I'm Still Here · 5:23am Nov 1st, 2018
Sorry this is going up late. Just finished taking my son trick or treating for the first time.
So.
It’s been quite a while since I posted anything, hasn’t it? I think I put up the latest chapter of ‘Wicker Mare’ in February. Since then, I’ve tried some new things. I tried to create a film blog (that lasted all of two weeks.) I sat down and re-examined the entire plot structure of the Continuity to close plot holes and trying to reignite the spark of it. I wrote two chapters of ‘Country Mouse, City Mouse: a Love Story.’ I developed the plot of a one shot called ‘the Long Con,’ but couldn’t find the motivation to write it.
And then I quit.
Yup. I threw my hands in the air, said “Screw it” and walked away. I locked the Continuity notes in my desk, saved the drafts for my hard drive, and stepped away for a few months. I began to give serious thoughts to how I would announce my retirement. Would I make a video? A blog? Would I update the unfinished stories with summaries of how they were supposed to end?
And I know some of you reading this are going “Oh Jade’s going on about quitting again,” but it’s true. And you know why?
Because I lost my love for the show.
Now, don’t get me wrong; I still watch it from time to time. But I’m not catching every episode anymore. I read summaries, and if the episode seems fun then I’ll give it a watch. But I don’t feel the urge to sit and binge anymore. I don’t cruise Youtube for PMVs and reviews anymore (though I watch DWK religiously.) It’s just… hard to describe, I guess. It doesn’t feel like it’s that important to me anymore.
A lot of it can be summed up with this;
That’s JanAnimations ‘GAME OVER,’ and I kid you not, it made me bawl like a baby the first time I watched it.
We’re entering a new chapter. FiM is nearing the end. The content creators are moving on. It’s staggering for me because my twenties have been so consumed with this show and this fandom… and you can really feel like the end is near.
I’m going to be thirty in a matter of months. I have a son. The wife and I are already talking about baby number two. I look back at old blogs and some of the old stories and I’m stunned that it’s already been so long that I’ve been doing this and…
And I realized that I can’t quit. Not entirely.
Because, damn it all, I love my stories. I love these characters. And I love all of you. Any one of the 899 of you who have followed me over the years. Any of you who ever read just one of my stories. I love every single one of you.
I don’t know what the future holds. I don’t know when the stories that are in progress will be done, or even when they’ll update next. I don’t know when the next blaze of inspiration will strike and I’ll find my way through another chapter. But I promise you this; so long as this site is still here, these stories will continue. Silence doesn’t mean I’m gone, it just means I’m being very quiet.
The excerpt I posted the other day is from a new story called ‘The Abyss Gazes Also.’ I originally meant to have it done tonight, but circumstances stopped that from happening. It’s about 800 words or so to completion, and it’s such a cool idea that I’m tinkering with it every chance I get. It’s actually a stealth sequel to one of my more popular horror stories…
Finally, there’s one last thing I’ve come to a decision about. I’ve been toying with the idea of a Patreon, but I’ve been holding off because I can’t ask people for money for products that have no arrival date. In January 2019, I’ll be launching a Patreon. I’ll have more details then, but I just wanted to tell you all it was coming.
So… that’s it, I guess. In summary; I’m still here, and I will be here for years to come.
Just because I’m not posting, I’m still here.
Wild horses couldn’t tear me away.
Happy Halloween,
Jade Ring
I have been thirty for a number of years. :B
Trust me, it only gets worse. D:
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Man, we were just at the county fair last week and I decided to ride my old favorite (the spinning starship thing) and I genuinely felt like I was gonna die afterwards.
Preach it.
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Yeah, buddy. :B
Well, good to have you.
Yeah, that video gutted me too. But I’m staying on the Friendship Express until it jumps the end of the tracks. (And heck, I’m going to be 30 in a couple of weeks.
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I stopped watching the show after season 5, but I still look at fancontent all the time. I think MLP has evolved past the show and can survive without it. (Honestly I wish more authors would ignore the show if it condtridicts their dtories, maybe I should follow my own advice and make the evil Glimmer story, sorry I went of topic)
-beats you with a rolled up newspaper- Don't scare me like that!
If you do ever end up quitting, I want to keep in touch because I see you as one of my friends, even if you don't. You're an inspiration to me. One day I hope I can become a writer like you.
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I'm with Ruby cast!