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FabulousDivaRarity


I'm a Proud ABDL mommy. Writer of padded pony fics, a lot of fics about Shining Armor and his mom, several about Rainbow Dash and her family, and far more mom stories than you can imagine.

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    Hey Fimfiction. Sorry we left on depressing terms with the last blog post. I’m glad to say that’s shifted a bit in the months since. My depression was pretty brutal for most of the first three months of the year, but in April that really began turning around. I’m glad to say I’m doing much better than I was. I got a new therapist and I’m going to do EMDR and Trauma work with her. I’m hopeful that

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  • 11 weeks
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  • 17 weeks
    Happy 2024 from Florida!

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  • 26 weeks
    Life updates

    Hey fimfiction. It’s been a hot minute since I’ve been on here. Not since June. It’s wild how much things can actually change in five months. I decided to post on here because when it comes to spilling my non-story thoughts, this is definitely my safe place (thank you MLP fandom for that).

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  • 47 weeks
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Jun
26th
2019

A Life-Awakening Moment · 10:36pm Jun 26th, 2019

Hey everyone. Today is a very sad day for me today, and yet also an eye opening one.

When I woke up this morning, I thought it was just going to be another day. I opened up my facebook feed to find out that an old classmate of mine- whom I wasn't close to but was very kind to me- had recently had a severe fall, and was in a coma, and her family took her off of life support today. And she left behind a three month old baby girl.

You guys already know that I love my baby girl more than life itself, and how much I love my own mother. This really shook me up, to think that that baby girl will grow up without her mother, and not even be able to remember her or know how much she was loved. This beautiful little soul will always have a guardian angel watching over her, but she'll never know her mother's hugs or her voice telling her how much she loves her or how proud she is. And that little girl's dad will have to play two roles for her now.

I cannot imagine the level of grief they all must be going through. Mostly, I cannot tell you all how badly I hurt for that woman not being able to watch her baby girl grow up. The firsts she will never get to experience, the tears she won't get to wipe away, the nightmares she won't be able to comfort her from, and the fact that she won't be able to hold her baby. My heart absolutely breaks for her. She was only twenty three, and her life was cut short so soon. I pray for her to find peace, I pray for that baby girl to be okay, and for that Daddy to have the strength to do the job of two parents. I cannot imagine how much they all must hurt.

I realize now just how short life is, how quickly it can be ended. And I don't want to have regrets about what I did not do in this life. I want to dedicate my life to the things that make me happiest, like my family, and my writing. I'm not going to waste my time being angry- I'm going to do things in my life that I want to do.

So today, in honor of her, I say this: To all the mothers on here, hold your babies close, or call them and tell them how much you love them. To the daughters and sons, hug your mom or call them and let them know how much they mean to you. Life is too short to not acknowledge those most precious to us. Tell the ones you love how much you love them, and do a kindness for them. You never know when they might be gone.

I'm going to do the same.

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How very true.

My father passed away when his grandson, my son, was only 18 months old. What is sad is how much my son loved his grandfather, my dad, and how my father would've loved my son because my son loves engineering, building things, and other such things my father liked that I, as a result of my condition, just never cared to get into.

My father let himself pass away, though. He was a major alcoholic who hid his drug addiction from my sister and I. Though it isn't too hard to hide things from kids who both have visual disabilities.

When he passed, I had only then managed to hear him say he was proud of me. The last thing he ever did say was he was proud of me. Though not enough to hang on for his grandson.

So, as a father, I try to treasure the time I have with my son. I may be entirely blind and not able to interact with him as I'd like to BUT I do find ways and it is nice to feel a connection. More importantly is how, thanks to my dad, I have an extra drive to not allow myself to fall into any trap that would take me away from my son prematurely.

My son has been going to BronyCon with me since Age 6. It's been a wonderful father-and-son time. This is the last convention and he is going at Age 12. He'll also be saying a little something at our panel. However, most importantly, he's going to have fun by doing cosplay as his favorite character, samus Aran of 'Metroid', and sharing his talents as an artist. Talents that, sadly, I'll never personally see but genuinely know from all people tell me of what he can do.

So life is indeed precious and something to be lived to the max with no regrets. I want my son to never see me as any less a person based upon my actions. I want to know if my life should end that his would go on remembering his father valued every second and how he has so much potential and will forever be loved. Most importantly is how I'll, hopefully, leave behind a legacy to him that will allow for him to be strong along with a good person.

One never knows what life may bring but living to your fullest with no regrets each day truly is a wonderful thing. May you never feel regrets in life and never feel shame for who you are. Embrace your talents, delight in how you inspire and move others through your work, and keep in mind how you never know who you'll influence for the better by just being 'you'.

I’m not even 16, and these comments still relate to me, somehow.

Be it that I’m really bad at showing emotions, or the thought that something hasn’t happened yet, and thus it shouldn’t (and how wrong that philosophy is), but I need to give my parents more love.

I don’t know when I’ll start doing it, but I sure hope it’s soon.

Seeing a Family Member in Coma and turning off Life Support is Never Easy

Hey, hey, hey, comas are random. For all we know she might wake up tomorrow, or in ten to twenty years. Or not at all.

Point is, there is hope!


I think.....

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