I would never want to belong anywhere that wants me · 11:50pm Oct 15th, 2016
So, FIMfiction, and life in general, really, is really eroding the tiny little nubbin of hope that I had left for mankind.
I post what I feel to be clever little bits of satire, parody, and character study, shit I work hard on, taking time to craft my language carefully for desired effect, and I get practically nothing, barely a look-in, and then only from those already inclined to approach my work with some (possibly subconscious) level of tolerance, if not favoritism.
I post mindless spew vomited up after a night of horrible insomnia and depression, or a mind-numbingly dull day at work where I'm randomly hitting keys for fun -- to be fair, it's vomitus that is remarkably free from egregious spelling and grammatical errors, unlike most of the dreck on this site -- and I'm suddenly buried in favorites from complete strangers.
It think it's only my already-unheathily high level of cynicism and misanthropy that is preventing me from initiating a potentially traumatic head-desk interaction.
I'm sorry, you are aware that you're basically a complete unknown, yes?
And if you don't want favorites from complete strangers, why the bloody hell are you here?
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It's not the fact I'm getting favorites, it's what is getting favorited. If all my crap was equally ignored, that would make sense, I could go with that, being unknown as you said. But it's the fact that the clever bits are almost entirely ignored, no matter how much I promote them; and the stupid crap I spend absolutely no effort at all to promote gets flooded with appreciation.
If I only wanted favorites, I'd write brainless clopfic, that doesn't ever seem to not be popular.
The especially weird part is that the one that's getting the most favorites is getting posted to shipping and clopfic groups, even though that's not even remotely the point (and it's not even really noticeably explicit about either).
4257417 So don't write stuff you don't care about.
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I would if I wanted to be merely popular. I don't care about being merely popular, at least not by the standards of this site. I care about a a small number of people who actually get what I'm going for either appreciating my work, or informing me intelligently how I'm failing miserably as a writer and as a human being. I at least got some of that with my latest piece of nonsense (which I'm thinking I'll probably end up deleting as soon as I'm sober enough to be embarrassed enough about it).
Plus, most of the time I try to write clop, I fail miserably. I've gone one story that I started to write as a simple, three or four chapter clopfic, which so far has grown into a dozen pages of notes, morphed into a personal growth/redemption journey exploring the nature of relationships, reality, and perception, with very little actual sex in it. Even the one I've posted so far ended up with no actual sex, just a discussion of the psychology of rape fantasies.
There's something seriously wrong with my brain.
4257435 I honestly think you shouldn't delete Ponyspotting. It's very interesting.
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Thanks, I do actually appreciate the comments. Maybe if I stop hating it as much, I'll try re-writing it to make Twilight a bit more in-character. The point was to try and imagine what she would be like if she was so far lost in addiction that she lost pretty much everything she really cared about and which defined her as a character; but clearly I failed miserably at that. I dunno, maybe I'll revisit it at some point and try to make it less OOC.
4257443 Maybe you should take a bit of a break. Do something you enjoy. Get out of this toxic mindset.
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This is what I enjoy.
(Well, what I enjoy that's legal and not stupidly expensive.)
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Well, I gave up and killed it.
Not deleted entirely, just unpublished. I may revisit it, see if I can fix it and extend it a bit; but it was just making me far too depressed. Plus, all my characters got really peeved and quit talking to me because of it, so I wasn't able to write anything else.
4261403 Wow. Your characters responded that badly, huh?
Yeah, not gonna try to say you should republish. If the universe is silent, no more can be done. I've had to completely restart my novel twice because the characters just refused to go forward with the current plan.
4261403 But, uh...
If you're going to unpublish, unpublish fully. Revoke the submission. A story with no chapters looks much worse than a story just not being there.
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Eh, I'm still hoping I can fix it, given enough time to think about it. If not, I'll kill it completely.
Interestingly, I've actually managed to finally get some work done on the story I was focusing on prior to this abomination.