Update: Our Dog Passed Away... · 3:19am Nov 16th, 2019
Hey, everyone.
I'm afraid I've got some terrible news. This might be, to this day, the hardest blog post I have had to write... but it has to be done. You all have the right to know. I regret to inform you all that one of our two dogs has passed away. He had kidney failure and was not eating anything; he even stopped drinking enough water. He lost a lot of weight due to famishing. There was absolutely nothing we could do that was within our price range. So, we made the extremely difficult decision to have him euthanized earlier this evening.
This has really made me hit rock bottom. He has been my companion for eleven years. I recently turned twenty-three. People who don't own pets may not understand... but the bond between a human and a dog is unlike any other social connection. If you treat a dog right, it will love you for who you are and stay loyal to you, no matter what.
I don't often see my parents cry... but this has really hit them hard, too. My younger brother is away for college, so I don't know how he's going to take it when my parents inform him. In all honesty, it was hard in his final days, seeing him lay almost motionless on his bed, doing nothing but breathing. Every so often, he would stand (very difficultly) and go outside to pee. He refused to eat anything we offered him, and he kept vomiting bile. And all throughout today, he could not even stand. So, while I was still at work, my parents had to use a blanket as a makeshift stretcher to carry him into and out of the car.
My parents have been receiving emotional support from their friends and our neighbors, so they have been able to lighten up ever so slightly and still laugh at some occasional things. And they've been helping me through it as well.
In a way, I am a bit relieved that he's no longer suffering... but of course, I'm still very depressed that he's now gone for good. I still remember the day I met him, only a few months old, and him sitting in my lap on the car ride home. He was, early in his life, the most playful golden retriever you could imagine. To see him no longer eager when I got home from work or school... it really did not bode well for me.
I know this is something every pet owner has to go through eventually. We're not the first ones who have lost a pet, nor will we be the last. Nothing lives forever. We all die someday. I keep playing these thoughts in my head, and... it does provide some partial relief.
Not to mention, there was a similar scenario back earlier in 2008, when we lost our yellow lab. I was eleven at the time. On the day I found out he died... I thought I would never be happy again. Of course, as time went on, I eventually moved on, and then, a few months later, my parents decided to get two new dogs. So, if I can get through that, I'm positive I'll be able to move on through this. Besides, I'm sure our late dog would not want us to mourn him endlessly.
In any case, as I am currently emotionally crippled, I am going to need to announce a hiatus so as to recover enough to continue writing Your Loyal Subject. I cannot say for sure how long I'll be grieving, but hopefully I can recover sooner rather than later. I appreciate your guys' support.
R.I.P. Toby
2008 – 2019
You were an amazing little buddy. I'm definitely not a religious person, but wherever you may go, don't ever change.
I'm so sorry. It's never ever ever easy to put a animal down especially when you have had it for years and years. My neighbors had to put down their weiner dog recently who'd I'd become very close with and it broke my heart. In the final days before they put him down, I would be there daily cuddling and playing with him. Take all the time you need bro.
Take all the time you need, I myself know how it feels to lose a pet (dog), mine was killed by a rabid dog in Mexico
When my Weimaraner had an inoperable tumor in his brain and had a seizure, he would uncontrollably snap his teeth from the pain. My nephews were very young and would be visiting a lot so we had to put him down then. He was 10 years old and I was bawling like a little baby when he was gone. I understand completely.
Take the time to mourn your pet and try to remember the good times more than the bad and loss. And when your ready, try to open your heart to another dog, just to honor your pet, but to let another dog to know love and affection like you gave to him.
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Thanks. It really helps to know that I'm not alone when it comes to something like this.
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Thanks. And I'm sorry your pal had to go in such a devastating way.
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Thanks for your support. We'll be keeping our other dog around for a while, as he's still in good health (despite a large, fatty tumor on the side of his ribcage). A little encouragement really goes a long way in times like these.
My condulences. Take as long as You need.
My Cat Tiger was just 7 back then. And i broke out in tears when he got weaker, From "cat Aids" as they called it. But...even weakened he tried to Cheer me up And he purred when euthanitzed.
I got a picture of him in my bed Room.
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Thanks. I really appreciate the concern.
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Thank you, and I'm sure I'll get through it in time. That must've been a tough thing for you. And a picture always makes for a good memento.
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Indeed. And I know, in our hearts, they will always be alive.
I am sorry midnight and I can undersatnd you well.
please take all the time you need.
I am very sorry to hear that. Losing a pet is like losing a friend or a family member. Take some time off, relax and be with the others. We understand.
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Thanks. Your support really means a lot to me.
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Yeah, it really is. And thank you for your concern.
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Also, my friend Patch sends his condolences. I feeel a bit uncomfortable/guilty as Imemtioned dogs in the latest PM reply I sent you.
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That's good of him. Tell him I said thanks. And it's okay; there's no way you could've known when this was going to happen. And I think I'm gradually coming to terms with this situation, given that I've been giving myself a lot of positive reinforcement, such as playing Red Dead Redemption II, and watching funny internet videos (mainly Vinesauce), in between calls at work. Also, a lot of people have been giving us emotional support as well, including several of our friends who lost pets within the last few years as well.
So, I've been managing to distract myself and laugh at times. Hopefully, I'll feel better soon enough to end my hiatus.
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I will do and glad to hear it. It's just that it also affects our self-insert idea. Though, I might have a soloution