The Reason for my Hiatus

I finally found the source for my hiatus, in the last months I felt that something was wrong but I couldn't place it which was messing with my writing as of late. I just found out today that my grandfather passed away last night. I honestly don't know how to process it, On one hand I knew him to a degree where I have a good number of memories with him, but on the other hand he was somewhat lacking in the understanding of my disabilities.

this is funny in the regard that he was extremely stubborn, He's survived Cancer, Covid and every kind of Sickness out there. Me and my grandma - who's still with me[thank god]- would say that "He's old as dirt but tough as nails." He basically gave Death the death glare until my mom arrived, He waited to die surrounded by his children.

It brings me no joy knowing that I won't be able to see him, nor hear his voice again. It was nice knowing him considering I never got to meet my Dad's father.

I'm going to miss him, but I know I could never forget him. It's kind of hard to forget someone who looked like Tom Selleck. Oh yeah he had the mustache. the whole nine yards. I'm going to miss my Peepaw

Comments

[deadhound]

Sounds like one hell of a guy. May he rest in piece.

[The_Chill_Author]

He sounds like he was a strong man, and I'm sure he's looking down at you. Proud of you for making your own stories, proud of your creativity, and proud of you for being the best version of yourself. Love you man, I hope you're okay.

[Ragnarok17]

Sorry about your grandfather.

I hope you doing okay…. We here for you.

[nightshroud96]

I am sorry about your grandpa there..

I know how it feels since I lost mine in January.

[Dylhsn14]

I'm sorry to hear about your grandfather
I lost my grandmother 4 years ago

[Raining_Chains]

I'm sorry for your loss. He sounded like a such a nice man. At least he'll be looking out for you from up above. Keep your head up.

[Chrome Masquerade]

I can't hope to understand how you must be feeling. (Insert favoured deity here) only knows how I'd react. But, i hope that this'll help.
To paraphrase from one of my favourite stories on this site...

I'm gonna have to tell you something you might dread.
I'm gonna have to tell you that the dove might be dead.
I know the thought of seeing it makes you smile,
But it hasn't come back yet; It's been gone for a while.

The fact that you still love the dove makes it very hard
To tell you that the dove's return is not exactly in the cards.
But let me tell you this before a tear dares hit the floor;
If you look all around you, you may find birds galore.

You may find a wise old owl, willing to share his mmind.
An eagle, although regal, can be proven to be kind.
A penguin will defend you as if you really are its egg,
And a pigeon will always feed you (even if it is just bread).

I've never met a kookaburra that doesn't love a good time,
Or a pelican that doesn't have a place for one to hide.
You can marvel at all the things a finch has gone and founded,
And you can be honest with an ostrich - for the ostrich is well grounded.

And I could go on, like a parrot, telling more.
But I'm not here to discuss pigs, so I'll stop being a bore.
So get it in your head - Yes, the dove may be dead.
But it's not the only bird out there, kid.
And I hope those birds will give you wings of freedon,
Like the dove once did.

Good luck.

[KarasAdamas]

Felt the same when my grandfather passed away, specifically from my mothers side. I didn't meet him that often because him and my grandmother were divorced, but I can't think of a single memory with him that wasn't a happy one. He was a real ray of sunshine, never stopped smiling and he knew how to get the ladies.

Our grandparents are our Pillars of Wisdom through life, they might not always understand and may be old fashioned in their ways. But they've been through life and knows how life works. We'll never forget them and they'll always be close to our hearts.

[Star love]

If Tomorrow Starts Without Me

By David Romano

If tomorrow starts without me....

If tomorrow starts without me, and I’m not here to see,
If the sun should rise you find your eyes all filled with tears for me;
I wish so much you wouldn’t cry the way you did today,
While thinking of the many things we didn’t get to say.
I know how much you love me, as much as I love you
And each time that you think of me, I know you’ll miss me too.
But when tomorrow starts without me please try to understand,
That an angel came and called my name and took me by the hand.
He said my place was ready, in heaven far above
And that I’d have to leave behind all those I dearly love.
But as I turned and walked away a tear fell from my eye.
For all my life I’d always thought, I didn’t want to die.
I had so much to live for, so much left yet to do.
It seemed almost impossible that I was leaving you.
I thought of all the yesterdays the good ones and the bad.
I thought of all the love we shared, and all the fun we had.
If I could relive yesterday, just even for a while,
I’d say goodbye and kiss you and maybe see you smile.
But then I fully realized that this could never be,
For emptiness and memories would take the place of me.
When I thought of worldly things I might miss come tomorrow
I thought of you and when I did my heart was filled with sorrow.
When I walked through heavens gates I felt so much at home.
God looked down and smiled at me from his great golden throne
He said, “This is eternity and all I’ve promised you”
Today your life on earth has passed but here life starts anew.
I promise no tomorrow, but today will always last
And since each day is the same there’s no longing for the past.
You have been so faithful so trusting and so true.
Though there were times you did some things you knew you shouldn’t do.
You have been forgiven and now at last you’re free.
So won’t you come and take my hand and share my life with me?
So when tomorrow starts with out me don’t think we’re far apart,
For every time you think of me, I’m right here in your heart.

[Jatheus]

I am sorry for your loss.

[Snow Frostfang]

My condolence Umbra.
If you need to talk to someone I’m here.

[Lady Umbra]

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[Fireheart 1945]

Sorry for your loss.

May Christ save you and go with you in this hour.