Brains suck sometimes · 8:46pm Jul 4th, 2018
So it's been half a year, and I still haven't posted the sequel to Looking Glass. I really thought it would be up by now, but yet I'm only a third of the way through the first act (which was and remains my goal before I start posting anything). But at least I do have some good news, for a change.
So in a previous blog post, I mentioned getting into a mental health program that I don't need insurance for. Well, therapy isn't exactly helping me in any major ways so far, but the meeting with a psychiatrist has had a pretty significant effect on me. I'm on antidepressants now, which have been filtering out the worst of my depression related problems. They don't really help me with executive dysfunction (part of how autism affects me; to oversimplify it, part of my brain doesn't work so well so I have trouble doing a lot of basic shit) which has always been a major struggle with my writing, but that's something I've always struggled with and am used to struggling with. The more recent problems seem to be stemming from depression, so hopefully this medication will cause some significant improvements to my writing.
And until recently, it hasn't I've only been on them for a month now, and they take a while to really kick in, so that's not surprising. But then (largely because my friends Wendy Gowak and Char-Char-Chan's help and encouragement) I recently found myself writing again, and I'm actually doing good! I've written a little over 7,000 words in the past three days, which is frankly incredible considering it took me like a month to get a little over a thousand words done before then.
So, I'm not as far along in this story as I thought I'd be by now, and I've got a long way to go before I can publish any of it. But I'm finally back on track, and if I can keep this up, we'll finally be getting somewhere soon 
Oh, and the story is officially called Playing House now 
Nice!
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Thank you
Awesome! I'm glad you're doing better!
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Thanks! Hopefully this upward trend continues
Your health is more important than the story obviously, we can wait. But is great being able to simply do what you like without depression stopping you, so write away bunny, write away.
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True, but the two are pretty linked to me. Writing is my biggest passion and what I'd like to build a future on, so not being able to write exasperates my mental health problems. Getting back into it has me feeling the best I've felt in ages, and gives me a lot more hope for the future
"If you can't manufacture your own neurotransmitters, store bought is fine."
Seriously though take your time. Usually by the time people get help they have yet another uphill battle to fight to recover. This is why a lot of people quit. That's sometimes okay, and sometimes not. Most of the times not.
As for not writing. Look at the dates on my last story updates. I'm stalled. I've asked a good friend to look them over and hopefully that view will help me reorient myself.
You're not alone.
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Thankfully I have a lot of very supportive people in my life, so with this mental health program, I feel like I finally have the tools needed to turn my life around. Of course, I know it'll take time, but gradual improvement is still improvement and a lot more than I've had in the past.
Hope things improve for your writing as well. Sometimes having someone give a look and a fresh perspective is just what you need to get a story going again
Glad you are doing better
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Thank you