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Winter Quill


AKA Theo Winters. A Long time pony fan, writer and all around wacky pony. Now with a patreon & ko-fi.

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  • 43 weeks
    A weird little EQG/Buffy story idea

    So, had this idea pop into my head a couple of days ago, and thought I would try writing up just to get it down on paper. I should say that if you’re not familiar with Buffy, this might be more then a bit confusing.

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  • 69 weeks
    Health, Mental and Physical

    To start with, this has been the longest pause in my writing since then late 90s, and it’s more frustrating than anything else. I feel like I can’t make any forward progress on any ideas, even though I’ve been starting to get more of them of late. I need to do something to change that, but it’s not as easy as just wanting to do something. Motivation and Action turns out to be quite different

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  • 98 weeks
    I haven't writen anything in two months

    I've not managed to put down a single word in the last two months, which might not seem all that bad, that but was after after four and a half years of daily writing. I managed to write something every day even when dealing with illness, loss, and the international dateline. Not that things were doing all the well in the months before, as I've been dealing with being just completely emotionally

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  • 109 weeks
    Unplaned Car Purchase

    Not to but to fine a point on it, but my car died over the weekend. I've had in for near 18 years at this point (and had < 100k miles on it) and it just simply died. Something is messed up with the electrical system, and I can't started it, or even jump it. I had replaced the battery a few months ago, and everything was working just fine until it wasn't. Thankfully it died at home, so I didn't

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  • 116 weeks
    New chapters coming very soon

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    6 comments · 406 views
May
9th
2019

Somedays I get so frustrated. · 4:58am May 9th, 2019

There are times I get so frustrated that I just want to scream and yell, that I feel like I want to post long rants about what I'm feeling the way I'm feeling. Yet every time I do, I always stop myself because all I can think about is how either no one would care, or people would end up getting angry at me for how I feel. It seems stupid, I know, but history has shown that to nearly always be the case.

Sometimes it just feels like I'm not allowed to feel this way. It's stupid, but I don't know how else to describe it. I know that really no one cares either way, but I still wish I felt like I could just vent. There are just some things I wish I could just let go on, but I just can't.

I don't know, it's just... I just want to be able to be angry at shit now and then without fearing that it will get people mad at me again. I find myself self editing anything negative or that could be consider down just to keep that from happening. Even with this post.

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Comments ( 4 )

Yeah, I know the feeling.
Honestly, I just post it anyway. It always makes me feel better, even if it is just a rant to the void.
But still.
There's still a shit load of things that never end up in these sorts of places.
I recommend having a friend to rant to if it is personal stuff, if not, the void of fimfiction will probably not care.
At least in my experience.
Who knows? I'm not popular, might be different for you.

Just write what you feel is right. Your true fans will always be there for you

Psychiatrist said: It's unhealthy to keep that sort of thing in.
Experience says: Complaining about stuff to your friends can cost you those friends.
So yeah. Can't say your worry is entirely unfounded unfortunately.

FTL

Sometimes you just have to vent or things just get worse. While some folks can hold it in and 'bleed off' the stress over time, others cannot... only time will tell you which you are. Even the most positive of folks have days where they want to just shout to the sky and rant.

As for driving people away... it often depends how you vent and also how you react to the way others respond to your vent. Some folks will always react badly to a 'vent post' and they should simply be ignored. Others will read and not respond as they don't feel they can add much to the situation while a number will respond with a generally positive or supportive comment. Some may even try to make suggestions and, of them, there will be the usual gamut from 'useful thoughts' to 'WTF?'

I have seen folks vent here on a vast range of topics. From the everyday run of the mill 'life just sucks this week' to full-on personal existential crises and family tragedies... they are all here and they get varying responses from the community. I rarely see purely negative responses to a vent post unless it is a post that is basically incomprehensible or either blatantly insulting to the community or irrationally blaming the community for something. Generally the community is very supportive.

It is up to you, feel free to let lose or not. If it is something potentially controversial, maybe PM some folks you respect to bounce the idea off first.

Your call.

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