Pretty sure most of my followers have noticed by now that I'm almost never here anymore. I've been thinking about revoking all my stories, cause... I don't know, it just feels weird having something out in the open and never checking to see if anyone steals it or something. Maybe I'm just weird. I had already revoked a few the last time I was here, a few months ago.

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Not quitting the story just very depressed

So.. I’ve had a long time EKG on Monday and it showed the quick changes of heart frequency and the tachycardia..

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Over the last month, my health has gone worse. It started with the usual dizzyness I’ve had all my life reoccurringly. And now I can barely leave my bed without having to hold onto something to keep from fainting.
I still visit school though. The past weeks I’ve had one test after the other, so I didn’t have time to visit a doctor. Now my doc is on holidays, and the one representing doc (not sure if this is correctly translated) has deported me via call.

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As the title says, I´m on new meds now. Away from simple SSRI anti-depressants, to something for depression, PTSD, sozial anxiety, anxiety attacks and OCD. They have 50mg and until the next appointment I gotta take a half. I am not going into detail as to why. Simply because it´s not something I want to post openly on the internet. (You´re probably gonna hear about it through stories anyways..)

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Hey everyone!
I am writing from my new tiny laptop, a tablet pc with keyboard. Why did I get a fourth laptop? Because today in a week I am having surgery! We leave on Sunday because the Hospital is two hours away from where I live. Monday morning I am inpatient for some last tests and Tuesday I finally have the surgery I would have needed years ago, to save me a lot of problems and pain.

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Hey guys

You might be wondering where I've been lately. If not, I'm telling you anyways (if you read this, that is.)

So from Thursday the week before last till Friday last week I was on antibiotics. I had a test day for my one month long traineeship/practical course next year on my third day of antibiotics. I fainted a lot and I guess that didn't make the best impression when I told them about it. But I was looking forward to this for so long and it wasn't fair!!!

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...i can't deal with anything anymore and only get into fights. I mess up everything. Somebody please just fckin kill meeee....

Yeah like the title says, I'm singing again. My skills at songwriting and singing have definitely NOT improved since I last did it almost eight years ago XDD

http://www.dailymotion.com/playlist/x4ye9u

Just a message on my current behalf.
Right now it's 2 am and I'm hacking my lungs out and blowing tissues slimy and bloody. I'm short, I'm pretty much sick. The worst part is that I really got something against the slightest bit of sniffling. It's driving me insane. So I always grab a tissue the second I hear or feel the tiniest thing in my nose. OCD is a curse.

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