• Member Since 26th Jun, 2016
  • offline last seen September 1st

Xenay


22 year old girl from Germany. POTS warrior. TwiDash shipper.

More Blog Posts19

  • 122 weeks
    Whelp.

    Pretty sure most of my followers have noticed by now that I'm almost never here anymore. I've been thinking about revoking all my stories, cause... I don't know, it just feels weird having something out in the open and never checking to see if anyone steals it or something. Maybe I'm just weird. I had already revoked a few the last time I was here, a few months ago.

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  • 171 weeks
    Sorry

    Not quitting the story just very depressed

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  • 182 weeks
    Bad news

    So.. I’ve had a long time EKG on Monday and it showed the quick changes of heart frequency and the tachycardia..

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    2 comments · 223 views
  • 185 weeks
    Possibly dying (?)

    Over the last month, my health has gone worse. It started with the usual dizzyness I’ve had all my life reoccurringly. And now I can barely leave my bed without having to hold onto something to keep from fainting.

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    3 comments · 276 views
  • 190 weeks
    New Meds

    As the title says, I´m on new meds now. Away from simple SSRI anti-depressants, to something for depression, PTSD, sozial anxiety, anxiety attacks and OCD. They have 50mg and until the next appointment I gotta take a half. I am not going into detail as to why. Simply because it´s not something I want to post openly on the internet. (You´re probably gonna hear about it through stories anyways..)

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Sep
7th
2017

I feel horrible... · 6:02pm Sep 7th, 2017

...i can't deal with anything anymore and only get into fights. I mess up everything. Somebody please just fckin kill meeee.... :raritycry::fluttercry:

Report Xenay · 182 views · #depressedAF
Comments ( 4 )

What's wrong?! Please tell me what happened!

4661311 I've been alone for almost two weeks, my family is coming home from Italy tomorrow... I'm a mess every day I can't handle anything and now I had bad temper problems all day and kept hitting the wardrobes and yell-speach memo-ed my friends until they left the group.. I've cut myself a lot earlier after being lean for a few months... I just wish I could just sleep forever.... and my mum just tol me that she hopes that I'll like the things she bought me and it makes me feel so guilty. Every time someone does something nice for me I just feel guilty because I don't deserve it. I can't just smile all the time they give me something and say how happy I am because I'm totally the opposite and wish they wouldn't do it at all.... argh I'm a mess..

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It's alright. Don't worry about anything. Everything will be alright soon. If you need someone to talk to, just come to me. You're not alone. I will always be there for my friends. Just letting you know that I will be there for you.

4661367 thanks... :pinkiesad2:

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