Things are not good. · 9:20am Jan 9th, 2021
Just wanted to give a heads up to anyone following me, and to those who are eagerly awaiting chapter updates. I apologize for the delay. I assure you the next chapter has been 85% complete since the last update. But things are so bad, i can't find the time, much less the motivation to write.
I assure you, I do mean to finish what I started.
But my mother's health has been progressively getting worse these last few months. This isn't something I'd normally share with strangers online. But I feel a bit obligated to let everyone know what's going on. It's NOT COVID related.
If you've been following my stories, then you probably know I sprinkle a bit of truth in my work; i suppose it was my way of both coping and preparing for the future. My mom is on her way to losing her 3rd battle with cancer. The other 2 times happened in her mid-20s and 30s. She's had more than 30 healthy years that she's grateful for, and now she just doesn't have it in her to face an old illness again. This last bout has taken more from her physically than the other times, and she has refused chemo therapy.
She's now in such a weak state that she can no longer speak to me, much less move on her own. It's okay though. We had a good long talk a few days before she got this bad, and we're doing all we can to make her as comfortable as possible.
I can't help but feel wronged, after I worked so hard to keep her safe from the Virus, bringing her groceries every week and running her errands. All this after entering a new, exciting, wonderful chapter of my life; just for an old illness to rear it's ugly head out of nowhere, and take her from me.
It's not going to be much longer. We can't keep her awake long enough to drink, much less eat anything substantial. And she's sleeping even after going hours without her pain medication.
Our eldest sister is already wanting to know what her share of the inheritance is, and is threatening lawyers even tho she doesn't have a leg to stand on... I'm dreading what the next few weeks is going to bring.
But on a happier note, before our mother got this bad, she was entertaining us with her adventures of drug use. So deep down, even when high on Opiods, she was still the same mom we know and loved.
i'm gonna miss her a lot. It's gonna hurt like nothing before to see her go...
You're not obligated to give us an explanation for anything. If you need time to deal with a bad situation, then you take that time. I only want to read the story so long as I know that you enjoyed making it, and it sounds like you're getting to a place where that wouldn't be the case.
Your situation sounds absolutely wretched, and I can only hope that whatever time you have left together is filled with as much laughter as there can be.
Pony words can wait. Other things can't.
My dads best friend some 15 odd years ago was one of the strongest people i knew when I was young, always surfing and playing/coaching football. He got skin cancer that moved into his lungs and lost his battle after a few years. The last time I saw him, he was in a wheelchair giving a half time speech at our local junior football club, and I could barely recognise him, he could barely talk.
Its always haunted me how much cancer took from him and his family, and I'm sorry that your going through it now, after fighting it for so long.
Your mum sounds like a true battler, just try and make as many happy memories now as you can and hold onto the ones filled with laughter.
Stay well mate, take as long as you need.
You had her healthy and happy for 30 years
That is what matters
Be there, love her and let her go when the time comes, that way she would be sure to depart without worries for you or anything in this world
And for your sister just try to get some evidence of how much time she visited and how often she did. sometimes that is enough to stop any procedure (depends of the state)
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Also fuck cancer
We understand, and we are here for you. It might not be like much, but still. May she pass peacefully.
My deepest condolences for you and your family. Take your time. We're here for you. My sibling-in-laws fell to bickering when their mother passed last year. Fortunately a Will was found and that helped settle the rabble-rouser down. May peace accompany you all though this difficult time.
I'm sorry to hear this. It's never good to see a loved one hurt like this. I wish you all the best luck in the world, and try to stay strong for your mom.
I lost an aunt to cancer a week after my birthday when I was younger. It's never easy to let go, but happiness will come again eventually.
Take as long as you need. We will still be here if you come back.
Sorry to hear about your troubles. Best of luck in the future.
I know its hard. I know it isn't much, but throwing some well wishes your way.