• Member Since 5th May, 2015
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miss-cyan


A broke, anxious mess with a sweet tooth. Usually tired or hungry.

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  • 119 weeks
    Personal Update

    So

    No worries, stories and chapters are still being worked on, this isn't a "I'm quitting on everything" post.

    Just a quick update.

    I got a bit more writing done on the final chapter over the holiday break, not as much as I wanted to, but I did make a good bit of progress.

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    6 comments · 410 views
  • 134 weeks
    ouch, my productivity

    just posted the 2nd to last chapter of Family Tree, and all when i should've been making powerpoints for class.

    hope y'all like it, it is past my bed time, or the time i go to bed in order to be a functional, well-rounded adult.

    3 comments · 205 views
  • 137 weeks
    big chapters coming soon

    Family Tree chapters 29 & 30 are almost done being edited, and I want to release them together, maybe a day or two apart to give people to digest and comment on 29 first.

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    1 comments · 207 views
  • 164 weeks
    almost done with new FT chapter

    i've mentioned it before, but the gap between now and Nightmare Night is killing me, its all original story that i haven't been carefully planning for years now (save for one scene) and i can't help but feel insecure about it.

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    3 comments · 261 views
  • 170 weeks
    Still not dead, thanks c:

    hello loyal readers :o

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    4 comments · 307 views
Jan
8th
2019

Hey · 4:27pm Jan 8th, 2019

i gotta say

everyone else was asleep and couldn't comfort me about my dog, so to the people who commented on the last post, you really did help me through those first rough 24 hours (i was up all night crying or trying not to cry, i was feeling pretty rough in the morning)

i got more sympathetic messages in the morning but you guys, even the folks who just read it, made me feel better when i was at my lowest. im still pretty messed up, and i still find myself feeling numb, but you guys made all the difference

so honestly, thanks

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Someone's got to watch, yes? I'm just glad I was able to help in some small way.

Would some music help?

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its a nice song c:

im glad people who understood and were nice about it were looking out for me, even in a small way.

It's great to see you're doing better. Keep strong!

DANG IT!!! I think I was active and just didn't look at your message. Sorry dude. My condolences for the loss of your dog, I know firsthand how bad that feels.

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im tryin' thanks c:

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no prob, just kind of glad for any kind of interaction atm, keeps me afloat

ive never had a dog die before, im doing better but im still kind of in denial

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Not sure what I could say to help. When my dog died, my dad went looking for another one. Within 3-6 months, I had a puppy. She couldn't fill the space filled by my first dog, but it helped. Companionship always helps.

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i think that would help, but i don't think i could do it. maybe after ive graduated, so id be home, but even then i still don't know. i'll see how i feel about it after a while.

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It doesn't have to be a dog. It can be a cat, or another person. They just have to have the capacity to actually care about how you feel.

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It's hard, especially with the ones that live longer. The one I was closest to was 15 when we had to say goodbye. I was 28 at the time, so he had been there half my life. The thought of not seeing him anymore took me some time to come to terms with and I still get a bit choked up at times thinking of him. One of the first things I did was put away all of his stuff (his toys, bed, dishes, etc.) so that I wouldn't constantly be reminded of him.
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When my family lost the dog I mentioned above, for quite a while everyone in my family was pretty on the fence about it. On one hand, we wanted another furry friend in our lives, but on the other hand, it felt like we were replacing our last one. Worse, some of us were still really broken up over losing him and weren't sure we wanted to go through that again. We eventually did get another dog (though it was a few years afterwards) and we're glad we did.

I don't know if hearing any of that helps, but just know that you're not alone and you can get through this.

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she was only 3, so it hit pretty hard. i wanted her to be with me for much, much longer. im away at school so i don't have too many reminders of her around, though my mom has taken it upon herself to take care of that back home. i did have to throw away the card for the animal hospital in my wallet since it was making me too sad.

i think a pet is probably in my future, it's just hard to consider right now. your words do help, thank you.

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