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I'm a big fucking loser and you know it. · 9:07am Oct 22nd, 2017
I want to die. I have no purpose here anymore.
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Dude, NO. Please. Don't do this. You CAN get through this without dying.
Don't. Please don't. Please. Please try anything non-harmful, just not suicide.
We are here for you. It's terrible to be going through what you're going through, but it's not the end of the world. Please look to someone you can trust; a teacher, a grandparent, aunt, uncle, anyone who you love and loves you back and you know will take you seriously.
If this is over the money, everyone makes mistakes. I've made them. I regret them. It's not the end of the world; you can recover from it. Look for other sources of income; doing chores, offering to mow people's lawns, something.
Look, you're a great guy. You just need some help with this. You can overcome the difficulties you're suffering. Please, don't destroy yourself and please seek some help. Your life is important.
Please, keep trying. One more day, or even one more hour, at a time. It's not easy, but it can be done. Feel free to rant and vent. Get your feelings out. You may not feel like it, but you're not alone, and you ARE loved.
http://www.hullfinancialplanning.com/five-things-to-do-if-you-just-lost-a-lot-of-money/
https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org
http://stopasuicide.org
https://tumblr.zendesk.com/hc/en-us/articles/231885028-Counseling-and-prevention-resources
http://www.yourlifeyourvoice.org/pages/ways-to-get-help.aspx
http://chat.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/GetHelp/LifelineChat.aspx
Fireheart is right, buddy. It's hard right now, but there's a light at the end of this tunnel you're in. You just gotta hang on. Just remember all the people who love and care about you.
Are you? Because I certainly don’t think so. What brought this on?
Dude you don't want to do that. Let's calm down and talk about this.
I highly doubt that. I am sure you are an amazing person! Please hang in there *hugs*
Calm down friend. Take a few deep breaths and handle yourself carefully. Things will get better,
No man please, seriously please reconsider what your doing I promise that if you sit down and think about it you'll realize that it isn't worth it to kill yourself now. There's a lot of things you'd miss out on in life and a lot of people who would be saddened if you decided to just kill yourself right now.
Bud. Wait a minute. Now another. Let me ask you if something is how it is now.
Is death really what you want? Because I don’t think so. You just don’t want to live with the pain anymore. Right? It’s just too hard.
I’ve had quite a lot experience with suicide before. Mostly with myself. Listen to what I have to say.
I know you don’t want to live. But you will live through today. Get some sleep. Reconsider. See if there’s anything you can do to help yourself.
Also, tell yourself, and me, if you’d like, five things you haven’t done in life that you still want to do. Anything. If you die today, you’ll never be able to do them.
If you die today, you’ll never see what tomorrow will be like. Have some curiosity. Live on. A day at a time.
I'm just mad at the fucking world right now....
Everyday is a repeat.
I have nine year old vocabulary when I'm in my 20s.
If I ever wanted to change my life I'd have to do it on the weekend, Because my job absorbs all my freetime.
I hate all the fucking assholes on the internet who just love to correct me. Fucking bitches.
4705117
I've thought about calling, But I just don't know to say, or even if my reasoning will be good enough.
4705388
We’ve all been there, mate. It takes one bad day to drive us insane. You just have to take each day as it is.
Who’s correcting you? Because if they’re doing it just to screw with you then you should just cut them out if they’re riling you up all the time.
Yeah, I know the feeling of having little free time. You just have to make the most of what you get. This week alone I’ve only got one day off.
I’m not here to discredit or say anything to criticise you, I’m here to say I know how you feel and if you want to talk - my door is open. As well as who want to help, including the people that 4705117 linked you to.
Hi, like the others said... I don't think this is what you want. Like you, and some others on this site I've had my share of suicidal thoughts and whatnot and I still do but there are so many things that I want to do in my life that prevent me from doing that. Hear me out, I'm not a therapist but, everyone had a war being raged inside them. Some turn bitter, while other let it better them. Your war isn't over yet... But it will get better. You will go through some rough patches in life and some nice patches in life.
There is science Behind this though. So what I suggest you do is make a goal. A goal that will make you feel good. Long term or short term, it matters not. Maybe something small but something that’ll make you feel good. As setting weekly or monthly goals for yourself will increase your dopamine levels, which is the hormone in your brain that makes you feel satisfied and good about yourself. You get what I’m saying? Also, eat foods that have lots of protein. And exercise too.
There’s not enough of serotonin in your brain producing happiness for you. That’s not your fault because it stops and slows down production of serotonin when you get stressed or things come up that are making you mad or something. So don’t blame yourself for feeling the way you do. Feelings are feelings.
There is a way to get your serotonin levels back to normal. But it takes time. Endorphin is the hormone that blocks pain, both physical and mental so you exercising will make both your endorphin and serotonin go up. Eating spicy things help too.
As for your serotonin levels, you need to get in the sun because vitamin D is needed to produce Serotonin. And eating good foods for you too. Like milk, corn and other things like that.
But, even if you don't do this, Breath.
Even just breathing is okay. You don't have to push yourself to do much if you don't want to. If you mess up one day in life, you don't have to wait till the next day to try again. Just take a deep breath, clear your mind and begin again.
