I'm really in dire need of physical affection/comfort. · 11:58am Jan 3rd, 2022
I feel like this is the only place where I can get this off my chest, As weird at this might sound, please don't judge me, but recently I've found myself dealing with severe loneliness as well as mild depression these past two years, and as time progresses it's getting to a point where I'm desperately seeking physical comfort and love and I just don't know what to do at this point. I live alone btw.
I'm not currently in a romantic relationship right now, Don't think I'm ready for that just yet. Plus I'm not really emotionally available right now.
I have no pets, I like animals but I'm not really attached to them like most people are(sorry).
Sometimes I would google these paid "cuddle services" and consider them a remedy but that It just wouldn't feel right.
I've never really emotionally bonded with my parents or whole family to be honest probably because it felt like all they've ever done was really buy me things and send me money my whole childhood, I guess we've never really grasped that real aspect of what family love and nurture really was.
The only people I feel emotionally bonded with are my two local friends that I've been close to since high school. We hangout sometimes actually, but the last time I did, I really felt that desperate attempt to latch onto them sometimes because they really are who I only have, but I know that would probably be really selfish of me to act on my desperation and would make them feel extremely uncomfortable because we're the same gender. I wonder if I should tell them that I've been feeling this way, I just really don't know how they'd react to it.
The thought of being held and caressed by my best friends makes me feel warm, safe, comforted and loved...
I would like that.
Well, I can say that having family and friends you can rely on is a great gift, as is godly affection for them.
Sorry you're going through this, man.
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Thanks, any response is appreciated.