Personal Study Update, and self Update · 4:59pm Jan 21st, 2019
This is how I work now, I know that most of you probably see me as a disorganized troglodyte, but at least I wanted to show-off my collections. I am lonely.
I know that. I failed you all. Mostly because I was working as a Phone Operator, but at the same time I was causing some trouble, so I resigned before they could fire me before I got blacklisted and decided to take up further more advantageous employment opportunities.
I am currently exploring opportunities in job offers to be a translator for a Busyness Website Maker. Go on a busyness venture with a friend and make a Blog, or finally write for a local Newspaper called Metro.
With all of this in mind I am going to give three scripts to Crypt TV, and also two Short Stories that I will do for Apex Magazine.
I had the Phone Operator Job for only three months but I will tell you why I quit.
Stress, and I was insulted everyday by customers in ways that I have only heard from people that have actually tried to kill me. I sucked as at memorizing all the tiny protocols related to dealing with dealing with bank accounts and what we are actually allowed to do according to the bank, and what we tell the customer. Which is not the same. And I took over 100 calls a day from people that are petty, racist, and stupid as fuck. I was told by my therapist to get another job in Part Time only, so that I would concentrate on all my little projects and go back to college.
I was and am still working a part time job in the morning from seven to eleven in a nearby gas station, so in truth I only quite the full time night shift job from two till eleven at night. And considering the heightening crime rate due to the massive reduction in the size of the police force l also was afraid of being caught in the middle of the night in a firefight without a bigger car and at least a Beretta 9 Millimeter.
So in the end, I am a coward and an ugly shut in, but at least I decided to comeback to writing here.
Now you all know why I haven't updated the Symphony of Canterlot, and Of Broken Hearts and Merciful Hooves, and Published the first and mostly in notes at the moment first chapter of Malignancy. Because I was working eleven to twelve hours a day getting treated like shit because I was stupid enough to be working for a bank that treated it's customers as disposable.
So now to rebuild my life.
Buddy, I was a correctional officer for 16 months up until literally yesterday, when I finally quit after turning in my notice. The stress of the job was causing trouble for me as well, to the point where I would almost have anxiety attacks just thinking about going in to work. So I know a thing or two about being stuck in a job that's causing you stress and pain. And anyone would be scared having to live an environment like yours.
You are not a coward. And you have not failed anyone. You need to take care of yourself first, after all. I learned that when I decided to leave my job.
I know it's easy to judge yourself: I've spent the last three weeks after I put in my notice calling myself every variation of coward and weakling you can think of. But there are people who've gone through it, too. You're not alone. That's why you've got us.
Take care of yourself first. Worry about writing after that.
Working in a call center is one of the worst jobs in the world, especially if they were outgoing calls. I worked in credit counseling for 5 years and had a nervous breakdown for my efforts. These are people looking to blame someone else for their F-ups. Part -time sounds just fine for the moment. Things will happen in time, good things,
Yikes, good luck dude sounds like ya need it.