I chipped a tooth pretty badly. I nearly lost a close friend a couple times due to my mood swings. I even accidentally inflicted emotional damage to my boyfriend. I've been pretty depressed. I don't draw much anymore. Especially since a particular person told me that my art sucks.... in great detail.
I always have too much time on my paws, and... and I've realized just how lonely I truly
Apr
3rd
2018
Status update #8 · 7:03am Apr 3rd, 2018
Hey..... i tried to commit suicide. My boyfriend had blocked me, and family issues were getting so out of paw..... so, i tried to end myself. All i accomplished though, was make myself seriously ill. [sigh] It sure tells you where i'm headed, huh? 
Now, my boyfriend unblocked me, but we haven't physically talked to each other since. I'm seriously depressed, for i think he might just end up leaving me. Especially if he learned about my suicide attempt. 
I don't want to be alone.
Plus, the pain is getting worse....
Please don’t do it please my aunt commited suicide or i think but her artery was cute she bled out she was handicapped and wheelchair bound she died on the fucking toilet the toilet damn it she didn’t deserve that she never deserved to die like that she didn’t even say good bye so you damn well not commit suicide I already lost someone close to me i dont want to lose anyone else
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I too had a close friend commit suicide..... i watched him hang himself. Nothing i said helped either. But once you're in love, and then you find out you're suddenly blocked.... it wounds the pride. 
Circus, i realize what i did was wrong. And i'm sorry for your loss.
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I know how you feel to some extent i found her first please don’t try again if you ever need somebody else I’m here talk to me please someone as young as you don’t deserve the oain and to young to go I’ll miss you your friends will miss you *hugs chu tightly*
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Not one day goes by in my household, where there is peace first thing in the morning. I wake up to harsh words, and people fighting. The stress isn't good for my heart, nor my pain. And my siblings AND my mom do what they want.... and i'm powerless to stop them. My emotions see-saw, but no one truly knows what happens behind closed doors. [shudder] No one should live the life i've been living for years. Literally, i'm there just to follow every single command, like a pathetic puppy. I can't fight back, or i make things worse upon myself....
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Please don’t give up hope as long as you have hope you will get through anything and don’t worry i heard karma likes to strike back hard and I’m here i wish i could rescue you but alas I don’t have much money
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Hey, sometime in the future, i'm planning an escape. Me and my boyfriend are going to ditch my family, and i'll never once look back. Rumor has it, this will happen next month. 
Thanks for talking to me, my friend. *hugs* Let me know if you wanna email me sometime. I can't always reply, but i'll try my hardest. You remind me so much of Vince.....
Me either.
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Uh sadly I can’t really email you no internet and all plus I can’t really leave my family hanging you know but you have my full support and wish you the best of Look I’ll also give you all my good look for the month and next month ah im not like him at all and your very welcome
*hugs tightly*
I know I've said this before, but I wish I could do more than offer comforting words through a screen from the other side of the world.
I want to try and say something to comfort you...but I'm terrible at it, but just look at all the people who where scared by your actions. think of all the people that care about you, and all the people who love you...sorry I'm bad at this I'll go, but don't give you.
-Some random guy
Be strong, Rusty... *Hugs*
Don't let the pain overwhelm you. I believe that there's hope for you out there. Somewhere. Never lose a battle for you will always emerge victorious. One day, a miracle will shine upon you to wash away your despair. I beg of you to not lose hope. Please, don't be like me...
I am also depressed because of negativity in the real world. I've experienced...
*Being an outcast to my peers due to indifference that shows no acceptance [Because of my first language and being an Introvert]
*Loss of respect [When I found out that they're separated, I stopped loving them and treating them as such parental figures]
*Lots of mistakes [I abandoned my peers when it comes to group work in school. Many times to them and to myself for being a fool]
I don't want to see a friend like you to die since I believe that you can turn your life around if you just believe. Believe that everything will be alright. I may end mine someday since my mind is beyond the reach for salvation.
Again, stay strong, Rusty.
I am so sorry to hear that you are going through this. I suffer from depression (among other things) so I have been in places where I have felt helpless and even attempted to end my own life as well.
Just know that you have a lot of friends that care about you. Focus on the friends, family, and other people in your life that care about you. If someone doesn't have positive/ uplifting things to say, then cut them out of your life. That is a lesson I have learned over the years. Get rid of the negative people in your life. They will only weigh you down and make you feel helpless.
In terms of your boyfriend, sometimes people take themselves out of your life. It's okay. You have to let them go and move on to the next person. You aren't always going to be right for everyone. But on the flip side, you will be the perfect match for someone out there. So keep on looking until you find that perfect match. :)
Please, don’t hurt yourself again. We here all care about you dearly. We couldn’t bare to see you harm yourself or leave us.
Please, i’m certain that somehow and someway, things will get better. I can’t promise it’ll be tomorrow or next week, but I know it’s going to happen. Please, you are so strong - you’ve already made it this far - I know you can hold out until then. Please, trust me - trust all of us.
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Well..... then keep in touch. I like talking to you.
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You don't know how bad things got around here!
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Not one bit of respect. And the fight went out of me years ago..... it's why i tried so many times to kill myself. The emotional abuse is too much.....
Yeah.... like a nice warm, tight hug.
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My friend, my life ended once i graduated high school. My mother went through a long divorce, and all my friends ceased to keep in contact with me. I've been alone for years.... i don't feel a single emotion. But i can say, i'm not allowed any kind of freedom.
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Sweetie, this IS the one. I feel it. He's the only one i have on my side. Depression hurts, but i can try to pretend it doesn't.
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I mean, one can only take so much crap in their life.
Well.... i'm gonna try, at least. I'm not sure why i bother though.
4832578 In that case, I hope that you two will be able to work things out. Many hugs and snuggles to you.
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I will rusty i will not fail you