Regarding Horse Words (VERY IMPORTANT) · 2:40am Mar 13th, 2015
Hello, minions! I'm currently typing this out from the new computer I finally got two weeks ago. Now I can finally play my games without worrying about game-breaking lag. Sure it cost a pretty penny and only 250 MB was able to be recovered from my old computer, but it's still the best piece of machinery I've ever owned.
Now then, looking at the title, you're probably expecting me to talk about when fics will be updated or what else I have waiting in the wings for you all. Well, I can sum up what's in store in the way of pony fics: nothing. That's right. Nothing. You want to know why? I'm tired. I haven't said anything about it for the longest time, and maybe that's why updates have become less and less frequent, but it's true. I just don't want to write pony fics, anymore.
Don't get me wrong, I still like the show and I look forward to the fifth season in April, but in the way of fanfiction, I think I've just had enough. I don't see the point in doing it, anymore. There's no enjoyment, no motivation, and no more reason to continue doing so. Does it feel great telling this to those of you who still pay attention? Absolutely not, and maybe that's why I've held off on it for so long.
Since my debut here over three years ago, i have blossomed as a writer, and I'm no longer afraid to admit that. I've improved a tremendous amount according to my readers, my peers, and now, according to myself. Looking at The Dead Trot and then looking at the work I did with Cobblestones, even I can admit I've come far in these past years. Has it been fun? Yes. Has it been hard? Yes. Has it been heart-wrenching at times? Yes. All of these aspects and more my time as a writer here has been, and I can proudly say that it was time wisely spent.
I'm not going to go into a schpeel about how smut fiction has become a driving factor on this site and that those at the top jerk each other to rise even higher, but I feel that some things need to be said. When I first joined the fandom, I saw it as a wonderful, flawless community with such rich diversity and culture. Those who spoke out against the show and it's fans even in the slightest became my enemy, and I became obsessed with it, in a way. Now, after over three years in the fandom, my views have shifted drastically. Having delved into the pits of 4chan, cringechannel, and simply taking a step back to look at what kind of group I was claiming to be aligned with, things gradually became clearer. You know how they say that love is blind? Well, I guess you could say I loved the show and community to a point where I truly was blind, naive to both the underlying and occasionally blatant toxicity and cringe-worthy elements that the community and bronies in general have to offer.
I never truly love fanworks. Music, fan animations, and a majority of fanfiction I never really liked. I thought it was because I was jealous of them, envious of their ability to garner fame and praise where I could not. That was the younger Baglez. The current Baglez sees cringefests, needless drama, and a general change from a group of cartoon fans to a pack of ravenous, fedora-clad, neckbearded, waifu-clinging, creepy asshats that, honestly, I don't feel like writing for, anymore.
Is that a bit harsh? Maybe, but this has been a long time coming. I'm not going to censor how I feel this time. You guys deserve more than that; you deserve the truth, and dammit, that's what you're getting.
Am I done with writing? Hell no. Am I done visiting this site? No. I will read fics, but I now find a distaste for any that aren't incredibly stupid, trollfics, or make fun of the show or it's fanbase.
I'm tired. That pretty much sums it up. I'm tired of writing about ponies when I now have the capabilities of so much more. I don't need this crutch any longer. I've reached the point where I can finally go about my own writing on my own terms.
Will I keep in contact with friend and acquaintances on here? Absolutely, and if you want to keep tabs on me, feel free to shoot me a message. I'm not too far away.
I've still got big plans for my writing, people (just none involving ponies). I'm sorry that I had to state the truth so blatantly here, but some things have to be put out in the open.
Until next time you wonderful minions.
(Crap tier anime, but epic tier OST)
Your Master,
-DWB
You know what? I feel exactly the same, but just a little less enthusiastic. Looking back at everything I've realized that what I'm trying to write and what I am writing is totally different. I think I deserve to give myself more credit, and so I've been working on my book; ponies be damned.
More power to you, bro. You know I'm always a message away. 'Course, you still got to add my new Skype account, but still.
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New Skype? You keeping me out of the loop, mang?
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I made a blog about it, but, here: terminallyutsutsu
I can totally see what you're getting at. I, too, have been kind of lacking in any form of motivation for writing horse words, unfortunately. But hey, I'm sure you'll write something great in the future!