I still come here every now and then · 3:51pm Apr 10th, 2016
But I always get lost and turn back around. That bittersweet memory lane always leads to a dusty dead end. To be honest, I can't even remember what I was ever doing here in the first place. It's always been curious to me that life becomes all the more mystifying the longer you live. I'm not what you would call a brony anymore, that's for sure, but after going through a couple years of some pretty harsh and scary stuff I've come to realize that real joy isn't experienced by the wanderers who give up and stop working, and that's why I haven't been able to ignore the instinct to return here.
I gave up on my stories I created while part of the fandom here due to apathy and depression which eventually led me down a road that I'm still walking away from. I thought continuing them would be a rather pointless endeavor and technically I still do as their completion will have no positive or negative impact on me as a whole. But in starting them and instilling a tiny hope in dozens of people around the globe that they would see the completion of the stories, no matter how small it was, I performed an act that had outward influence and then turned away out of cold indifference, and I hate that I did that.
It's been so long now; I'm certain that no one is still paying any attention to the stories I produced here, but what matters to me now is that the thread of creativity I once spun doesn't end up without shape. I imagined and hoped people would like my story, so even though I'm an entirely different person than I was before I'm going to work and make something of that dream no matter how worthless I or anyone thinks it is. It's still a part of me, and I never should have given up on it.
Sorry for the long wait. If you're still there, The Diary of Pinkamena Diane Pie will continue :)
I don't comment often, but I will to say this: I will read your stories. I don't know too much about you, however I remember enough from your past blogs to know you are a good person, and I have, and will continue to, support you, whatever path you choose to take. Stay strong and carry on,
oh hai there Inky