at the time. So thank you for that.
Today I learned that Sharaz Jek is Tony Soprano.
Oh god, that is a very bad friend, I just hope you get better and if you have the need to take a break from writing to improve or just rest for a while you can.
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Lol, I like the way you think!
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Thanks, I do take breaks but writing always calls me back!
Jeez
who got her [mom's] nipples in a twist
I'm sorry about that. Hope things get better for you.
I’m sorry about what’s going on.
Yeesh. I didn't know it was that bad.
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Good God, you too!?
I genuinely enjoy your stories, and I look forward to seeing more from you. If anything, many of them are too good to leave hanging. I hope that one day when you make enough money, you can move out of the trailer park into a proper home. Maybe even get your mother some much-needed therapy, whether she likes it or not.
With how many abusive parents I've heard stories of, I suddenly feel spoiled. Both of my parents are very loving, caring and supportive, open to anything I have to say and giving advice in return. I wish you could have had the same.
P.S.: Looking forward to your next Spike Harem instalment. Don't you dare die on us, Sharaz! You have far too much to live for!
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Thank you, I do plan at least one more installment in the Spike harem series, sadly the last few entries haven't performed that well, maybe because it's not the 'real' Spike as the lead? *sigh* And I also want to complete all my unfinished fics, plus I have a few more waiting in the wings.
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Still got that Zebra Tribe arc to finish! Can't wait!👍
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Yeah, feel bad I haven't been able to update it sooner!
Just take your time.
So sorry to hear about your current situation. I do hope that things will get better for you. It sounds awful to know about your mom.
If she thinks you want to deliberately ruin her life. I don’t see why either of you want to continue to live together. I’m sorry about your dreadful situation.
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Thank you, I've long given up on letting her abusive behavior guilt trip me.
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I don't, I tell her to leave constantly but she refuses. I'd rather not involve the authorities but may be pushed to eventually, she already thinks I'm making secret deals with the cops, Freemasons, etc. when I barely have time or energy to roll out of bed and work full time, the idea of being at the center of some grand conspiracy is laughable.
They say great art is sprung from pain. Now I believe I found your source.
Wish you all the best, and hope she finds someone more suitable to ventilate her problems.
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Thank you, writing is my main outlet.
I have no words🤯
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It's okay, I'll get by until I can't anymore!
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Well u made this far so your doing good now ( I hope)
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Doing well enough, under the circumstances.
Well holy shit. My mother is a narcissitic sociopathic serial cheater that divorced father that tried to take everything and nearly had us both killed twice by the time I was twelve. Needles to say I do not see her anymore.
But anyhow. I feel you, I really do. Though in all honesty I feel I am not helping in this situation as my work and open rambling of sorcery and aliens may place you at risk.
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Thanks, and no worries, escapism helps keep me sane!