Pick my poison · 11:53pm Feb 12th, 2014
Hey everyhuman, InkTapper here.
I chose the wrong time to join this site. What was I thinking? I'm a teenager for god's sake, I'm at the point where the average person's life changes the most, the point where everything I decide to do is the wrong decision and the negative consequences are disregarded completely until they hit me right in the face. Naturally, I start a story or make friends and then just up and leave them be out of my hormone-driven bubbleheadedness. I suck.
On a related note, that dude IdentityMatrix is me. Why did I make another account and pretend it was someone else? I have no idea.
My point is, I'm not as loyal or as trustworthy as I should be, and for that I apologize. I want so badly to make friends and to show people my ideas in hopes that it will somehow change them or make them happy, but in all honesty, I just suck at it. I'm sloppy, lazy, and inconsistent.
I'm not leaving this site though. I've been here too long to go.
I'm also not going to make any promises or commitments other than this one: yes, 'The Diary of Pinkamena Diane Pie' and 'Lost in the Night' will indeed be finished. No question. But I won't give you a date, because honestly, I have no fuckin clue. I'm a mess right now. One day I'm motivated and ready to take life by the throat and shove it into the fiery pits of Hell, and the next day, I'm in the fiery pits of Hell. I'm sure everyone here who's ever been a teenager can relate. So naturally, I really don't have any free time that isn't spent with the piles of work I have hovering over my head.
Wow, look at me complaining like a spoiled brat. Do you have any idea how good I have it right now? I can turn my poor situation around with just a little bit of discipline and maturity before the end of the year because of how many people are trying to help me. They're trying to help me while other kids who deserve support are failing because of their lack for it, and I'm complaining.
So basically, I've been presented with a choice. I can leave the high school I'm currently going to and be enrolled in a program called PACE, which is a system within our district that offers full-time high school diplomas for kids who are not fit to be in a regular high school due to pregnancy, dropping out, etc., and is essentially online schooling.
I've always known I wasn't that smart, but this seems a little extreme. I'd be completely eliminating all human interaction I currently participate in in my school, not to mention theatre, my life-long passion to go to a school for kids who have nowhere else to go. I will not make friends there. I will not be emotionally fulfilled there. I'm not even sure I'll succeed there. But I'm so desperate at this point, I'm starting to think the elimination of all emotional distractions is exactly what I need.
I'm lost. So very, very, lost. I feel like I can see the light at the end of the tunnel, but I haven't got the energy to move forward.
Thank you for listening. I just needed an outlet, somewhere to sort out some of my thoughts. I'm really glad I have you guys. 
*hug*
1827875 *hugs back* needed that.
YOU TOLD THEM MY SECRET??!
Hugs?
1827921 SHUT UP, InkMatrixIdentityTapper!
Ok, that's the last time I'm doing that, everyhuman. I have to admit, it was fun while it lasted. But it's over now. I have two accounts.
1827932 hugs.
/hug
*Hugtackle*
Seriously dude, anyone who has ever been a teenager knows exactly what you are going through. Cheer up, and don't put yourself down so much. I can't stand when a dear friend of mine does that, especially my fellow Pinkie Pie.
I love ya mate.
Hi! Listen to the adults in your life, as they know you better than you think, and they want only the very best for you. So you might not have regular classes, enrol in classes for theatre separately, or acting, or something else that interests you! You have helped so many people, it is time to look after yourself. Enjoy being a teenager! It passes way too quickly!
Regards Annie
We should, like. talk more, mate!
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I'm gunna bite you..... wait, I don't say that to you