I hope you get better soon and if you need to talk, PM me. Breath, relax and slow down for a moment. It takes time, but you will be fine.
You don't think I'm serious? Go fuck yourself dude... You have some nerve to be saying shit like that.
4705442
Nah I just take what I see on the internet with a grain of salt, as everyone should. Nothing against you personally, I can just be a little skeptical.
4705443
Oh sure man... Okay. Yeah you sure know when somethings a joke or not.
4705445
Nope, I don't. I have no way of knowing for sure, obviously, but like I said I'm skeptical.
I'm sorry you feel this way.
I was hoping I was the only one, but I guess there are more of us.
(If it amuses you even for a moment though, at least take solace in the fact you at least have a job. I'm literally too stupid to be employable in the first place, so if nothing else, you have that over me.)
If you hate life and the world, why not channel that anger? Immerse yourself in work, and distance yourself from anyone who lies to you. For people like us there isn't much we can do to fight back, but we're not completely powerless.
4705500
I know... I'm grateful for having a job, and being able to buy things for myself, I really am. But it just feels like a damn repeat everyday. I hardly have anytime to myself. I'm starting to just give up on the activities that I used to do.
4705522
Oh, I agree. 60 hours a week would be utterly fucked.
4705522
Point being you won't be getting any mindless, generic anti-suicide "you have so much to live for! things will get better! ... because I'm saying so, not because I actually have any demonstrable proof" bullshit from me.
That stuff only comes from people who've never had problems like ours.
4705527
Right... I mean I don't want to sound disrespectful or anything, But that shit is tough to believe.
4705117
https://www.fimfiction.net/blog/768781/facts-about-suicide
4705203
No one has inherent purpose.
But some people have a natural affinity for things they can turn into skills (which can then be turned into hobbies).
Not all of us were born with such a thing.
4705139
Actually, given the huge number of people in the past who have been born into shitty circumstances, suffered through things beyond their control, and died before their age even reached double digits (see: child soldiers), it is quite brazen to say that "light at the end of the tunnel" is an assured end point.
For many people it never was.
4705150
Didn't he just... tell you he did?
And yes, I am responding to you three on these points because I have seen far too many misunderstandings regarding suicide over the years, and it's about time I started calling people on them.
Reconsider, we're begging you. Please, suicide isn't the only option, please.
4705643
I'm reconsidering it right now.
4705664
That's the spirit. You'll never be as big a loser as me.
4705666
Nah, You're not a loser. I basically don't even have a life.
4705671
You have a job, and I don't. That alone makes you literally and objectively more useful in "life."
Also, all the responses you got this blog versus mine which get none? You've also left a bigger footprint among people who allegedly care about you. I've literally never had a single one.
Alright this thread has gone on long enough. Listen, you’re not happy with the way you are? Pull yourself up and change who you are. It’ll involve cutting some stuff out and putting some stuff in and that’ll be uncomfortable and possibly time consuming, but when you transform yourself into a new person it’ll be worth it. Tell me what moping has done for anyone? Realizing you’re sad is only the first step to solving your depression. Don’t have a job? You can find one. It may not be a super dignified job, but it’s better than no job. Give your all and locally work your way up. Don’t have a love life? Well you’ll never have one if you give up on it. If I can find someone, anybody can. I’m not saying this because I believe anyone in here is being stupid, I just believe you’re lying to yourself. You’re not useless, and you know it yourself on the inside. Find whatever motivates you and use it to make yourself a better person!
4705682
Even if you don't have a job, I still think your damn useful. You're actually helping me so much by giving me good advice. I need you, my family, and others who willing to help me through this dark time that I'm going through right now, Life is fucking tough man, And I feel like I'm on the edge here, But your willing to hold on to my arm from me falling into the dark pit, And I really appreciate it.
4705687
Who are you even talking to, him or me?
(And it's not a thread, and you're not an admin, so you can't tell either of us our "thread" has gone on as though you're going to lock it.)
4705726
Why was your first assumption I’m locking anything? God forbid I want people to dig themselves out of a pit.
4706171
Because your wording sounded exactly like the asshole mods we have on this site:
"This thread has gone on long enough. Locked."
I was semantically having a go at your wording.
So, as I asked, were you talking to him or me?
4706246
Really to anyone that believes they’re just worthless. You’re worthless when you want to be worthless. Make yourself useful. It won’t be fun nor easy at first, but it’s better than going to bed every night praying to whatever god that’ll hear you to end your life.
No piece of a puzzle is useless, unless it decided not to fit.
You fit perfectly, even if you don't know where yet.
4706872
Fortunate for you.
4706555
That's quite a confident statement for one with no evidence.
4708225
My evidence is that i am still here, discovering where I fit.
If I can have a purpose, everyone can.
4708230
Looking at your profile and story/follower count, you've already proven you had more inherent worth to be built up than I ever did. So, your success says nothing about mine. At the very least, you clearly have a brain in your head, something I never will.
4708233
If you didn't have a brain, how could you provide so much thought into your arguments?
If you placed that same amount of care and concentration on finding what you love to do, you'll surely find it.
4708733
Actually, I don't have depression. My problems are all tangible and evidenced, and have nothing to do with wonky brain chemistry.
I know how you feel. I'm in the same pit of despair myself.