I Am Missing · 4:05pm February 24th
"Emergency situations hotline, hello."
"Good morning. Is this the place I'm supposed to call to report a missing person?"
"Indeed so, ma'am. Who is missing?"
"I am."
"Excuse me?"
"I am missing. And I'd like to find myself."
"Well, uh... alright. I will require a description of the person in question, even brief. We need a lead to go off of."
"But of course. Female, early twenties. Rugged and uncaring, yet selfless and friendly. But truly, do I even know? It's not my place to tell."
"Ma'am, I mean no offense, but we need a lead. Please continue."
"I don't know much about her, you see. Is she vile or is she caring, is she deserving of all she receives? There is much yet unanswered, and I am not sure if I'm ready to attempt to do so."
"We need some history too. Has she been lost before?"
"Yes, a... a little bit. But she found herself."
"Alright, I just need to log it here, and there too... okay. Do you have anything else to add?"
"I do not think so. There is so much I don't know about her, even if I thought I did. It's almost as if she's a complete stranger at times, you see..."
"Ma'am, I apologise, but with so little information given, I'm not sure if there's anything at all we can do to help. We will keep looking, but I'm afraid that to find her, you might need to try yourself."
"I know."
"Excuse me?"
"I know. Thank you for the help, dear sir. I appreciate it."
*click!*
Take your time. We all need to find ourselves every so often. I still be here reading stories and thinking about what I want to do when I start writing one myself.
Finding one's self is a difficult quest, but not impossible. Take your time trying to find who you are, Lilia, and I say have fun with it, makes it all the more satisfying when you find out what kind of person you desire to be.
I wish you the best of luck, best wishes, and of course, I hope you find yourself sooner or later.
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Thank you, both of you. I have some... stronger thoughts as well, but I don't think it's a good time to publish them in a blog just yet. Maybe at some later date, when I've had time to ponder it all more and settle down somewhat. Perhaps then articulating everything that's in my head right now will become easier.
I'm starting to shut myself off from others again, and that's a problem. I think I would just benefit from a little more of... I dunno. Just interpersonal contact, I guess.
In the meantime, I suppose I can 'informally' announce that I plan on releasing at least one more chapter for Deos ex Caellis before going on a writing break/retirement; this time however, it's not going to be only my own work, since I don't think I could do it on my own.
Thank you again for being here.
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Hey, I'm here if you need me. I'm going through some similar feelings right now too. Misery loves company; why don't we let it filter off us together? <3
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I'd love that, honestly. I could truly use the company.