other things that seem important · 5:47pm Jun 3rd, 2020
- we would very much like to work on making a video game one day
- we would like a kitty or small creature to love and keep us company
- we would very much like to join a band
thoughts about these thoughts:
it feels like we are literally out of ideas most of the time. it's a sensation we haven't experienced before really, like anything we think of is old and not worth pursuing, and anything we can bother to put to paper is barely an idea in itself. we've had this RPG/adventure story in our head for years, and we can't manage to manifest it anything more than a vague title and the supposition that at some point a game might emerge out of it on its own accord.
even in lying down at night, forcing ourselves to try and think of something interesting or amusing or worthwhile, the most we can come up with is rehashing old grievances with people we'll never speak to again, and vague imaginations of a pony-butt nestling up against our crotch while we discuss the vague evolutionary circumvention that is anal sex.
it feels like all the big questions are impossible to answer and string together. it especially feels like everyone else has a life without us, where they talk to their friends all day and do exciting things and have jobs and goals and etc. etc. etc.
at one point our goal was to help everyone. that's too hard. now we wanna help ourselves, and after that we'll help someone else.
let's talk about video games
1. I would love to see what game you would make
2. If you do get a pet, remember you will lose that pet one day (sorry if this seems dark, but my dog almost past away a couple weeks ago, she still has no muscle movement on the left side of her face, but she is doing much better now)
3. What type of music would you make
My response would be pretty much verbatim of what Nightmare Bonnie said
The more I get to know other people, the more I come to realize how few of them lead happy, fulfilling lives. Everyone seems to have their own personal cocktail of troubles, be it external hardship, inner demons or - usually - both, each stoking the other. I used to think that I was broken and could never be "normal", but now I suspect that being broken is normal. It shouldn't be.
There is a discrepancy in how hard people got raked over the coals though, and things can get better. Helping yourself definitely is a necessary step to be able to help others. I hope that time will be kind to you, darf.
If you ever do make a game and need music assistance, hit me up! I'm no professional but I'm cheap, lol. Still learning at University how to do theory but I've made some good strides, I like to think.