Leaving Fimfiction [Important] · 4:06pm May 31st, 2015
Obviously my last blog didn't get the message across for a lot of people, since as I suspected, I had a slew of PM's waiting for me when I came back to clean up. It's alright though, since it was only a temporary thing to stall for time. "Stall for time" makes it sound like I'm a commander or something, right? Haha.
I just needed to get my head cleared out so I could focus on writing a proper... send off? Goodbye? Whatever, it doesn't really matter. I'm not a very logical guy anyway, so I suppose the slap-dash attempt at a farewell suits me. The last time I made a goodbye on this site, in reality, it was more like a "see you in a few," since I only needed a time out from the place.
However, this is different. I'm not leaving because I want a time out, because nothing interesting is going on, or because I'm no longer a brony. I guess I'm leaving for all three. My 'fandom' lies elsewhere, although I'd hardly say I interact with the majority what-so-ever. I don't even need to be on this site anymore, as has been pointed out numerous times.
But it's more than that. I'm no longer a NEET, meaning I have things I do every day IRL now. I get a train, go into college, spend the day there, then maybe go to work some days on the way back. This daily activity is only set to spike in September, too. Simply put there's no time to dick around on a site I barely use.
Many people on this site were never really my friends, even if they acted like it. At the end of the day, they never followed me anywhere else when I gave the chance, and were content to occasionally talk to me when they felt like it. That's not what a friend is. In all honesty, practically all my 'friends' on here were gathered in one place; and that's now falling apart.
In a simple sense, Fimfiction just isn't fun anymore.
One of my earliest friends on Fimfiction made a very informative and open blog on this subject. So, I'm just going to borrow from it since a large majority applies here.
...I think I've just had enough. I don't see the point in doing it, anymore. There's no enjoyment, no motivation, and no more reason to continue doing so. Does it feel great telling this to those of you who still pay attention? Absolutely not, and maybe that's why I've held off on it for so long.
Since my debut here over three years ago, I have blossomed as a writer, and I'm no longer afraid to admit that. I've improved a tremendous amount according to my readers, my peers, and now, according to myself. [...], even I can admit I've come far in these past years. Has it been fun? Yes. Has it been hard? Yes. Has it been heart-wrenching at times? Yes. All of these aspects and more my time as a writer here has been, and I can proudly say that it was time wisely spent.
When I first joined the fandom, I saw it as a wonderful, flawless community with such rich diversity and culture. Those who spoke out against the show and it's fans even in the slightest became my enemy, and I became obsessed with it, in a way. Now, after over three years in the fandom, my views have shifted drastically. Having delved into the pits of 4chan, cringechannel, and simply taking a step back to look at what kind of group I was claiming to be aligned with, things gradually became clearer.
He puts it better than I ever could, even if he sometimes felt like he was in my shadow. Ethan is a cool guy, and even if he doesn't write ponies anymore, you should all go follow him; he's going places in life with that skill. Me? I'm going to take the skills I'm honing and the skills I control and hopefully do something with myself.
I want to be a teacher, you know? I have a long way to go, but, I think I'll get there. If I don't, I'll at least have another language under my belt and the grades to get into a steady job. If all else fails, my hobbies should provide a nice backbone for me to fall back onto; Maelstrom is going strong.
Hopefully this wasn't too dramatic. If you want to stay in touch with me, all my contact details are up on my main page now.
See you around, maybe? :)
Well, I don't think there's anything I can say that would get you to change your mind.
I suppose I can just hope that we'll talk again sometime.
See you around, indeed.
mfw you sound like Gollum
See you 'round, mang.
I guess I'll have to be more active on Steam. Best of fortune~
Darn, it feels like nearly everyone I care on this site is leaving. First Pat, then Kelly and now you. Honestly, I'm alright if you want to leave for good; it's your choice, after all.
Anyways, I'll catch you on Teamspeak.
Well, I wish the best for you. I'll miss seeing you up in my blog feed
Have fun with your weeaboo trash, xir :^)
Ah
moving on
have fun
:c