Parental rejection?

I've always felt like my family accepted who I am, like they, being who they are - tolerant, kind and accepting, if flawed, people - would not mind. And they didn't seem to, my coming out felt like words thrown into the wind - their possible effects did, at least.

My identity was acknowledged. Noone ever treated me wprse or any different, though. Not at all, not even the slightest grain in the sand of my life became turned.

But I myself changed not either.

You see, my transition is only yet to begin. When I announced I want to go forth, to start... I was met with silent stares. Overwhelmed? Or cold? Upset? I know not, and cannot know.

I do however know that nothing since has made me feel secure or accepted. I know it has not been long since; not long at all. But each time I talk to my family, they are... apathetic. Down. Emotionless.

It's not rejection. Likely, it's but a flood of emotions.

But it hurts. And I do not feel accepted anymore. I am alone, and that's because of who I want to be, and because I said what I said.

I'm slowly starting to hate myself for my trans status.

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[Indigo Storyheart]

...sorry?